I had lung cancer,
now I'm minus that airbag-

Oral cancer on the horizon; burning bright,
like the sun on a Long Beach day.

I'm still vvaiting on the Seagulls;
I have this bread to toss.

This relationship vvith Death breeds: **** Fear
a nevv beginning; I'm ready.

Stretched out on my table
bound gagged brunette
I admire the bolster && ****

Svveet midnight scales
vvith a tang that never disappoints
You are my Thanksgiving
my slash Queen

My ruin runs deep & cold
vvith it
I vvill **** everything You knovv

Once done carving
I remove Your pearls
and keep them in my pocket
for a future moonless stroll

My tongue is leathered
vvith glory
an oral  j  u m  p   r o p e
            in the darkness!

Joy!!!
might you trip
&& break a femur
to make a meal of yourself?

Once prepared
alongside the parsnips && carrots
I relish your eyes
&& make no apologies
for being

Don't be sad
to be svvallowed
Some
are not as lucky

Door **** lock
mouth puffed vvith
saliva

pink extension
  release
   under circular
compressed tree matter

bended knee
shook off number
one

grease under thumb
  left knee
     pop
    hangnail & an eyelid

this tvvitch
   vvont stop
  for 40
I'm certain

Broken body's rack
new life into lung
Gold vvrapped platinum sludge
Decadron makes buzz
6 months in the novv
MRI goes clack
Ativan don't quell
Image movement shakes

Take your skin
&&
fold it over my bones
make me
   your nevv home
hang my coat
on your
collarbone
a pale place
   found inside of you
shedding those fears
&&
bruises of rejection
The garden vvill be
our minds
   raked vvith passion
to a depth
that vve
vvill N  E  V  E  R
   knovv the hunger
of bonds

I just heard
a blood curdling scream,
Off
in the     d i s t a n c e.

VVho ever you are;
I love your music of fear,
I imagine you're running
HARD.

I hope you trip
so they catch you;
& practice origami
on your viscera,
as beautiful as your:
Aaaaaaaaaaahhhhhh

God
may have made us
from the dust
but a Lion once shovved me
that vve surely taste
like meat

VVhich ever bones of mine
you pick
I vvill let you gnavv them to death
over a cup of coffee stirred with proverbs
Gnash your suburban smile
on my misery
Splinter my beat maker
vvith your
vvorshiping voice
Come over
&& take your shoes off
I vvill count your blessings
into infinity
not long
aftervvards

These lungs have sighed
   they have gasped
these lungs have yelled
    they have failed
These lungs breath
once more
     for another round
of life
      to be snatched
in the end
       again && again
vvith no end
       to be relished

I hope
that an asteroid
  hits
this planet
  smash it up
real good
 into a pulp
you vvonderful God
of a universe

g o o d n e s s

   Flip off
my bathroom light
   svvitch
     already
one last time
   burn it up
all this stuff
   that ******* traps me
into sickness
   but please
be kind &&
   revvind
because
      torture
         is a virtue
          that I
            don't mind

I remember her most
as a vvaitress
kinda like Flo on Mel's diner
she became a millionaire
once upon a time
but she died 6 years ago
her body just happens to be here
  still
Lost in a thought
fleeting yet thick
like a forest
in time
the vvoods will thin && fall
releasing her spirit
forever

The heart;
in all of it's tragic
cocksure
glory,
is nothing
but a victim.

In
o n e
year
I vvill be
g o n e
you'll glance back
&& notice my
h e a r t
by that time
ash vvill be
h o m e
don't shed a
t e a r
free from the
d r o n e

As a young boy I learned
that I had a black knack
it vvas passed on to me
from a vvoman who passed
Some days it feels
like a rabid curse
I don't need to knovv
before you shovv me first
at death I thought
I vvould have been
rethreaded
but upon reentry
I was still clairvoyant

S  i  c k
      f  u  c k
        

for a sick vv o r l d
                            i n t o  m y
        d e p r a v i t y  &
                  e
                      n
                    ­       j
                               o
                                    y
t h e s
         h
         o
       s vv a l l o vv  my  words
     of  t vv i r l & Quill

     Save your teeth
       for a dinner date
        to chevv
         O N  M E a t
       try not to be late

At a distance,
       quaint and vvell reserved;
  upon closer revievv:
      a buzzard creating jerks

These teeth yearn
   flesh so ripe
Under moonlight
   in every curve
       a meal

Surrounded by
a drone
the dull buzz of
Suburbia
draining me of
desire
I just vvant to
drink
I vvatch them all
creeping by like
bugs
&& all I'm guilty of
is vvanting

The mask
              I vvear
is there
              for good
it's not
              a gimmick

it's vvho I am
I take apart
to put together

the things
   you don't
have time
to chore

These arms
  are yours
to break,
So steal me
in the clench
of your teeth.
Lull me into your *******;
make me your little
**** ***.
Longing
to connect,
release your
blackest sunset;
Let us not forget
one another.

Nuzzled
in your
Forever,
I'm eternally
Found
&& Grateful.

VVe vvrite words
to fill in the emptiness
as if they vvere concrete patches
for neglected sidevvalks
that nobody vvalks on
Carry on
D A R K  poets
Toss that alphabet
tovvards my shovel
let me bury it
forever

Born  
of a Black Mass;
Deathstar v2.0.
Set forth another
uncontrolled
   trajectory,
a pile of earth
still yearns for
a second passing.
A void that turns
me on;
a void that turns
on me,
vvhy avoid the meat
parade?
vvhy such antipathy?
Embrace dust's *******;
rotting feet look good in shoes,
just as any,
just sayin'.

A sheppard hangs like a T
pierced in the sun  
ablating all condemnation
  as Pilot sits safely vvhile eating grapes
The people get vvhat they vvant
  not knovving vvhy they need it
&& a father vvelcomes home
    a son

Aren't people great,
vvhat is our $um?

****** of juggernaut
  impedance of a
     baby Jesus
Fingernails on
       My back
like climbing up
a broken staircase
in my memory
  a meat market
for you
any cut you vvant
like algebra
lining
   a chalkboard
There are many
steps
to traverse
  then tumble
     dovvn
until the last
of our fluid
escapes the chaos
of our hands

I have a friend
He drives a truck for a living
He is someone vvho I've never met
One that I trust and trusts me
He has my home address
Sometimes I imagine him to be a truck driving serial killer
Not sure vvhy that turns me on
Every time I come across one of his photos
I save it
I revievv them often at night
vvhile lying in bed
I knovv it sounds vveird but so ******* vvhat!
He's avvesome
Like vvhen the sun crests over my messes
I have a friend
&& in my head he kills you

I've hollovved out a hallovv realm;
vvhere only boneships sail,
vvielding verbs of vengeance;
My vvords float on flesh.
Searing eyes & stripping life;
A dark Knight sheds light as if death,
Such a delicious julienne of humanity;
I am
The Ripper.

Svvollen
midnight appendages
   of unremitting venture
for a taste of the vivacity
inside your nectaries
Avvaiting a return
correspondence
upon desire
please

I follow you into the night
a black crovv in flight
this Machete in my hand
to slash at vvhat I please
if you scream
I vvill enjoy it

     M
         O
             R
                 E

Please, do scream, LOUDER
as I take your body
&& divide it
to make pop art party gifts
for my dinner guests

                                 M
                     O
           R
E

Teeth, vve like them the best
they shine just right on fishing line
reminding me of a childhood
that I once had, it vvas mine
long   l  o  n  g   ago
it vvas stolen
they made me become
vvho the Ripper is

Recline back
   Access port
      Heprin dravv
         Saline flush  
      Hang the bag
Connect the line
Fluids in
VVait some time

    Zangy ****
       Dr. death
          **** your face
             One smug *****

It's a Black horse
You can't deny it
Pins you real good
It's so quiet
Gaining Kingdom
Prime lymph node real estate
Late night cold shakes
Tried to hide it

It's a Black horse
Novv let's ride it
Beast is tiring
As it's striding
Losing Kingdom
Bring the chemo
&& **** this black horse

This mask, the embodiment of humanity's edge; vvhere Poe resides
&& serial killers thrive.
They are my shadovv, cast upon concrete; I am their pulse:

BEA
       TING
  BEA
         TING
      BEA
             TING

Not an X-ray can find
that loose thread to be pulled,
it can't be seen!
BUT:
I just knovv it's there; like the tickle in the depth of my lung,
setting boundaries:
to be broken,
  break me:
like darkness; vvhere bone decays into new life.
Marry my depravity,
    merry: my curiosity,
       take me as I am;
         leave me as you are.

Inside: rot,
      outside: youth,
                        a black heart;
                              beating just for you.
          You love the man
          under the mask;
           that ghost vvhom nobody else knovvs.
This front rovv seat to the cogs:
I trust you in degrees,
that leave me exposed to your fancies.
Cut me open; non gingerly,
tonight.

We yield for funeral processions;
not for the living,
skulls and bones;
sells just as much as *** these days.
Our shiny teeth;
buried in the fruit to our gums,
vve glorify this dovvnfall:
consume,
             consume,
                          consumate.

Black silence
creeping in
no one knevv
till the nevvs
a reverberating shock
buckling bones
& shaking stones
to their core
this midnight slasher
of human fold
just might be human too
after all

Part me like a Christian sea
resect the vvorst of me
extend my breath
these vvords
to speak
to spill
to see
this modern day Job
I vvrithe under
your knife

Hidden
      d
         e
            e
               p
              
                    b
                       e
                           l
                              o
                               ­  vv
a glimmering surface
nor eye vvill peek upon
vile
         veiled
                     *vvants
lip locked by token
a black ketch lies splintered
avvaiting *for you
to redeem it
so redeem it!

Bleek jockey *****;
Death is nevv life,
a ride upon a Black horse.
An ill-omened trot;
bring forth Avvakening,
no time to stall.

I span time -

in every instance -

I am sickness -

devoured by flame -

reborn through Ice -

Tenebrae
needs not to cut a svvath
it's portiere falls regardless

Requiring only your marrovv
hanging a noose of your tendons
chevvs you up in public affection
hovv it does you so is love

Pricked ears vvith shadovv cast upon them

I just am

Venturesome tevv
vvant to make you
a 3rd time maker

S             R             T             H             D
       T              E            C             E

O             U             T

saturated && doted on;
vvith boundlessness.

This ghost
the bed of a thousand railroad lines
these bones
  a vvashing board
    to your vvorries
      that door; an open home
        to an empty land
vvage war; cage fair!
   red earth
     called upon
        a vvhirlvvind svvept past
          this vvay
            spirit come
               a thousand deaths
                 in the sand

Feeling broken
looking for a savior
something to change the outcome
If you didn't have this
or that
you vvould surely die

The vvorld is broken
he isn't real
some things never change
anchors sink
bodies vvither

Seeking redemption
in the darkness
only to be met
vvith void

Let us inspect relations with vocabulary,
dig into me && drink of my spark.
You lit the fire, so must you vvatch it burn.
Peel back the sky vvith me,
in fearless abandon.
As tvvo flovvers of the field,
svvay in the breeze
&& sing me your song.

VVake up in the morning
eat three meals per day -
**REPEAT UNTIL DEATH

Blue bird
Black flight

speckled sputum
late night

up
dovvn
Death's roller coaster
rides

eyes vvide open
a deep divide

flashes of childhood
Mother cries tonight

vvhen the ride ends?
only The Gate Keeper knovvs

VVednesday come;
Midazolam haze,
bronchoscopy,
an adventure:
  a changed
    troubadour avvakens;
      an ansvver
        either vvay.

Celebrity of death;
of the darkest of loves,
building consternation,
on truths too often buried.
Marry bones to the blade;
merry words can seem bleak,
see these teeth?
Might be joy;
never knovv,
'til the svving.

A limo ride
provides extra oxygen
flip flop
flop flip
might be the heart is angry
again?
VVheels turn
pavement ends
arrival time
rushing out
room 9 is yours
wait some time
it goes by slovv
X-ray shovvs vve found gold
on to computerized axial tomography
hold the contrast
in comes the nevvs
you're alone
vvhen it comes

Dare you trek into my void;
VVhere {{ vvolves }} strip you bare
of your programming?

Trace the lines of your art;
vvith a svvord of vvords,
to find the breaking point
of your nouns.

VVe survey through vvalls
   uncover lies by redolent Jasmine  
     knovv thoughts before lips
       even meet their syllables
    scour memories since birth
  every embarrassing moment
leaving no stone unturned
  vve are the forever ones
     here before
   and after
verily