I want someone..
That will love me, for every thing that I am.
Love all my flaws and love me even in my darkest times.
I want someone that would be afraid of losing me, so afraid that they would go out of their way just to be with me.
That misses me, even when I'm right there.
That's not afraid to love me, and to be loved by me.
That's not ashamed of being with me..
That smiles, not only on their face, but through their entire body when they see me.
That is filled with happiness whenever they think of me..
And yet that someone to me, is you.
But you will never know..
And I will never be your someone.
Because to you I am just a leaf, and to me you are my flower.
My beautiful flower..
For I am just an ugly leaf on your stem, pulling you down..

You blossomed into my life,
Like a flower on a spring day.
I picked you up,
And kept you for so long.
But eventually,
You started dying..
And even though,
You're just a stem now.
You're just as beautiful to me,
As you were the first day I saw you.

Time and time again,
I forgave you,
Every time you hurt me.
I took you back,
And you won my heart all over again.

But this time it's different,
You've hurt me one too many times,
And I don't know how much longer,
I can hold on..

You know there's a saying,
"Let go of them, if you truly love them."
Whether I let you go or continue to hold on,
I will always ******* hurt.

My scars don't reflect,
How deep my cuts and wounds really are.
Nor do they show,
All the pain and suffering you have put me through.

The tears that stream down my face,
As I write this..
They're all for you..

Some may call me stupid and pathetic,
For loving someone like you..
But please, please understand..
I am so very afraid of losing you.

Because you could be the best and worse thing that's ever happened to me,
And I don't know what to do..
I don't know if I want to let go,
And lose you..

But I know if I continue to hold on,
I'll lose you anyway..
So either way,
My choice will hurt me..
It will ruin me..

But what's the difference anyway?
Because you've already torn me apart.
You've already ruined me,
But you're too blind to see that.

You said, "Be right back"..
But you never came back for me.
You must have forgotten about me,
Like everyone else did.
Now I'm broken and alone,
And for some reason I still wait for you.
Even knowing that you'll never come back to get me..
Even knowing that I'm just a faded forgotten memory.
I loved you..
I still love you..
I loved you enough to wait all these years.
I only wish you would've told me before you left,
To save me from all those tears.