You see it from afar. Noticing the subtle glow.

"I'm sorry it hasn't been raining for you lately. Will the crimson of my wrists be worthy enough for you?"

"I'm sorry the rays of sunshine haven't been gleaming and lighting you up. Will the blaze from skin all the way to my bones, when I set myself on fire, be worthy enough for you?"

Notice the way I change when you enter the room.
Notice the way you make my lips curl into a smile when you speak to me.
Notice the way your face reflects so handsomely in my brown eyes.
Notice the way my body shudders beneath your touch.
Notice the way I taste on your lips, lust and desire.
Notice the way that I can’t live without you.

Notice the way I change when you leave.
Notice the way I have no smiles left, only frowns.
Notice the way you can’t see a thing through my glassy eyes.
Notice the way that my hip bones poke through my tee shirt.
Notice the way my lips chap and bleed when you kiss me.
Notice the way that I’m dying without you.

there are no kisses and hugs
no missing or love
were laughs become screams
and tears become streams

nobody dares to speak
for we are all too weak
and afraid of what should be loved

as my mum comes near
we all stand in fear
wondering who will be next
to be pulled by the hair
and get given no care
only painful kicks and stares

I tried hiding under my bed
for sooner or later I will be dead
we're all just living in dread

I can no longer take the pain
there really is no gain

because things are just different in my house...

She asked me
why her ex
was acting melancholy
& quiet.

So, I looked at her,
thinking she's got to be kidding
& said, "Maybe you broke his heart."

And she didn't say a word,
just gave me
a confused smile
& giggled sheepishly.

Geez.

He asked me
why his ex
was acting dramatic
& crying.

So, I looked at him,
thinking
he's got to be kidding
& said, "Maybe you broke her heart."

And he didn't say a word,
just looked at me
with pursed lips,
then laughed nervously.

*******.