I open my mouth to speak and I *****

It's hard to keep going when a tree fell in your way
That tree being fear
Fear that is encapsulating
Fear that paralyzes everything
I cannot move forward on my own
For the Lord has promised good
For the Lord will always provide
For the Lord is good
Sometimes the loneliness swallows me
Sometimes the guilt doesn't quite make sense
Sometimes I don't understand anything
This fear
This loneliness
This guilt
It all feels like I can't breathe
Begging for the Lord to breathe in my lungs
Begging to release the pressure and eliminate the evil
Begging for hope

Once upon a time
I loved you more than life
the feelings were returned
and you made me your wife
Then you fell away
your eyes being to stray
So I went my way
Now here we are today

I love u more than life
And miss you more than air
Always thinking how it might be
If we were still a pair
Our pepper would feel better
Our son would still be free
We'd prolly have a little doggy
And I would still be me

i opened my window
and the wind blew in
turning over a page
telling me
that it was time
to start a new chapter