I’m sorry
For all the ways I broke your heart
The way I cut us off
Cuz I was craving somebody else
That went on to hustle my heart
Made some bad decisions in my life
Hey girl, I don’t regret it
All I can say is I’m sorry
For the way I hurt you
You deserve real love
From somebody who can return
the love that you’re giving
All I can say is I’m sorry
From the depths of my soul

Karma got me in the end
I’m more alone than I’ve ever been
And this is what I deserve
For causing all of this hurt
From your pain
There was nothing I could gain
Tried to make the right choices
For the both of us
Never meant to cause this misery
and the resentment you now have against me.

I’m sorry for all the ways
That I have let you down
Don’t expect forgiveness
From you now
I’m still saying sorry
For all the things that I have done
I confess I didn’t mean no harm
But I know all the ways that I broke your spirit
I hope through my lyrics
You will see I didn’t really mean it
To end in this way, had to leave you
When I seen you couldn’t even speak to me
No hard feelings darling.

Karma got me in the end
I’m more alone than I’ve ever been
And this is what I deserve
For causing all of this hurt
From your pain
There was nothing I could gain
Tried to make the right choices
For the both of us
Never meant to cause this misery
and the resentment you now have against me.

Sorry for all those words
That would have stung
When I told you I wasn’t in love
With you, the way I was in love with her
Was one of the hardest things
I’ve ever done
Had to follow my heart
Wanted to be with the one I truely loved
And that meant letting you down
I know I failed your trust
I know things will never be the same
And you have every reason
To be angry at me
For the love that you truely felt deep inside
And I cut in deep, like a knife
When I told you,
I couldn’t see you
As the significant other in my life
And I’m okay, I’m doing alright
Hope you found happiness
Hope you found love
All I can say is sorry
From the bottom of my heart

Karma got me in the end
I’m more alone than I’ve ever been
And this is what I deserve
For causing all of this hurt
From your pain
There was nothing I could gain
Tried to make the right choices
For the both of us
Never meant to cause this misery
and the resentment you now have against me.

©2018 Written By Benji James

What’s this feeling, you’re stealing
I know why you’re heavy breathing
It’s from all this ****** teasing
I know why I’ve got you screaming
It’s from the ****** I’m giving
Let your body rock with me
Talk to me baby
With your hips and the way they work
Take my breath away
With the way you ****
And I can’t help but feel flushed
The way you’re making my heart rush
Don’t stop now, can’t get enough

Take it to the floor oh oh
Too hot to control oh no
Working me out
In all the right ways
All these vibes
Make me feel like
I wanna go all night
Take it to the bed oh yes
Between these sheets
We can drown
In a passionate sea
Love flowing through
You and me chemically

Girls in stilettos oh, oh
Dress around her waist
Every inch of skin a new taste
Not a moment goes to waste
Pleasuring you, that’s my place
Lips on lips, face to face
Don’t want to escape
Your eyes gaze
Take me to outta space
With your loving
I’m something you crave to take
And you’re the drug I need
To fix this addiction
Yeah get the stress out of my system
Like that cheeky smile, you’re giving

Take it to the floor oh oh
Too hot to control oh no
Working me out
In all the right ways
All these vibes
Make me feel like
I wanna go all night
Take it to the bed oh yes
Between these sheets
We can drown
In a passionate sea
Love flowing through
You and me chemically

It’s getting steamy
Sugar rush is high
Take it to the table
Take it to the couch
I’ll take you anywhere
You want to do it, babe
I need all of you
Yeah you hear what I’m saying
No games here, not playing
All of you is all I want
So baby give me
All that you’ve got
Too much is never enough
Keep it coming, girl
You’re fire, I like the scent
There is no regret
I like the way our time gets spent
Yeah you get me off
In all the ways you know how
And that’s why I’m climaxing now

Take it to the floor oh oh
Too hot to control oh no
Working me out
In all the right ways
All these vibes
Make me feel like
I wanna go all night
Take it to the bed oh yes
Between these sheets
We can drown
In a passionate sea
Love flowing through
You and me chemically

©2018 Written By Benji James

2017 was a ***** of a year
Let go of everyone that I held dear
Wasn’t about to play second best
Did the right thing, oh yes
Had no time for the ones
That had no time for me
And I detect a hint of resentment
Yeah I wasn’t about to pretend
Of the ignorance that seemed
To be thrown my way

It’s alright
Better off without them
No need for regrets
What I did was for the best
Confident in those decisions
I must confess
No negativity in my life now I guess
But now I feel alone
That’s okay, I guess that is how it goes
This is just the life I’ve come to know

So much hurting, now a distant memory
Now I look around and all I feel is empty
Nobody left in sight
Removed everybody from my life
Was it all out of jealousy
Cuz they never seemed to have time for me
All I have left are shadows on my wall
Reflections in the mirror
Looking back at me
Is this how it feels to truely be lonely
It’s alright, I made that choice
Chose to listen to that inner voice
Whether it was right or wrong
I made my decisions
Now everyone I knew, they’re gone

It’s alright
Better off without them
No need for regrets
What I did was for the best
Confident in those decisions
I must confess
No negativity in my life now I guess
But now I feel alone
That’s okay, I guess that is how it goes
This is just the life I’ve come to know

Had a lot of time to reflect
Had a lot of time to listen
To all these inner thoughts
And I’ve got a brand new year
To turn all this around
Gotta get back out
I’m amongst the crowd
Find somebody new
Who makes the efforts
That I make for them
I know there out there
I’ll find them, I know I can

It’s alright
Better off without them
No need for regrets
What I did was for the best
Confident in those decisions
I must confess
No negativity in my life now I guess
But now I feel alone
That’s okay, I guess that is how it goes
This is just the life I’ve come to know

©2018 Written By Benji James

Much has been said
against me
however,
I will not be spiteful
or allow hatred,
the beast of darkness
that resides
in the black jungles
of arrogance
and ignorance,
to infect me;
for that is no reason
to give way to anger.
So I refuse to let anger
ugly my heart;
for anger
is the scorpion’s poison
of peace
and love, it’s sunlight.
I choose light
contentment and happiness,
as poetry’s not a contest
of winners or losers;
it is the essence
of a poet’s soul.

If I could
pinpoint the
exact moment
your breath
touched mine
washed me over
in ocean waves
sea creatures glowing
in delightful recognition
as the seedlings
of connection
shimmied into our being
and, dancing within me
in its own lifeforce
your mind a living,
breathing animal
your heart, purring
and whirring its sacred forces
into my molecular structures
your soul throbbing
in mitochondric pulsing
(oh what
a delicious vibration
of ribosomes)
Between us, we hold
the true treasures
close, in frothy
                       tenderness
a purity of the expanse
of our universe,
swathed in prismatic color
colors that shift,
these fresh hues
for which there are no name
they are lucid and fine-woven
as silk histories
yet deep as earthcore
your eyes, voice
are forever burned
into my own
every day scriptures
that rock my shattered parts
into wholeness
and,
like ancient magic,
I conjure forth
the holy gospel
rising from our bones
every second of
every minute
as our deepest fires
our most secret filth
our murky corners
our darkest hours
we weave into light
brilliant and lustrous
multi-layered in the richest
folds of the earth
and as you place me
upon the shores
of your garland-graced
                              throne
Now I'm alive in a new
kind of light
and
all I can do
is love
        and love
and love