I know you better than anyone
so why don't I know you at all?
blonde wisps of hair used to fall into your eyes
almost transparent, angelic
now your roots are brown
and your hair falls in messy spirals away from your forehead
out of the way
I can see the blue in your eyes and it scares me
you used to look at me so tenderly
we thought about distance and the space between us
you asked me about everything
now I see exhaustion in your features
it is not the lack of sleep
I know you better than anyone
so why don't I know you at all?

I was never an evil being
just morbid
worn
detached
but now that I'm older
I can feel this dark spite
slither up from the pit of my stomach
into my veins
and seep out through my eyes
So I bite my tongue
because I don't want to hurt you
but unfortunately
I'm venomous

My fears have become reality here
As I walk in total darkness
Not knowing where I am
Not knowing who I am
My feet stumble on a cracked surface
It's path is cold and brittle
The chill of the wind
Seeps to my bones effortlessly
As I am in perpetual cold
Uncontrollably I continue walking
Towards a point that doesn't exist
Or ever did
My mind has gone beyond reason
Only chaos reigns there
A surge of pain takes over me
Dropping ******* my knees
Grabbing the sides of my head
Then it subsides
Now limp with exhaustion
I slowly get up again
To follow the path with no road
I know the pain is gone
Soon light will shine again
I know
Cause I have been through this all
The light is a small flickering flame
Only a small amount of heat
Does it protrude
Then it disappears
I am in the darkness again
And soon to fell the soul ripping pain
How long can I do this?
Will I survive?
Or shall I stop walking
An miss every light
That crosses my path
For now I shall continue walking
And cringe at the thought of my future

As I stepped foot on the beach for the first time this weekend, my head was spinning.

This was such a great experience for me, I've always wanted to go to the beach. And I was extremely jealous of everyone who got to go, multiple times in one year.

The sun was beating down on to my sunscreened filled skin.
My toes were submerged in the sand, which was sticking to my feet.

And then it hit me, this is such a normal experience for someone. Walking on to the beach in the blazing heat, splashing in the ocean with their best friends, jumping into waves; it's all normal things.

But to me, this experience was extraordinary.

So remember, be thankful for every little thing you have.

Every experience. Every action.  

Some people would die for things like that.

When the world is off to sleep
    Your thoughts starts taking a leap
          My desires starts taking shape
                Reality is masked with dreamy cape
                     What a fetish, I wonder
                             You play on my mind
                                    Even in slumber

                                           *Bharti

sleep
it always seems to elude you
your mind, always trying to catch it as it saunters on by
but it never can, no matter what it tries
so eventually it gives up
it sits down, and doesnt even notice when sleep mosies by
and soon enough
sleep notices
and it comes by to say hello
chat with the mind
and if it feels like it, itll stay
and your mind will fall into its arms
allowing you to finally
sleep