A pat on the back
For a job well done
Euphoria
Being the best
Being number one
Euphoria
Having a blast
Having fun
Euphoria
Meeting a pretty girl
A girl you like a ton
Euphoria
You feel like smiling
You feel like you've won
Euphoria

A feeling or state of intense
Excitement and happiness
Euphoria

Why must we stay
Where we don't belong?
Why must we stay
Where we don't belong?

Because there's never gonna be enough space
So eat the meek
Savor the taste
It's always gonna be a delicacy
Lick your chops
And eat the meek

Why must we stay
Where we don't belong?
Why must we stay
Where we don't belong?
Don't belong

The factory mass producing fear, bottled, capped
Distributed near and far
Sold for a reasonable price
And the people,
They love it, they feed it
Brush with it, bathe with it, breathe it
Inject it direct to the blood
It seems to be replacing love

Why must we stay
Where we don't belong?
Why must we stay
Where we don't belong?
Don't belong

Because there's always gonna be token truth
Forgotten code
Discarded youth
You know there's always gonna be pedigree
One own the air
One pay to breathe

Why must we stay
Where we don't belong?
Why must we stay
where we don't belong?

Why must we stay
where we don't belong?
Don't belong...

I have to wonder
How fast the soul could travel
To get away from here
Far away from this life
That I have ruined
Oh,
The life I have misplayed
And the feelings never decayed

"So the mind won't lie
And the arm won't set
And the bright red eye
Isn't off you yet
So the words won't come
And the hand won't touch
And a midnight sun
Doesn't look like much
As an Iris contracts
Facing the day
I can tell you've cracked
Like a china plate"

This hurts a lot
A clot
In the life of one
It's brought
Not caught
And seen
Not
In the expression of face
But gives a loss
For words

And we all have meaning
At least we assume it to
But what would happen
If that were proven untrue?

I’ll smile
All the while
Through the teeth
Of a crocodile

In the morning
Waking up to terrible sunlight
All diffuse like skin abuse
The sun is half its size
When you talk,
You hardly even look in my eyes
In the morning, in the morning
In the doorway
Holding every letter that I wrote
In the driveway, pulling away
Putting on your coat
In the ocean
Washing off my name from your throat
In the morning, in the morning
In the ocean
Washing off my name from your throat
In the morning, in the morning
When the tide came in
The isles would never let you stay
In the nighttime, with the light on
Every light, all day
In the ocean,
Leaving me no time to obey
In the morning, in the morning
In the ocean
Washing off my name from your throat
In the morning, in the morning

Heels, wheels
Rotten banana peels

Tides and rides
Poking your insides

Lids and vids
Talk of future kids

A deep sleep
The tv lawyer creep

Blown, thrown
A moan unknown

Kick your socks off
In your sleep
We'll get them in the morning
They're yours to keep
How much i love you
I've repeatedly sworn
This is your day Mausi
The day you were born

Dear God,
*******
For everything you've put us through
The people here who write about
Sadness, depression, lost love
Heartbreak, anger, pity
It's not fair what we have to endure
Every single day
So I don't think you actually exist
But if you do,
*******, God.
*******.

Sometimes I
Go to Neptune
To sing a little song
Or hum a little tune
I don't know why i go there but i do
And I went to Mars
The other day
Wasn't much there
I have to say
But i was sure a long way away from you
If you want to check my movements,
Look into space
And there you'll see
That the outerspace mover is me

Molly my dear
Though i spend my days 
In conversation, please
Remember me
Molly my love 
Don't forget me
Molly my dear

Hold your head up
You pretty girl
Look what you've done
When you find yourself 
In the thick of it
Help yourself to a bit
Of what is all around you
Pretty girl

Take a good look around you
Take a good look, 
You're bound to see
That you and me
Were meant to be
With each other
Pretty girl

Hold your hand out
You pretty girl
See what you've done
When you find yourself 
In the thick of it
Help yourself to a bit
Of what is all around you
You pretty girl

Molly my dear
You have always been
My inspiration, please
Be good to me
Molly my love
Don't forget me
Molly my dear

Tonight I'm gonna have myself
A real good time
I feel alive and the world
I'll turn it inside out
And floating around in ecstasy
So don't stop me now
Don't stop me
'Cause I'm having a good time
Having a good time
I'm a shooting star
Leaping through the sky
Like a tiger
Defying the laws of gravity
I'm a racing car passing by
Like Lady Godiva
I'm gonna go go go
There's no stopping me
I'm burnin' through the sky
Two hundred degrees
That's why they call me Mr. Fahrenheit
I'm traveling at the speed of light
I wanna make a supersonic man out of you
Don't stop me now
I'm having such a good time
I'm having a ball
Don't stop me now
If you wanna have a good time
Just give me a call
Don't stop me now ('Cause I'm having a good time)
Don't stop me now (Yes I'm havin' a good time)
I don't want to stop at all
Yeah, I'm a rocket ship
On my way to Mars
On a collision course
I am a satellite
I'm out of control
I am a *** machine ready to reload
Like an atom bomb about to explode
I'm burnin' through the sky
Two hundred degrees
That's why they call me Mr. Fahrenheit
I'm traveling at the speed of light
I wanna make a supersonic woman of you

This is the window where
I watched the future start
My pupils dilated
The shock sped up my arms
I shut my ambushed eyes
And turned my face towards the heat

I felt the city choke
I heard the world at war
I prayed for providence
God said, don't pray no more
You went and made your mess
Now keep your blame off my feet

So I got off my knees
I faced the devil's day
The sky was ****** red
The streets were headstone gray
A flaming ferris wheel
Spun where the sun used to be

I watched it's buckets dip and dance
I saw a couple making love lock hands
They were pushing for abandon and the answers it could bring
90 million miles from the graveyard growing over everything

I saw my lover chased
Through fields of sugarcane
She clutched her belly close
And whispered, "keep us safe"
They ground her down to dust
No more miracles today

I dreamt myself awake
In a resort hotel
Above a golden coast
Beside my Southern belle
We heard the sea reborn
In each singing shell

And every coughing car
And every coiled snake
And every shrieking star
And every burning stake
Dissolved to atmosphere
All of everything, erased

I spread into a distant hum
I droned along with everyone
And the earth grew green and nursed herself to what she used to be
All our senseless shouting calmed to quiet in her ancient memory

And oh, what a joy
To be free

My professor said
Write on the board
What you want most in life
I wrote the word "****"
Not because i'm a pervert
I just always wanted
To see that word
On a dry erase board
In big letters

Human nature
Is to defend
And to love
Those to whom
We are close
Or have been
In the past

Animal nature
Is to scurry
Or to fight
Those who
They do not understand
Or have not
In history

I think about this
And get confused
That i seem
To be dealing
With animals
Rather than
Human beings

I look at the two moons in the east
Point to them with my index finger,
Thumb pointing up, like a gun, and say:
"Bang, bang."

You killed me
With your words
Your unspoken truth
I'm a memory
Because you ruined me
My mind got ****** up
Now i can't live without you
So if i can't live with you
This is the result
Broken
Shattered
Gone

(And blood fills the room
Dripping from his eyes
He heard her last words
"I just don't want to be with you"
And his heart couldn't take it
It ****** all the blood up
Every drop in his body
And held it in
And waited patiently
And burst like a water balloon
Now all the other people
Have to clean up this mess
And they'll give her daggers
And his spirit will live on
Regretting every decision he ever made
Wishing he was better
A fraction of what she wanted
A better person
Or better yet
A woman)

I walk and I walk
And I talk to myself
And I tell myself
It won't be okay
Everything won't be fine
It never has been
So it never will be
That's the way it works
So I walk and I walk
And I talk to myself
And I tell myself
I don't want to give up
Giving up is weak
I am strong, mentally
The strongest I know
But how can I do it?
How can I keep going
When it will never be fine?
But I walk and I walk
And I talk to myself
And I tell myself
It will be okay
Everything will be fine
Because I will make it that way
Whatever I have to do
I'll make this happen
I stop walking
I stop talking
And I begin
Making everything okay

Broken spears lie in the roads;
We have torn our hair in grief.
The houses are roofless now, and their walls
Are red with blood...

You hesitate with every word
As if everything you say means the world
To everyone who might hear you
You shiver as you maintain eye contact
With every motion, your hair,
It cuts through the air with beauty
All of the beauty of your entirety
And you smile when i tell you all of this
With your teeth white,
And your tongue sticking out,
You are the embodiment of my happiness.

There’s nothing worse
Than being on this planet
With seven billion other people
And feeling utterly alone

Of course.
It always happens
Has to happen
It's never over

Roots in confidence
Shivering nostalgia
And testing the patience
Killing the buds
Spilling the blood
Every one of us
Near death
But close
To something new
Evenly odd
Changing the pace
With a different face
Still near death

Don't let your mind get weary and confuse
Your will, be still, don't try
Don't let your heart get heavy child
Inside you there's a strength that lies
Don't let your soul get lonely child
It's only time, it will go by
Don't look for love in faces, places
It's in you, that's where you'll find kindness
Be here now
Don't lose your faith in me
And I will try not to lose faith in you
Don't put your trust in walls
'Cause walls will only crush you when they fall
Be here now

This morning I received
air mail letter three
from my connection overseas.
I pulled the paper back,
you begin your attack and it reads:

Of all the places I laid down my head,
I think of two I regret
Love isn’t easy my baby
Is sayin' today

But tell Mr. shoemaker I’ll be away
On a rocket or a comet
or the dock of the bay
On a continental steam ship
sailin' away
On a one way ticket
on a 1st class airplane
I wanna know
what you’re thinkin' about
Don’t just let me go

Four hundred days have passed since I’ve heard from you last
I’m getting worried, I admit
Maybe it’s nothing much
There’s nicer shores in sight
Oh I just don’t know

Of all the places I laid down my head
I think of two I regret
Love isn’t easy my baby
will tell you today
But tell Mr. shoemaker I’ll be away
On a rocket or a comet
or the dock of the bay
On a continental steam ship
sailin' away
On a one way ticket
on a 1st class airplane
I wanna know
what you’re thinkin' about
Don’t just let me go

I’m sayin' so long
I want my baby back
I know it’s hard to see
Why she’s in love with me
I’m sayin' so long
I want my baby back
I know it’s hard to see
Why she’s in love with me
So long to the headstrong
I wasn’t qualified
to lead that city life
That’s all I have to say

High
As a kite
Then the wind gives a whirl
And the kite blows away
A sigh
In the night
Developing feelings in the heart
That makes the mind pay
Why?
Is it right?
Because the kite wasn't strong enough
And the feelings could decay

If my mood is any indication
You won't accept any vindication
One second, it's clear
The next, it's fear
With you, i'm invincible
I heed you by principle
I am not without words
But i'm thinking about the birds
How they fly free in the sky
Without a care, without a lie
How they resemble you
If they only knew
And if you could only fly
You'd fly so high
With them, and leave me
And i'd wait patiently
So my mood is no indication
There is no needed vindication
I've just been down and blue
Because it's been a little while
And I miss you

It's a split decision
Of a loss in time
It's not quite so
But still it's mine
It takes an hour or so
To get in the swing
We get the food
But i'm not eating
The people are nice
It's really very fun
But the dog barks
Because he's scared of the sun
All in all
It was three days in Texas
Peaceful and fun
But responsibility begs us
We return now
To Murfreesboro
To an anti-abortion rally
And my love for it is now narrow

Would she do it on purpose?
Or is it something bad?
Rejection of kindness
Reeling from the folds
Is this just a coincidence?
Every second now
Drowning in the mystery

I finally found someone
Willing to pick up my pieces
We helped each other
I picked up her pieces too
I showed her
Pointed my finger
"See? Those are mine"
She picked them up
And put them in her bag
She pointed her finger
"Those, and those, and those,
And those" she keeps pointing
"Those are mine, they're everywhere"
"I'm sorry, you don't have to
Pick them up, and really,
I don't know if you can"
I said "I can. Watch."
And i did.
I picked up almost all of her pieces
And put them in my bag
We weren't completing
Individual pictures
We were completing one
The pieces fit together
It was incredible
But i think my pieces
Were too heavy
One day, she decided
She didn't want to do that anymore
She took her bag,
And she gave it back to me
And then i almost ran over her
And now both of our pieces
Our collective pieces
That we had worked so hard
To find,
They were scattered again
And there are even more of them now
We'll never get them all picked up
Not apart
But she is satisfied
As long as she doesn't have
My pieces
I ruined everything
And now every time i look in my bag
I see pieces of hers
And i cry
I sob
And the tears are hot
And i'm cold
And the pain won't go away
For either of us
And now she's leaving
She's gone
And now we're both
Permanently
Infinitely
Forever
Broken

Being strong is hard
And it is not always smart
Miserable, you try to hide your hunger
All the while, you forgot yourself
Trying to preserve any dignity
You lost what you had of a personality
You lost the human in you
And because of this mistake,
When you dig yourself out
You'll be nothing but flesh
The life you saved will be nothing
Nothing but an empty canvas
With no paint with which to work
And your life will be dull,
Meaningless, as it drags on
Until the split second before you die
And in that frame of time,
You'll remember who you were
You'll remember everything
And you'll wish you had died in the hole

I woke up one morning
All my fingers rotting
I woke up a dying man
Without a chance

I came to your window
Threw a stone and waited
At the door a stranger stood
The stranger's voice said nothing good
I turned to walk the frozen ground
Alone
All the way home

Wide-eyed walker
Do not wander
Do not wander
Through the dawn

Both my eyes are fading
No light in the evening
Planted like a seed in sand
And drowned in rain

Watch you for an hour
He kept you beneath him
He kept you on lock and key
He paid the wage you sent to me
And waste the day so idly
Alone
All the way home

Wide-eyed walker
Do not wander
Do not wander
Through the dawn

Within my own mind,
I’m a prisoner.
Within my own heart,
I’m a victim.
Within my own body,
I’m a stranger.

A change has passed
Like a wave over me
My sadness has subsided
For the time being
I possess no anger
For past mistakes
No shame, only confidence
Look to the future
For every time to come
But it will end
It always does
I need to find a way
To end this cycle
Because i could be happy
On a good path this time

Landing the flip
It doesn't matter
The music plays
In the background
I spend my life
The same every day
New person
Different day
Same me
I'm always just
Breaking broken

It's never over
My kingdom for a kiss
Upon her shoulder

It's never over
All my riches
For her smiles

It's never over
All my blood
For the sweetness of her laughter

It's never over
She is the tear that hangs
Inside my soul forever

Do you remember me?
You asked me about my dream
Things are not what they seem
What did it mean?
Can I be friendly to you
Something I couldn’t do

Can’t stop thinking about you
There’s something about you

Your smile would get me through
Just let me stand next to you
Cuddling up to me
A feeling I couldn’t beat
Why are you in my mind?
Why can’t I unwind?

Can’t stop thinking about you
There’s just something about you

I just miss it all
Bang my head against the wall
I just miss it all
Stumbling through the halls
I just miss it all
Rachel…

I can’t sleep
Memories repeat
Feel so very weak
Memories repeat
Memories repeat
Memories…

Can’t stop thinking about you
Can’t make it without you

There’s something about you,
There’s just something about you

Meadowlark, fly your way down
I hold a cornucopia and a golden crown
For you to wear upon your fleecy down

My meadowlark, sing to me

Hummingbird, just let me die
Inside the broken ovals of your olive eyes
I do believe you gave it your best try

My hummingbird, sing to me

Don't believe a word that I haven't heard
Little children laughing at the boys and girls
The meadowlark singing to you each and every day
The arc light on the hillside and the market in the hay

Imperfection, this feeling
And the level of self expectation
Misunderstood, but not right
Dying for attention, this feeling
Even just eye contact
Another person, another body
Do you ever really need somebody?
It eats away at the soul
Never fasting for a second
Slowly destroying the inside
It creates a crater of hatred
Draining the heart of love
Extracts the person from the body

I'm slowly disintegrating
I'd love to say I feel nothing
But that would be a lie
I feel everything all the time
It really ***** ***
When will it be over?

Little, little
I feel so little
Sad, sad
And also sad
For if patience was
What patience is
She would not get
So mad, mad, mad

Weak, weak
I am so weak
Dumb, dumb
And oh-so-dumb
For if patience was
What patience is
I would not feel
Like ****, ****, ****

Five hundred
Fifty three thousand
Five hundred 
Nineteen
I will
Five hundred
Fifty three thousand
Five hundred
Eighteen
I wi-
What is that?
Earthquake? 
How? Everything
Was so perfect
And now the pieces are
Scattered, broken
Again
Wait, the pieces!
No!
No....
Ok well...
Putting the first few
Hundred thousand 
Together was actually
Kind of fun
But now they run
But now they...run?

the pieces spontaneously grow legs and run away

No! I can help you
Don't go
This was my life now
And i was happy
Happier than i've ever been
Fine. 
I guess i'll have to
Find, catch, and 
Put you back together
And i will
I promise
I will
I see trails and clues
Follow them to
The scattered pieces
One running away
Gotcha
Nine hundred 
Ninety nine thousand
Nine hundred 
Ninety nine
I will

One day
Without you
And every minute
Feels like
A year
I lack
The power
To create
With imagination
Your essence
Your ways
Your words
It's just
One day
But it feels
Like forever

This idea of trust
Is one that is learned
Not inherent in us
And never learned soon
It is only learned
After slow, grueling pain
Suffering at the hands
Of the one you'd die for
No one understands trust
They trust blindly
Until they are led into hell
Then the moment of truth
Do you trust again?
Can you learn from this?
Most do, i think
Some don't, and
They are guided once again
But this time they can hear
The crackles of fire
The screams of death
And they are burned again
So they learn
And the next time they are led
Anywhere,
They look around
But everything looks dangerous
It all looks like pain
And they know
Then and there
That they will never
Be able to trust again
How incredibly sad

Someday,
In a way, I’ll have never been alone
And someday,
I’ll listen to the voice
That has called my name for years

After all is said and done I feel the same
All that I hoped would change within me stayed
Like a huddled moon-lit exile on the shore
Warming his hands, a thousand years ago

I walk with others in me yearning to get out
Claw at my skin and gnash their teeth and shout
One of them wants only to be someone you'd admire
One would as soon just throw you on the fire

After all is said and after all is done
God only knows which of them I'll become

Another day, another dollar
Going to school to be a scholar
Sitting here in physics class
I could really use a homework pass
Mrs. Harvey is teaching and being loud
Everyone's so calm, but i don't know how
Learning Thermodynamics and specific heat
As i sit unaware while my mind retreats
Thinking about a single person's lies
Which caused my constantly twitching eye
Only thinking one thing, asking myself why
I keep telling myself that the end is nigh
Giving the tax payers a tight, stiff collar
Just so i can write this poem...
Another day, another dollar

There’s no use trying to fight it
It’s in our blood
It’s what makes us,
Us
And we fully believe it to be so
That it’s foolish to play it safe
When our real life is out there
Waiting to be lived

I hurt her
I think i did
The girl who
I would light
The world
On fire for
I can't stop
Thinking about her
I don't even
Really want to
She's so...
Wonderful
Funny
Clever
Emotional
Imperfect
But perfect
In a weird way
I hope she stays true
If she can't bare
Another minute
With me then
Someone else
May end up
Picking up my
Scattered pieces
I can't stop
Thinking about her

Some coincidences
Are crazy
The numbers
The meanings
At 6:38, she wrote,
Use the numbers
Multiply them
You get 228
Significance?
Evident, her day
Coincidence?
Possibly, but really
I could never know
But she loves numbers
She'd appreciate that
I know it