This uneasiness in my soul
this loss of control,
What is this feeling
that's got my mind reeling?
Destroying my spark
leaving me locked in the dark,
This unnerving sadness
corrupting my axis,  
Is this my end
my final descend?

Its the dusk of a life
one belittled in strife
A man broken and alone
his heart turned to stone,
He can never understand
the constant reprimand
Maybe its time to stop
the devils now on top,
Such is the way of man
all it takes is a fan
A gentle breeze
to make us freeze,
To have us fall
without a stall
At the devils discretion
comes my constant depression,
Failures taking shape
with no way to escape
Just an attack
as I fade into black,
What more can I do
What else can I say?
I'm ready to fade away
Cause the world's now grey
and I don't wanna stay

I have this question
Bordering obsession
A question of why
I know you cannot lie
Why do I deserve your love
Am I not something to be ashamed of
I haven’t said a prayer
So why do you still care
Why do I fall back to you
Though you stay true
I haven’t been as faithful
But yet you stay graceful
Waiting for my return
Ready for me to mourn

And mourn I shall
Cause you raised my morale
I look to the sky
And as I cry
I think of your creation
Of this wonderful formation
I raise my head
But not with dread
Rather with pride
Because you are my guide
You are my light through the darkness
Making all my troubles harmless
A heart once puzzled
Has now been humbled

My mind finally calm
At the sound of a psalm
I’m no longer vexed
As I read your text
Rather filled with joy
No longer the devils toy
But rather God’s child
You see why I’m riled
I’m finally free
Of the devils decree
Of his terrible palace
Laced with malice
I’ve ascended my pain
Allowed peace in my vein

And all I can say is thank you
Because of you I grew
Thank you Lord
For being my sword
Thank you Master
For removing my disaster
Thank you God
For being my rod
You are the reason I thrive
Because of you I strive
I won’t taint your sacrifice
Rather I shall arise
No longer a wreck
But as God’s elect

Everyday seems like a new fight
I hate the ease at which I write
Though I let the words flow
I'd rather stay low
Be quiet and disappear
Not stir up your fear
To solely live life
No cause you such strife
Destroying your mind
Making the world go blind
Unable to be free
Are you starting to see
My words, they're a curse
But I'm in love with the verse
I can't seem to stop
Cause now I'm on top
With a taste for the flame
Addicted to the game
You've never seen me so hot
Well now I'm boiling like a ***
The words ready to spray
To just **** your day
But I just can't
I killed that chant
Don't deem me weak
Or attempt to critique
Take it as a mercy
I don't play *****
Because my words hurt
And I'll treat you like dirt
So while my soul still kicks
Don't forget my mind ticks
And when I've had enough
I'll start to play rough
To end all you dreams
These pitiful schemes
And run your nightmare
With a nice cocky flair
So don't tear at my patience
Or stroke my temptations
Just cause I'm vibrant
A'int mean I'll stay silent
I still have my vice
And you'll pay the price
For better or for worse
So you should call that hearse

Why wouldn’t I be mad
It’s too easy being sad
Wallowing in pity
With a life so ******
A life with no meaning
My mind purely reeling
It’s no fun being last
Existing in the past
No future to envision
Stuck in this prison
In a world that’s so dark
Always missing the mark
How could I not fall
I never heeded his call
He wanted to save me
He had the key
To unlock my joy
To unearth his ploy
But I pushed back
I left my track
And continued wandering
Constantly floundering
Never finding my light
Always rejecting my right
My right to believe
It pours like a sieve
Unable to maintain form
Destructive like a storm
I think it’s done
Where’s the sun
Why can’t I see
Is this it for me
Falling over this rail
Purely born to fail
So I give
I don’t wanna live
Take me away
I won’t stray
It’s my time now
And so I bow

Pow Pow*
A little boy dead,
Shot down by a cop in the street
Another victim laid at their feet,
All we see is red,
The community stricken with grief
Adding a whole new chapter to the beef,
Another trial for the world to dread,
Once again they get off scot free
Can you imagine the image that paints for me?
There are no fences to mend
This is a running trend

Welcome to the court
Officer Jones please report
He was just another ****
Just a stupid little bug
I swear he had a knife out
How could I not doubt
I feared for my life
I have a child and a wife
Why does he even matter
We should stop this useless chatter
We all know how this ends
Why bother making amends

Mr. Brown you were a witness
Could you speak on this business
I'm sad and depressed yet you ask me to speak
The child had no say he was thoroughly weak
Did a child of nine really frighten you
What other ******* would you like to spew
You saw a knife while we saw a pen
Blacks ain't never allowed to find their zen
If were not thugs and criminals y'all cant sleep
All you ever want are mindless sheep
You gun us down to have us stop
Then hold these trials that always flop

I'm mentally drained
Undoubtedly strained
You never let us rest
Always ready to be a pest
That woman there crying, despairing so loudly
His mother, his saint, wounded so soundly
That man there crying, pacing so sadly
His father, his teacher, parading so  wildly
Will you ignore their pain
And allow it to rain
Or allow them to win
To **** off one sin

Now you America its time for your trial
Just how long will you live in denial
Skeletons fill your closet
And yet you made a profit
You've destroyed our lives
But what is your prize
Your country is divided
These actions misguided
Our anger our pain
You believe they'll be slain
Be forgotten and stopped
I refuse to be dropped
To die like a dog
and lose to a false god.