I am so tired
And darling, you know I don't want to come over
But you asked me to
But you want me to
And so for you, I will

I am so sick
Of this love thing
I hate it
But you asked me to
You want me to
And for you, I will

I hate all of this
It brings me no joy
But you know
Being around you
Brings me all the joy in the world

I hate this
But if it's with you
I love it

Looking back into the night
Darkest storms, can’t see no light
Looking back through all the years
Looking back through all the tears

Looking back things seemed so bad
Life itself was all I had
Looking back I’d lost my dreams
Fabric torn, ripped at the seams

Looking back is not much fun
Remembering battles lost not won
Looking back in retrospect
I chose my path, time to forget

Looking back at a young boy
Kicking heels, heart filled with joy
Remembering him I feel ashamed
Was life so bad, or have I changed?

Looking forward to every day
Looking forward, I need to pray
The soul to cleanse, the heart to heal
A different way to think and feel

you were never mine,
i was never fully yours

and never will i ever be,
the reason you keep breathing

It's you
Drenched in sweat
Face pressed into my shoulder blades
Taking heaving breaths
Laced with I love yous