I can feel it.

       Through the blood in my veins.
In the evil pits of my heart.
        Through the smile I shine.
In those dark depths of my mind.
        Through the glimmer of my eyes.
In these hated memories I hold.
        Through the promising future ahead.
In that feeling of pure hatred.
        Through the last bit of hope.
In those moments of despair.
              
                                         ­    I. Am. Alive.

Dark whispering in,
Every sane mind.
A final release,
The tragic finale of misery.
How much do you crave it?

I saw you smiling.
Like a flash of light.
So bright.
Yet gone in a second
So gorgeous
I reckon,
Why don't you?
You don't smile often
Your lips
They never soften
I reckon,
So dark
Yet, you beckon
So sad
I saw you smiling.....

Then the light. It was gone.
Your eyes they....
darken
forever.

Pain......Pain.......Pain......
Death's Gentle Touch.                

Pain.....Pain.....Pain.....              
A measure of a souls worth.
                                      
Pain....Pain....Pai­n....      
A simple reminder, of what we are.
                    
Pain...Pain...Pain...        
Fragile, weak, selfish.
                  
Pain..Pain..Pain..
We learn from it.

Pain.Pain.Pain.
But what is it we truly gain?

Mind full of confusion
Color blind delusions
Am I wrong? Am I right?
Is this even worth the fight?

I don't know which way is up
I'm descending into hell
You think you own me but your wrong
You can try, but you will fail

You project self hatred
On anyone you can
Never took responsibility
And you call yourself a man?

You think you're God twisting reality
Manipulating all my memories
Yet you believe that you're the victim
You take what's right and make it wrong

I've caught on to your tricks
I've mastered all your little games
I'm much stronger than you now
You're the only one to blame

I'm coming to take back what's mine
Reclaim my thoughts and my mind
My soul will not be caged
You will never control me

I am not afraid of you anymore
Never again will I live in fear
You are dead to me now
And I hope that's very clear

Do you remember?
The time I cried of loneliness.

Do you remember?
The time I wished someone was there.

Do you remember?                                
How I asked, begged, pleaded like a wretched mess.
      
Do you rember?
How I asked for you in those moments of despair.
  
You do remember?
Remember?                              

Yet, I am now just a memory.

Yes, you stand over me. A mound of dirt, and a universe apart.          

But, you do remember?