i would lay next to you peacefully in our bed.
With a smile
Even if I knew I would die
In my sleep
She excreted a liquid, a fluid, my elixir.
Theirs a pit between her hips, I fell into the cauldron. A master of alchemy, a wizard of chemistry. She brewed me a potion, maybe it was poison, it felt like ayahuasca. I drank from her lips, punch drunk, I was dreaming. Bruja don’t curse me, take this malevolent spell off of me.
The headlights in my rear view mirror
Are the eyes of a beast, set to devour me
Turn out the lights
You’re still hot liquor in my throat
Make me ***** in an hour I love you
Need to be drunk, need you, NEED YOU-
(Utter alone, no family, an adult is.)
I hate how you taste in my mouth I hope we die.
You sound like carousel music in July, my whole body is warm my hair is standing on end, I worship your body, I kiss your lips, comfort me, come to me, come for me, that.
I open my mouth to speak and I *****
I am your journal, I am your razor blade, I am your pillow to scream in, I am your father and your mother, I am the blood you hear beating in your ears on quiet nights, I am your guide and your confidante and your consort, I am the one who takes the weight of the world from you, I am anything you need. Wear me like a warm coat, I am yours if you say yes; yours until you discard me, then I belong to the next. I can fix everything, I can be every drug, I can do it all say yes, say yes yes! my love say yes, yours, yours till I’m not yours yours yours
Pale blackbirds fly in and out of my life
Each more beautiful than the last