i was born
with a heart too big to fit
inside my chest
and a soul bigger than my body
so i have chosen
to leave pieces of my heart
in the places my feet have known
in the people i have loved
in the words i have read
in the beauty my eyes have seen
and my soul-
i have scattered it like seeds
and i have left parts of it
in songs,
in poetry,
in the laughter of children,
in the arms that have held me
and the hearts that have loved me

I’m up all night
Trying to write a love song
But poetry that doesn’t rhyme
Really doesn’t translate to my guitar
I fell in love with you
Like the sunset over the ocean
Like the wind whistling through the trees
Like the birds waking me with their songs
Like a melancholy memory
Like a melody that soothes the soul
But none of that works in my song
I just want our song
It doesn’t have to be written by me
Because when you’re by my side
Love is all that surrounds us
No music, no sounds at all
But it’s the middle of the night
And I still haven’t written a lyric
Not one line that can say how much
I need you like the sun needs to set
Disappearing into the ocean to cool down
You are the light of the sun
Illuminating everything
And never noticing I am here
Because there is so much else to focus on

I wrote a poem
For you
I tried to change
For you
But I am
Light years away
Too far for you
To even realize
This is about you
I want to explain
My love
For your every aspect
When I see you
I see
An angel
Floating through the mist
A silhouette
In the moonlight
The only shine
Is the sparkle in your eyes
The mist clears away
From the light of your love
I see long brown hair
And eyes
That cry
Laugh
Sing
Sing the songs of love
The songs of loss
The songs of the millions
That feel this way
The first time they see you
Your voice is
A fragile
Priceless
Beautiful
Stained glass window
In a church
A window
Through which
I see my faith
My love
Your voice
Is a beautiful bird
Soaring quietly
Majestic
Royal
Up in the heavens
A blind man
Could see
How much you care
About the unfortunate
A deaf man
Could hear
How much emotion
You put in to everything
Pouring out your heart
Sometimes
I try to talk to you
And you actually listen
But I wish you could
Read my mind
Itself
Because
My tongue
Jumps out of my mouth
And I stutter
And sound
Like an idiot
When I try
To talk to you
I would quote poets
And artists
And musicians
From years ago
But you blow them away
I wish my words
Could explain
How I feel
And how I fell

And this is where
This poem gets dark
Sad for me
But good for you
I know I’m not
The only one
Out there for you
The only one
Who would light candles
And bring you roses
Dozen by dozen
With your breakfast in bed
It’s not about ***
No
It’s about
Love
Belonging
Faith
Maybe he is like this
Like me but
Better looking
Better sounding
I have no way
To take his place
So I might as well
Let go
Let go of the fantasy
Of stealing a kiss
On the beach
Under the fireworks
Let go of the belief
That only you
Can free me
I guess
I should just
Let go

I sit in class and stare at the back of your head
One seat ahead and two to the side
I can see the gentile features that make up your face
I love the glow of your essence
The magic that you dawn as your crown
I love you but I can’t tell you
The shadow you cast is what makes my world dark
But there’s no way for you to know
I want to hold you close and look in your eyes
And tell you how you free me
There are no assigned seats in college
But I count on your seat being filled
I need your existence so I am held in check
I need you to show me I am nothing
Just a speck in the sands of time
The sand in between your toes
As you walk on the beach with your boyfriend
And I am left wondering what my life would be like
If I could be with the girl
One step forward, two steps right
And a million miles away