I wish that I was different
I wish I could be someone else
Even if it was only for a day
I'd want to see how they live
If they were happy with their life
Or not
I'd want to see who they loved
And if they knew me
Or not
I'd love to spend a day in the life of someone famous
And see just how they do it
How they live their life day after day
Would they be kind to the fans that send them messages?
Or would they be cruel and torturous to their assistants
Even thought they help them so much
I guess my wish is to live in someone's head
Maybe for a day or two
Just to see how they live

Under heavy fire from enemy forces
I hide behind a concrete barrier.
Blind fire spray
take out a man and a woman.
tumble behind a wall, pop up
Shoot a third.
run down a corridor. Spot a fellow soldier
"group up!"
as we Charlie's angels back to back. He immediately drops to the ground.
"Evan!" no time to mourn. I'm in cross hairs
run down a tunnel watching my back.
Turn around to spot the most beautiful girl I'd ever seen.
Wearing the wrong color.
Tread quietly up behind her.
before she can even see me,
hold hip, hand tangled in hair,
kiss her against a barrier.
while she's stunned.
We lock eyes and exchange smirks.
I Shoot her.

"You fight *****!" she screams, as her vest beeps and recharges
Coming to life just in time to get revenge before I'm completely out of site.

when the game was over we
told war stories.
"We need to do that again sometime!"

Memories.
I like to go to places that hold memories and think
Think about all the good times we shared
Think about every second spent there.

I relive those times we shared
Like when you brought me to CIA
That cute little cafe in our hometown
Or the first day we met
Where Daemon and Max were throwing rocks at you..

I guess I just wish I could make you smile like she does
I wish I could cheer you up when you're sad
I wish all those times weren't just memories
But they are..

All we had
Is now just a memory...

People
I can't say I like depending on people
Why you may ask?
Well. People make promises.
Promises that aren't kept
"I promise I'll love you forever!"
When did forever become yesterday?
"I promise I'll never leave you"
I didn't know never was last month
People say they'll always be there for you,
In times of need, then they turn around and walk out the door when you really need them.
I guess it's because once I like a person.
I want to be a constant in their life.
I want to see them and hold them
I want to love them.
But I can't...

I've been awake for hours
Yet here I am. Still in bed...
It feels like getting up is something I cannot compel myself to do
Even if I wanted to

I've been crying for days
Yet here I am. Still in tears....
It feels like I'll never be able to stop bawling my eyes out every night
Even if I wanted to

I've been living for years
Yet here I am. Still wanting to die
It feels like someone is keeping me here no matter how many times I try to just simply disappear
I couldn't.
Even if I wanted to...

Show me your love.
Show me your love, not by sending me ***** pictures of yourself, but by taking me out.
Show me your love by buying me flowers on my birthday, or Valentine's Day, or any day.
Show me your love by taking me for long walks on the beach and laughing when I trip and fall into the water.
Show me your love by meeting me for a picnic in the woods or in the park or in a abandoned building.  
Show me your love by smiling wide and proud when you see me for I am yours
Show my your love by being mine and never leaving my side.
Just please show me your love.