A day in my head isn’t just a day
It’s a fight, a struggle, a war
A yearning for love
that I know I don’t deserve
you reach out but I stare with blank eyes
eyes that know.
eyes that see.
but i’m not ignoring you
i’ve been ensnared.

Dear lover, you left me behind
When I needed you the most
But that doesn’t matter
I started slipping, and you left me
I don’t care now, but that’s a lie
I would leave me too, but *******
Dear lover, you lied.

It’s been over a year since I saw you

Do you miss me?
Do you think about me every so often?
Does your heart get filled with a dull pain like mine?
Do you remember that night?

It was 2am and I couldn’t sleep.
I went to the window to get some air and look up at the night sky

And there you were
shining brighter than any other star
You in all your fairness made the moon a fool
You, oh so lovely you

Dancing alone in the enchanted night sky
And as your hair flowed so perfectly with the wind

My heart started aching, screaming, begging, crying, yearning

I had never wanted anything so much in my life as to be willing to just leave everything behind for a chance to be with you

But now you’re far away
Etched into my night sky
How painful it is for you to tease me so with just this view

Every night I look out my window
And I still see you dancing
Are you waiting for me to join you?
Will I see you if I leap?

Do you dance to see the light of day? Or do you dance to see the dark of night?

Do you feel my presence when we sway? Or does it all just slip away?

A dance with life implies a dance with death
We dance to feel
Or maybe we’ve felt too much
So we dance to be

We’ve danced for so long that our legs grow numb

We dance and dance but we don’t know why.
Why is it so shameful to just stop dancing?
Don’t look at me like that
Don’t treat me like that
Stop telling me that I can’t dance

I just don’t want to

Why does it even matter if dance or not?
The floor is still there and the music still plays
You can dance your dance but I’ve lost my rhythm

For I’ve been dancing for far too long..

I love you, but it hurts
The kind of hurt that we adore
The kind of hurt that makes you stay
The kind of hurt that tastes like cherry cola
So sweet you ignore the poison it harbors