To some siblings are a gift from God
To some siblings are a curse from hell
But to me....
siblings are...
A shoulder to cry on when I overflow
An ear to listen when I need to clear mii head
A body to talk to when I'm not in the mood
Mii help me when I can't do it alone
Mii life preserver when I swim out to far
Mii buddy when I wanna play
Mii closest friend whom no one can replace
Mii guardian who has mii back when I'm too busy covering the front
Mii treasure box in which I confide all of mii precious secrets
Mii compass for when I've lost mii way
Mii salt for when mii food is tasteless
Mii hope when I'm backed up against the wall
Mii night light when I'm afraid to sleep
Mii....
I have no more words to describe mii siblings for no one can truly use words to say just what...
Mii siblings are to me...

Standing here with mii paintbrush
With a blank easel staring me in the face
What to paint, what to paint
......
All of these thoughts running through mii head
The creative energy is flowing through me so strong its practically pouring through mii pores like the sweat of a hard worker in the hot beaming sun....
But none of it seems to make it to mii brain
I'm standing here not knowing what to do
Should I put this here, maybe if I put this there
.....
Ugh its so confusing
Why is this happening to me
I kno what I want to draw
But I can't
I dont know how
Maybe its the brush
Or is it the lack of experience
I slide to the floor
With tears sliding down mii face almost just as fast
Suddenly I begin to shake and I am lifted off of the floor
Scared but afraid to show it I stand still
The tears have eased up a little but just like the stream they forever flow
Suddenly black rings appear under mii eye for just like the panda my tears leave marks that even the biggest eraser can't rid of....
......
The paint brush begins to run across mii body
making me the easel
Everything from pain to punishment is being etched on mii body
Vicious thoughts, painful memories, my brutal past, my boring present, and even my discouraging future are all being sketched on mii limp body
I can't move, I can't stop it
Its as if......
I'm the easel of the world who has now become my creator

Thump- thump thump- thump
Thump- thump thump- thump
Heart beating so hard
I check to see if it is leaving a print
Sweat pouring down mii face
Hands shaking with fear
I pray to myself hoping that somehow
This all works out in mii favor
......
I pick up the gun
And wait for my turn
The room is so quiet
I can hear his eyelashes hit his face
The face that's covered with a slightly confident smirk
The face that's smiling at my fear
The fear that's evident throughout my entire frame
......
He holds his gun up
Aiming directly at my chest
Fear has engulfed me as I sit ****** with fear
...click
.......
Nothing...
There was no bullet
I'm still here
Now it's my turn
I take a deep breath
Hoping that neither one of us had to die but knowing that one of us will be leaving this world tonight
...click
Nothing
No bullet in the chamber
He's still here
He survived
....
Our chances are slimmer now
Only five chambers left
One of them holds our fate
One of them...
....
It's his turn again
Snickering with a glare in his eye
he aims the gun at my head
Is this the end of me
Am I about to die
No time to think
...click
.....
Nothing
No bullet in the chamber
Once again I dodged the grasp
The grasp of deaths cold hands
Once again I survived
Once again....
......
The chances now are slimmer than before
Only four chambers left
One holds the bullet
One holds our fate
One holds....
.......
Mii turn has come once again
Once again I have the power
Once again I can take his life
....
I aim
Slowly I curl my finger around the trigger
I pull, and...
......
Nothing
No bullet in the chamber
He's still here
He survived once again
Once again my life is in his hands
....
He aims at my head
My life flashes before my eyes
Flashes at the speed of light
I see my childhood
My teenage years
My...
...click
......
Nothing
No bullet in the chamber
Chance of survival
I'm still here
....
Three down and three to go
I wait anxiously
Its my turn again
I pick up the gun
And I aim it at his chest
I pull the trigger and...
....
Nothing
No bullet in the chamber
Nothing
No smiles, no sweat,
Only anxiety  and fear
....
He picks his gun up
With two chambers left
I see the smirk on his face
I know that this just may be my end
......
He aims
He curls his finger around the trigger
He blows me a kiss
And pulls....
.....
Aaaahhh!!!
The pain searing through my body
Like fire, burning my insides
Its as if I've been tranquilized
The image before my eyes
Fades slowly and I know
I've been hit
......
I grab the bleeding patch
The blood seeping threw my shirt
I hold on as firmly as I can
Slowly I lose my balance
The gun clanking
Falling to the ground..
......
I see you walking away and I can't let you go
I reach out to the gun
Grab it
Call his name
And pull the trigger
Now on my last breath...
......
Seeing him fall
Head thudding against the floor
I sigh and fall back with my last thought being
What a bad game of Russian Roulette

Imi soptesti vorbe dulci, in timp ce-ti ascuti spinii,
Ca prin vraja ma atragi printre portile gradinii.
Si se-nchid in urma mea cu un scartait incet,
Soarele dispare-n zare lasand cerul violet.

Eu te caut fermcat printre atat de multe flori
Ce ma incanta si m-atrag cu ale lor calde culori,
Frunzele fosnesc in juru-mi, in explozii de ecou
Tu incet prepari veninul in amurgul indigou.

Si pasesc increzator, nestiind ca o sa m-ataci
Fiindca asupra ta vegheaza o armata de copaci,
Si ma zgarie si-mi par un sinistru labirint
Luna imi ghideaza calea cu a ei raza de argint.

Stralucesti printre frunze atragandu-mi privirea,
Caci mirosul tau ma cheama si-mi ineaca gandirea,
Inima-mi tresare tare fiindca tu-mi promiti saruturi
Inauntru o simt *** bate simultan cu mii de fluturi.

Si imi canti incet un cantec intr-o liniste de gheata,
Insusi labirintul verde se trezeste usor la viata.
E o lume de poveste, totu-mi pare ca-i un vis
Tu sirena din adancuri, ma atragi inspre abis.

Simt liane *** se aproapie, si se incolacesc pe mine
Si ma trag tot mai aproape aducandu-ma la tine.
E de ajuns sa te privesc si raman pe loc lovit
Simt doar inima *** bate, caci in rest am amortit.

Nici medusa insa-si cu ai ei ochi patrunzatori
N-ar putea sa ma inghete si sa-mi dea asa fiori.
Cu niste lanturi cuprinzi intreaga mea fiinta
Impietrit si fascinat eu privesc cu neputinta.

Ghimpii-ncep sa ma intepe  si in carne isi fac loc
Simt veninul *** patrunde si *** sangele ia foc.
Caci cu cat m-apropii tot mai mult tu ma ranesti,
Si in crunta-mi suferinta tu continui sa zambesti.

Sfaramat in mii de cioburi, ma atarn de-un fir de ata
Doar prezenta ta himera ma mai tine acum in viata.
Insa tu dai drumu lantului, si ma zgarii violent,
Din atatea rani deschise veninul se scurge lent.

Naucit ca sunt iar liber, tremurand m-am ridicat
Chiar si ghimpii tai uscati, eu incet i-am scuturat.
Doar in inima au ramas, caci mi-e frica-n lipsa lor,
Viata incet mi se va scurge printe gauri s-am sa mor.

Simt un foc adanc in suflet care arde irizat
Si cu infinita lui ardoare, ma consuma infometat,
Caci te vad acum mai clar si incep sa realizez,
Ma ranesti doar stand acolo desi eu ma-ndepartez.

Nu sunt ghimpii ascutiti ce m-au stors usor de sange
Nici veninul tau fierbinte ce din vene mi se scurge
Nu-s nici vorbele otravite ce le spui tu cu blandete,
Caci desi nu vrei s-o faci, ma ranesti prin frumusete.

keep the doors shut,
keep them closed.
when the wind blows, don’t let them open,
don’t let the doors go.
the knocking sound calls you to open up,
but don’t let careless emotions show!
keep the doors shut!
no matter how many knocks you hear below!

keep the doors shut,
keep them closed.
when voices start to grumble inside,
it’s tempting to let world know.
feeling like a hero?
maybe like that open gate’s a grove,
where people will be safe inside,
where people will find a home!
get rid of all your lies!
your words could never bring them hope!
keep the doors shut!
for they will always choose that rugged road!

-keep the doors shut
because opening them
only lets the darkness in
every time your try to show the light-

-keep the doors shut
because mosquitoes make their hives
right outside the walkway light
and come inside in expert time,
enough to **** your blood-

-keep the doors shut,
for being a symbol is a wanton game,
a desire to be held the same,
praised and pulled in every way!
don’t you love the spotlight gaze!
and the feeling of a voice heard in a moments daze!
your words plastered on some expensive page!
it’s good enough for a pleasant date,
but turns your heart into a bad omen-

Why am I searching for love
When its apparent
That love has never started searching for me
Why am I searching for love
Is it because I want it
Or is it because that's what I think I want
Why am I searching for love
When as I look around
I see all of mii close family and friends
Being hurt by this this...thing called love
Love is supposed to be gentle
Love is supposed to be kind
Love is supposed to be sweet
But love is really just like...
A new video game
You see everybody else with it
So you want it to
You have to have it because its the latest trend
So you go out and you search all the stores
Finally when you're about to give up
You stumble upon the last store open that day
You go in and low and behold
They have exactly what you're looking for
So you buy it
You do a little more looking
And when you see nothing else that pleases the eye
You take your new game home
Once you get it home
You're so anxious to open it
You can barely contain yourself
You hook it up and plug in the t.v.
You've never had anything like this
So you're rather inexperienced
You cut it on and its like magic
Fills the entire room
The home screen appears with the words
"press start" blinking across the screen
You press start
Nothing happens
You press it again
Still nothing happens
You press every button on the controller and finally the screen goes black
Whew, finally you're in
But still nothing happens
The screen is frozen and you don't know why
You hit the t.v thinking that your problems lies there
Of course its the t.v.
The t.v. is old and rugged
But the game is new so I know that's not the case
You hit the t.v.
Shake the t.v.
Unplug and plug the t.v. back in
Still nothing happens
So you wait...
Still nothing happens
You're beginning to get upset
Why is this happening when this game is brand new??
I know this is mii first time but it shouldn't be to difficult.
It never appears this difficult for the others ...
Maybe I should read the directions
.......
There are no directions...
For no one knows the true outcome of this game we all call love.
Its the type of game where you just bluskidoo and jump in
You know where you're going but not what's going to happen
You predict you're situation by looking at others situation
But it doesn't work like that
For love...
Is not a game...

maybe its not as badd as it sounds..maybe to yu i look like a clown...
no exacli why im hurting inside...cuz of mi emotions tht yu made
*** across mi mind....now im burning in the inside cuz of the things mii heart
has to hide.....***** things thtz been kept inside,of me....i just wanna
set  my feelings free........

if i die...can i decide where to go...
this gurl put a knife in mii hand
for me to hold...and i see..tht this..girl
looks exacly like me...where i am..
is so cold...every where i go..this
girl shows...in through the door..
i go..it close..uhmm yea and this
gurl everyone knows...to me
she keeps holding on...dark glass
all around..but i can still see my image...
so ig this girl i believe is me...****** in the
1 degree...in this book i see....the author is
this girl and the illistrator is meeeee.....

do yu knw...that dark reflection of you that moves whereva you move....
and knws you very well...cuz it be's around you everii 247.......................
do yu knw that your shadow is apart of who you are....and realli dnt.....
let yu go verii far....it is apart of me...thtz why its not tht easy to .....see..
cuz mi shadow is me....sumtimes mii shadow is actualli sometimes trueli
happier than me.....

Let me out of this cage
That man calls low self esteem
I will not travel down the road of
Down trodden dreams
I will lift my head up high
High up to the sky
Where only God presides
And there will I survive
I will praise the one who made me
And love the ones who hate me
I will not settle for less when I am truly greater than the best
I had this thing called life and then I dropped it
I had this this called love and let it slip through mii fingers
Burst into a stream of tears
The tears that wash my hurt down stream
And opened my cage of
Low self-esteem

like people dnt take me as i am they take mii like a joke

Ok first of all **** HURTS! Guess she did it b4 n maybe her experience was not very good, perhaps thats why she told u its gross n all.

Why did my crush open my snapchat and not reply?
My life is so huge I have to blog about it.

Why is there racism, ISIS, ****** slavery, massive killings, poverty? Why is life so hard?

its to krazii for people to understand ***

"Doream ca tu sa-mi fii alaturi,
Dar ai disparut si m-ai lasat plangand.
Vedeam sute de frumoase meleaguri.
Dar doar tu-mi erai frumoasa in gand."

Am sa te fac sa te ineci in sange
Si o sa iti vezi mama *** te plange.
Asa *** plang si eu de cateva luni incoace
Din cauza ca tie nimic nu-ti mai place.
Orice as face, nu e bine.
Oricat as incerca, tot nu o sa te am langa mine.
Tot ce faci e sa ma ignori
Fara sa stii, sau poate cu buna stiinta, ca asa ma dobori.
in plansete o tot tin
Si doar asa mai *** sa dorm.
Din al tau sange as face vin
Si doar cu el as putea sa te transform.
Dar degeaba, eu nu te *** rani.
Tu poti si o tot faci.
Caci tu pentru mine esti un zeu
Iar eu pentru tine m-as lupta cu mii de draci.
Am ganduri rele,
Incerc sa le alung.
Sentimentele-mi sunt grele
Si de realitate as vrea sa ma disjung.
Tu o sa-mi ramai vesnic in gand
Si eu doar cu gandul am sa raman, vesnic plangand.

Why am I  inflicting pain on others?
What did they do to me?
That makes me so angry?
And when i am angry I feel like i want to hit somebody
That is terrible
Because I am hurting the other people
And that alone is called assault
Yes I can be charged with assault
And I will end up in jail
I been in Jail before
And it wasn't a nice place to be
God I know that I have to apologize to those that i hurt
God I am not sure if the people will accept my apologies
God I don't like to hurt people
God I  am a strong men
And I know that when I hit people I could **** them easily
God I need to stop hurting people
God I want to have friends and not enemies
God I love you
And I want you to know that
God I have lots of friends in my life
God my friends respects me
God why can't I respect my friends
Because my friends need my respect
God I am a human being
And you created this human being that is me
With your holy hands
God I feel more relaxed now
And I am happy to be relaxed
God I know that you love me
Because I am one of your children
God I promise that I will behave now
Because I need to behave now
God I need help with  my anger
God I am having a good night sleep
God I need to go to bed early every night
So that I can have a proper sleep
God I don't wake up tired anymore
I wake up feeling refreshed
God I want to worship you every day
God I have feelings
God I am taking my medication for depression
God I never miss my medication
God I am a good person
God winter is here
And I must tell you that I hate it
God outside is very cold
God I need to write my thoughts on my computer
So I don't forget it
God will you give me another chance
God I love myself
God I will pray for my dear friends
God I love the moon shining in the sky
God I can't wait for this day to end
Because I want to return to my bed
God I love my bed
God my bed is very cozy and warm
God don't ask me to sing you a song
Because I can't sing
God will I be here tomorrow
Because I just want to live
God I need to live my life now
Every single day
God I will meditate because by meditating it will help me to stay calmer
God I want to learn to forgive people
God I have to learn to have patience with people
God I want to stay out of the hospital
Because hospital is a terrible place to be
God there are people that supports me in my life
God I am feeling bad for hurting people
God I don't even know if people will accept my apologies
But I feel that I need to apologize to the people that I hurt
God i got money to buy my food
God I got to learn to love people
God I hope that I can forgive myself for doing bad things
God I know that we can't put a price on health
God I love my home
God my home is my sanctuary
God I want to live in peace
God I am a good Christian
God I need to have a balanced meal
God I know that you died on the cross for my sins
And came to judge me
God I don't mind that you judge me
Because that is your job to do
God I want you to bring the sun for me
Because I need the sun
God let me tell you how I feel
God I am feeling good about myself
God I am so sad that the birds had flown back south
Because I miss their symphony
God we said good buy to summer a long time a go
And now we said hello to winter
The winter is very long and boring
God I don't judge people
God I accept people the way they are
God I never smoked a cigarette
God I have healthy lungs
God I never drunk any alcohol
God I will stay sober
God life is tough
Good I have a hard life
God soon the morning will end and the afternoon will arrive
God please tell me that you love me
Because I want to hear from you that you love me
God in the winter it gets dark very early
And I hate that
God I have plenty of love to give to my friends
God I want to learn to deal with my anger
Because I feel that it is getting out of control
God I am hungry for your words
God please preach the bible to me
God use me where ever you need me
God I been sad now for a long time but I never cried
God I want you to end this day now
Please bring the night now
God let the moon shine in the sky
God I want to see the moon shining in the sky
God I want to be a part of your world
God I can't live without food or water
God please feed me every day
God i feel very bad about the things that did
God I want to hold you in my arms
God I want to kiss you
God we belong together
God we have a good relationship going
And I feel that we need to work together on our relationship
God please guide me where ever you want me to do
God I am not good with money and that is why I never have money on me
God when I have money I spend it very fast
God your my father and I am your child
God what more can i do for myself
God I am not feeling depress right now
God every Sunday I come to your house
God you are the healer and I feel that you have healed me
God I believe in you
God I trust you
And I know that I got to take care of my health
God I have to say good bye to you right now
Because I am going to bed
Don't worry God because I will take care of my hygiene
God right now I have lots of energy
God I am not feeling stressed out
God the trees are now bare for the winter
God this year is ending fast
God I worry about my anger issues
God I worry about my health
God I worry about my sleep
God I promise to be good
And not harm any body anymore
God I am not a killer
When I need you God I will pray to you
And I hope that you will answer my prayers
God the time went fast
It is now mid night and I still up writing away on my computer
God here I am praying to you
Today it is dark and grey
There is not much sun during the winter
God I am happy to be alive
God I know that I have a good life
God you never let me down
But I let you down so many times
And I want to say sorry  for letting you down
God it is hard to express my feelings when I talk
I prefer to write my feelings on my computer
God I already made so many mistakes in my life
And I have learned from my mistakes
God I don't want to talk about the past
God I want to talk about my future
God I need to talk about my future now
God it is only winter and it is a warm winter night
God rescue me when I am feeling depress
God I don't want to feel depress anymore
God I have so much to be thank full for
God I am very generous when I give something to others
God I don't want to fight anymore
Because I find fighting to be very bad for me
God I want to live that life that I live that is full of freedom
God I don't want to think about bad stuff
God I want to throw the bad stuff in the garbage can
God the world needs freedom
When will there be freedom in this world?
God mental illness is not a joke
God I have a mental illness
God there are countries that have war
And th innocent people are dying every day
God please tell me when the war will end?
There are young children being trained to be soldiers
In this brutal war
There are shortage of food and medical supplies
They are blowing up churches houses but not hospitals
The people who make the bombs to use in the war are getting rich
People it is time to stop the war now
This brutal war is going on for so long
Some people are suffering from post stress disorder
Why kids can't be kids?
Why kids can't play?
Kids have the right to their education
It is time to stop child labour in the third world countries
We are polluting the earth
We are killing the wild life
And marine life
The oceans are already polluted
What are we going to do when there wont be anymore fish in the oceans?
I don't think that we will be able to save the marine life and the wild life
Soon I believe that the fishermen will be out of jobs
We have so many refuges living in Canada
And Canada is their home also
We are so lucky to live in Canada
Because there is no war in Canada
There are people from different countries living in Canada
God I am not afraid to die
I know that I will die some day
I don't know the hour or the day that I will die
God I still have a life to live
And I will live it
God I love my life
Because it is simple
God I need some fresh air
I will go out soon and get some fresh air
God I never took peace for granted
God I don't take my health for granted
God I am taking good care of my health every single day
God put  smiles on my face
So that I can smile
I think people want to see me happy and not sad
I know that I have a beautiful smile
God I want to live in the real world
Because I need to live in the real world
God I am a dreamer
And I don't dream big
Yes God no body will pay me to dream
God we will praise you every day
God there are times that I need a break from people
God I never lied to you
God I am always telling you the truth
God I must say that I am  a bully
God I am feeling so ashamed   for have behaved badly
Do you understand me?
God I need to be a roll model for others
God I don't know where to go for help when I am upset
God should I turn to my friends and tell them that I am upset?
Will my friends understand that I am upset?
Will my friends help me to calm down when I am upset
God I know that I can turn to my friends for help
God I very to live my life to the fullest every day
God so many people had broken my heart already
God can you fix my broken heart
People don't call me a saint
I am not a saint
Because I am always hurting
God I want to live la vida loca
God I am not hearing voices
There is no body talking to me
When I sleep I snore very loud
It is terrible that it is happening
I sleep all thru the night
And I never wake up in the middle of the night
Sleep is very important for me
I need to go to bed early every night so that I can get a proper night sleep
God watch me while I sleep
God I will get over with my sadness
God I believe in children
God I am the hero in the children's life
God I  had dreamed that I reached the sky
And I had written my name on the sky
God I  am feeling rested today
Because I just woke up now
God i am not a stranger to my depression
God sometimes I feel that I been on a roller coaster ride
And it keeps moving very fast non stop
God I am afraid of heights
God I never want to sleep in during the morning
Because if I sleep in in the morning I will be waisting the day
God you gave me a blessing with your holy hands
God I am not selfish
God I will never hurt you
Please try to understand that
God I  will try to keep mii cool
I know that will be hard to do
But I got to do it now
God I blame myself for hurting people
I will forget about it now
And move on with life
It makes me sad to know that i hurt people
God I cried so much today
Because I am sad
And there are tears that are falling from my eyes
God please wipe the tears from my eyes
God I  never bottle my feelings up
God I let my feelings out
God I  must tell people when I am angry
I don't know if people will understand that I am angry
God I  am up already and it is a new day
It is two in the morning
I am full of energy
I sometimes act on impulse
That is a terrible thing to do
God I am a people's person
God I want to be around people
God you gave me a brain to think
So I must use it
God it is winter time
And the weather keeps changing
That is how people get sick
People tell me that I am a good men
And I believe that I am
God I hope that people are praying for me
Because i need some prayers

Neajunsuri
Am scris mii de cuvinte, 0 răspunsuri
Sute de paragrafe în ani fără repercusiuni.
Locul mă înghite
Nu tot ce zâmbește, minte.
Și totuși încă scriu cuvinte.
Inima sparge în palpitații
Mintea râde și întristează generații
Iar mi-e frică, iar mă mint, iar adorm în fibrilații.
Neajunsuri, se rezumă
Ce să calculez, când tot e în venă.
Mintea conjugă, durerea e genetică.
Mama râde și mă-ntreabă dacă eu chiar am inimă.
Eu cu ochii pe sub unghii, ascult și jur că cineva mă strigă.
Poate e băiatul de pe trotuar spunând că sunt înstărită ,
Tata ajungând și-n Afganistan, are buzunar de armată.
Poate e doar o proiectare și altă inutilă supărare,
Un comentariu rupt în soare, o rază arzătoare.
Eu ascult și mi-aș astupa buzele.
Să nu mai aibă dorințe.
Adevăruri, minciuni... O sărutare.
Ce-mi mai stă în cale.
Îmi e frică, poate sunt eu
Nu oameni, nici minte nici Dumnezeu.
Rup din mine pentru nimeni
După încep să caut,
Liniștea caută și ea crize,
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Why am I inflicting pain on others?
What did they do to me?
That makes me so angry?
And when i am angry I feel like i want to hit somebody
That is terrible
Because I am hurting the other people
And that alone is called assault
Yes I can be charged with assault
And I will end up in jail
I been in Jail before
And it wasn't a nice place to be
God I know that I have to apologize to those that i hurt
God I am not sure if the people will accept my apologies
God I don't like to hurt people
God I am a strong men
And I know that when I hit people I could **** them easily
God I need to stop hurting people
God I want to have friends and not enemies
God I love you
And I want you to know that
God I have lots of friends in my life
God my friends respects me
God why can't I respect my friends
Because my friends need my respect
God I am a human being
And you created this human being that is me
With your holy hands
God I feel more relaxed now
And I am happy to be relaxed
God I know that you love me
Because I am one of your children
God I promise that I will behave now
Because I need to behave now
God I need help with my anger
God I am having a good night sleep
God I need to go to bed early every night
So that I can have a proper sleep
God I don't wake up tired anymore
I wake up feeling refreshed
God I want to worship you every day
God I have feelings
God I am taking my medication for depression
God I never miss my medication
God I am a good person
God winter is here
And I must tell you that I hate it
God outside is very cold
God I need to write my thoughts on my computer
So I don't forget it
God will you give me another chance
God I love myself
God I will pray for my dear friends
God I love the moon shining in the sky
God I can't wait for this day to end
Because I want to return to my bed
God I love my bed
God my bed is very cozy and warm
God don't ask me to sing you a song
Because I can't sing
God will I be here tomorrow
Because I just want to live
God I need to live my life now
Every single day
God I will meditate because by meditating it will help me to stay calmer
God I want to learn to forgive people
God I have to learn to have patience with people
God I want to stay out of the hospital
Because hospital is a terrible place to be
God there are people that supports me in my life
God I am feeling bad for hurting people
God I don't even know if people will accept my apologies
But I feel that I need to apologize to the people that I hurt
God i got money to buy my food
God I got to learn to love people
God I hope that I can forgive myself for doing bad things
God I know that we can't put a price on health
God I love my home
God my home is my sanctuary
God I want to live in peace
God I am a good Christian
God I need to have a balanced meal
God I know that you died on the cross for my sins
And came to judge me
God I don't mind that you judge me
Because that is your job to do
God I want you to bring the sun for me
Because I need the sun
God let me tell you how I feel
God I am feeling good about myself
God I am so sad that the birds had flown back south
Because I miss their symphony
God we said good buy to summer a long time a go
And now we said hello to winter
The winter is very long and boring
God I don't judge people
God I accept people the way they are
God I never smoked a cigarette
God I have healthy lungs
God I never drunk any alcohol
God I will stay sober
God life is tough
Good I have a hard life
God soon the morning will end and the afternoon will arrive
God please tell me that you love me
Because I want to hear from you that you love me
God in the winter it gets dark very early
And I hate that
God I have plenty of love to give to my friends
God I want to learn to deal with my anger
Because I feel that it is getting out of control
God I am hungry for your words
God please preach the bible to me
God use me where ever you need me
God I been sad now for a long time but I never cried
God I want you to end this day now
Please bring the night now
God let the moon shine in the sky
God I want to see the moon shining in the sky
God I want to be a part of your world
God I can't live without food or water
God please feed me every day
God i feel very bad about the things that did
God I want to hold you in my arms
God I want to kiss you
God we belong together
God we have a good relationship going
And I feel that we need to work together on our relationship
God please guide me where ever you want me to do
God I am not good with money and that is why I never have money on me
God when I have money I spend it very fast
God your my father and I am your child
God what more can i do for myself
God I am not feeling depress right now
God every Sunday I come to your house
God you are the healer and I feel that you have healed me
God I believe in you
God I trust you
And I know that I got to take care of my health
God I have to say good bye to you right now
Because I am going to bed
Don't worry God because I will take care of my hygiene
God right now I have lots of energy
God I am not feeling stressed out
God the trees are now bare for the winter
God this year is ending fast
God I worry about my anger issues
God I worry about my health
God I worry about my sleep
God I promise to be good
And not harm any body anymore
God I am not a killer
When I need you God I will pray to you
And I hope that you will answer my prayers
God the time went fast
It is now mid night and I still up writing away on my computer
God here I am praying to you
Today it is dark and grey
There is not much sun during the winter
God I am happy to be alive
God I know that I have a good life
God you never let me down
But I let you down so many times
And I want to say sorry for letting you down
God it is hard to express my feelings when I talk
I prefer to write my feelings on my computer
God I already made so many mistakes in my life
And I have learned from my mistakes
God I don't want to talk about the past
God I want to talk about my future
God I need to talk about my future now
God it is only winter and it is a warm winter night
God rescue me when I am feeling depress
God I don't want to feel depress anymore
God I have so much to be thank full for
God I am very generous when I give something to others
God I don't want to fight anymore
Because I find fighting to be very bad for me
God I want to live that life that I live that is full of freedom
God I don't want to think about bad stuff
God I want to throw the bad stuff in the garbage can
God the world needs freedom
When will there be freedom in this world?
God mental illness is not a joke
God I have a mental illness
God there are countries that have war
And th innocent people are dying every day
God please tell me when the war will end?
There are young children being trained to be soldiers
In this brutal war
There are shortage of food and medical supplies
They are blowing up churches houses but not hospitals
The people who make the bombs to use in the war are getting rich
People it is time to stop the war now
This brutal war is going on for so long
Some people are suffering from post stress disorder
Why kids can't be kids?
Why kids can't play?
Kids have the right to their education
It is time to stop child labour in the third world countries
We are polluting the earth
We are killing the wild life
And marine life
The oceans are already polluted
What are we going to do when there wont be anymore fish in the oceans?
I don't think that we will be able to save the marine life and the wild life
Soon I believe that the fishermen will be out of jobs
We have so many refuges living in Canada
And Canada is their home also
We are so lucky to live in Canada
Because there is no war in Canada
There are people from different countries living in Canada
God I am not afraid to die
I know that I will die some day
I don't know the hour or the day that I will die
God I still have a life to live
And I will live it
God I love my life
Because it is simple
God I need some fresh air
I will go out soon and get some fresh air
God I never took peace for granted
God I don't take my health for granted
God I am taking good care of my health every single day
God put smiles on my face
So that I can smile
I think people want to see me happy and not sad
I know that I have a beautiful smile
God I want to live in the real world
Because I need to live in the real world
God I am a dreamer
And I don't dream big
Yes God no body will pay me to dream
God we will praise you every day
God there are times that I need a break from people
God I never lied to you
God I am always telling you the truth
God I must say that I am a bully
God I am feeling so ashamed for have behaved badly
Do you understand me?
God I need to be a roll model for others
God I don't know where to go for help when I am upset
God should I turn to my friends and tell them that I am upset?
Will my friends understand that I am upset?
Will my friends help me to calm down when I am upset
God I know that I can turn to my friends for help
God I very to live my life to the fullest every day
God so many people had broken my heart already
God can you fix my broken heart
People don't call me a saint
I am not a saint
Because I am always hurting
God I want to live la vida loca
God I am not hearing voices
There is no body talking to me
When I sleep I snore very loud
It is terrible that it is happening
I sleep all thru the night
And I never wake up in the middle of the night
Sleep is very important for me
I need to go to bed early every night so that I can get a proper night sleep
God watch me while I sleep
God I will get over with my sadness
God I believe in children
God I am the hero in the children's life
God I had dreamed that I reached the sky
And I had written my name on the sky
God I am feeling rested today
Because I just woke up now
God i am not a stranger to my depression
God sometimes I feel that I been on a roller coaster ride
And it keeps moving very fast non stop
God I am afraid of heights
God I never want to sleep in during the morning
Because if I sleep in in the morning I will be waisting the day
God you gave me a blessing with your holy hands
God I am not selfish
God I will never hurt you
Please try to understand that
God I will try to keep mii cool
I know that will be hard to do
But I got to do it now
God I blame myself for hurting people
I will forget about it now
And move on with life
It makes me sad to know that i hurt people
God I cried so much today
Because I am sad
And there are tears that are falling from my eyes
God please wipe the tears from my eyes
God I never bottle my feelings up
God I let my feelings out
God I must tell people when I am angry
I don't know if people will understand that I am angry
God I am up already and it is a new day
It is two in the morning
I am full of energy
I sometimes act on impulse
That is a terrible thing to do
God I am a people's person
God I want to be around people
God you gave me a brain to think
So I must use it
God it is winter time
And the weather keeps changing
That is how people get sick
People tell me that I am a good men
And I believe that I am
God I hope that people are praying for me
Because i need some prayers



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