if you only knew how the sound of your voice sends ripples of passion
right down my spine
if you only knew how every i love you
in a tone sweet as honey
and warming as wine
is like the purest beauty of blue
on the ocean anew
when the sun is most high
in full adoration and simple awe of your accent while calling me baby
we always lose track of the time
and while falling for each octave
i engage in so deeply
i can never say a goodbye

and so i sit
i just listen to you breathe

...my god
what you do to me

Why?
Why do you bother
Coming here?

I look into your eyes
and all I see is
a wall,
a dark, impenetrable
wall,
and looking at you
while you look back
at me,
seemingly burning
a black hole
into me…
just hurts.

It hurts
like nothing else.
It’s a realm of hurt
all its own.

It’s a different hurt
than when my
son died,
my first son,
and I thought that
was the worst
it could ever get.

It hurts differently
than when ‘he’
cheated
and ripped
my ****** heart
out from the roots,
leaving a crimson hole,
an immeasurable
hollow
for all the world
to see.

This hurt,
it belongs high up
on a pedestal of pain,
so I can see it
again and again,
while it laughs
and glares down
at me,

with those dark,
impenetrable eyes,
just to watch me
tremble and weep

for this great hurt
that reaches so
**** far
and deep.


~ by Mercurychyld
Copyright 26 July14