Her brokenness opened an opportunity for her to grow,
Yet the scars keep on reminding her about the hours she's wasted.
The shattered wine glasses are on the floor, waiting to perforate on someone's feet.
Her blood keep on spurting out from her flaws, yet she turned a blind eye when she sees a band aid on the table.

Crickets sing as the sun takes a nap
While the river continues to flow like a welcoming orchestra for the moon.
What has gone is yet to be reborn,
But when will it stop?
Will it be an eternal cycle?

Do you see the stars that smile so bright at night?
If you don't, then someone is covering your eyes, depriving you from seeing my value in your life.
A mist, perhaps, a someone whom you are blinded by your so called love in disguise.
But have you ever seen the knives behind her back?
Whenever you hug her, a treacherous smile was plastered on her lips and in her eyes.
Behind her mind was an evil plan, which is all about taking you away from me.
You were so happy without me because you were in her company, while she's enjoying your stupidity, toying you like a fool.


There was something that shines so bright at night,
I thought it was my reflection, a someone who sees me the way I am seeing you
Who also watches me from behind, who always flash a smile when we meet our eyes
A someone who shines brightly, flashing a bright smile for me.


Now, don't come back for me after you've seen her evil plan
I was there all the way chasing after you so that you'll come back
But you didn't even flinch
Now that I finally found the man I deserve, don't ever come to my door and knock and beg.

Utterance of regrets
Left my mouth, words slithering down
Snaking their way to you
I stomped on it,
Yet the message spread like a blazing fire, unstoppable
And it reached your eardrums


My world crumbled into pieces
I tried to rebuild it, but the pieces just won't fit in together
Because your love which served as the glue became lousy
It no longer has the adhesivity.

My momma taught me how to swim,
But I don't know why I am drowning now
Drowning in my own sea of tears
Caused by my untold sad stories
Of the past that keeps on haunting me,
Of the present which tames me into the "supposed-to-be"
And of the future which pressures me to be prepared upon.


My momma taught me not to cry whenever someone hurts me,
But how can I not
When my enemy is myself?
I constantly open my flesh using the silver metal
And the metallic smell of blood makes me feel alive
As the searing pain roar me to life
How can I not cry?


My momma taught me how to help others
That I shouldn't be selfish
That I should adhere to other people's rules
But how can I help them,
When I can't even help myself from tearing apart?
From killing myself slowly?
How can I?


My momma taught me to never surrender
But momma, you never asked my state right now


Why are you crying?
Your tears continuously fall on the glass of my coffin
Momma, your make up is smearing across your face


Momma, momma
The real you!
The real you is revealed
Without those make up, your dark circles showed up
And a tear on your lips became visible!

Momma, momma
I know that dad was beating you too
That's why I chose not to rely on you because I don't want to add up to your burdens.
Momma, I love you good bye.

As time ripens my immature mind,
I learned to ponder each of your lies
Pain seared through my veins,
Nausea filled me with good bye.


The forces of the universe
Impatiently tease and lure me into a temptation
As victory tasted sweet no more,
Bitterness wrinkled on my tongue

I gripped your hand so tight,
But rendered it useless
For you forced me to loosen it
How painful it is!

I gave you love, you returned hate
Pleased you with might, you destroyed me by fright
Honored your request, you disgraced me by fault
I endeavoured you to stay, yet you still turned and walked away.

A glass containing worries
Was served in front of me
To my dismay, I threw it away
But I didn't hear a thud
When it reached the ground
So I tilted my head
To see what has happened to the glass
And there, there was a young man
Standing taller than the mountains
He caught the glass
And winked at me
As he walked down the aisle
To reach my hands, my trembling hands
His eyes smiled from ear to ear
Those lovely dimples showed up
And his smile illuminated my darkened world
As he pushed through his way
I stumbled down the alley
I am doomed
I am in the brink of  falling in love again
Is he even worth the risk?

Before I was afraid
That I couldn't love again
The way that I have loved you
But look at me now
Standing on my both feet
With broken pieces I raise my hands
I am ready for another war
Ready for another battle
The arena is ready,
So shall us.

His body
A canvass of beauty
Painted all the faults
Made by anger
And mistakes
Molded by pain
Shaped by sorrows
But completely loved by the painter.

Even when the rain falls,
Even if the sun rays struck my skin
My beloved ink,
So red and dull
My blood continues to run
Down to my veins,
And spurts out from my naked wrists
My slit wrists.
My beautiful painting,
Adorned with love
Full of hatred for humanity
Torn between fantasy and reality
As the leaves fall down
During summer time
All the fallen leaves
Fly so high
Up above the clouds
By the whisper of gusty winds.

Your smiles
Fading away, fading
Away
Kilometers to miles
Fading, fading away

Clock tick tock tick tock
Clicking its hands
Clicking
Tick
Tock
It is vibrating
Screaming
Your name,
Screaming your name
Hoping that you'll hear my plea
My pleas
As I please,
Come home today
Come to me
Come.

Your absence
Strikes me with disappointment
Your presence
Was disgusting
But that was before
But now that
I have finally seen your value
I am missing you

Your absence makes me seek for your presence
Your presence that used to be with me always
Is now long gone
Come back to me

You've grown flesh and bones
The smiles which were used to be on your face
Seemed to be lost
Since you've lost your ace.

As if your life withered,
Gnashing of teeth,
Clinging to the wicked
Only to be saved?

You're falling
Hold on, take a step
You're going to make it
Come and hold me.

Don't lose hope.

You are in a group
While I am alone
I am searching for someone to talk to
But seems like I don't belong

I am walking at the center
And you gave me dagger looks
Seems like you disliked me afterall
For I have no one else beside me
I am alone.

Six pairs of eyes
Threw intensifying looks at me
As if they're ready to eat me alive
I feared
I am alone

While you are in a group
People around me gathered into circles
Laughing, slapping and kicking all around
Cheering each other to fight
While me, I am walking alone
We have the same journey
We have the same path to follow
But I am alone
Alone in the crowds
No one seems to admire me
For I am mentally disturbed
And I prefer to be alone
Oh, really?
Do I really pretend that I want to be alone?
Or I have no choice to be with?
Yes. I have no other choice
In this crowd of people
I have no one beside me
I am alone
No one accepts me
No one likes me.

His love beggars belief
Even in the heart of the crowd
Even if the mountains bow down
And even if the seas give way to the ground.

Every leaf of the tree of life
Tells me to reconcile
But as an innocent woman
I assumed I'm picking each leaf as petals
Of a rose,
Of a dying rose
A dying love.

Have I crossed your dream,
Or was I a nightmare to you?
Your eyes colored with beam,
But anger was instilled.

Do you really hate me that much
To the point of cursing the stars
And wish the moon to never shine again?

I have written tons of letters for you
All scribbled with love,
All written with passion
All adored with so much pain.

I have written letters
Saying how much I wish the sun to shine upon you
How I wish to see the moon on your face curving into a crescent smile
But you never noticed the oceans of tears under each word I have wrote.

I wanted to empty my lungs
With air and all the organs
And replace it with the dry salt
And be bitter with the liquor.


I have longed to tell you this
That every letter I write on
Reminds me of the pains you brought in my life.

A slender back walks down the narrow road,
Full of roses, colorful vines ahead
Her hair dances behind her **** back,
And her lustrous eyes full of wonder.
That's what you can see under the sunlight.
But when the night closes the blanket above,
The moon showers sparkling light.
No more, no more than a happy night.
It's a conjuring, spooky evening at all.
Thorny roses begin to rise,
It's petals turn into liquid red blood.
And her **** back turns into skeleton.
And her lustrous eyes become dull and lifeless.
That's the age her beauty fades.

He held me tight
As he whispered lies
I was sleeping
Under his spell.

His hands caressed my being
His laughs pierced into my soul
I was lost
Because I am under his spell.

In a crowded silence
There was I,
Standing along with the crickets
As the night falls.

Darkness embraced me
I was hopeless
I couldn't breathe.

Do heavens really open;
And greet everyone with a smile
Or with a thunderous laughters
That may destroy humankind?

Will oceans depart
When worse become worst
And allow people
To pass the crossroads?
Or will it devour them to be buried underneath its hidden shelters

Where demons linger and abode?
Do you think it's worth believing
That your religion
Shields you from harm?
Or will you accept everyones beliefs to avoid
The destruction of the world you fond?

I am burning cold
Your eyes give me burns
But my heart soars
You just made my life dull.

In the dying light, it's so old
At the corner take turns
You are that season bores
Let's dance at the hall.