i'm tired of trying, i'm tired of fighting, i'm tired of the psychosis and i'm tired of lying. i'm tired of yelling, tired of creating delusions, tired of everything in between.

tired of fusions, tired of breathing, tired of always taking and never giving. i'm tired of myself. i'm tired of you, i'm tired of everything we ******* do.

i'm tired of life, i'm tired of living, i'm tired of how i'm always fake and never revealing. i'm tired of the loneliness, tired of breathing, tired of not having a knife to my throat.

so i dig it deep down, down to my core. right through my throat, past all my bone. let it all out, let my life end, i hope we begin after we end.

When the morning comes I'll no longer be here
My mind and body will no longer be one
My body can finally rest
While my soul can continue to roam

Her lying in pain
Her blue face
Her last breath...

All these things still haunt me
And all of them refuse to leave my mind

Don't leave because I did

Stay, make others happy in my memory
Love everybody, through the thick and thin
Remember me, not how I am now but instead how I was then
Find the light within the dark

And please, if all else fails...
Don't leave the same way I did

Last time we spoke I said I didn't wish to speak to you
I practically said that I've not even missed you
But it's all pretty little lies
Lies to try and make myself forget the past
But I can't keep lying to myself or you

The truth is that I miss you
Quite a lot
And even though there's a wall between us
I wish to break through
For in the end I'll still always miss you

Time always seems to be passing by
Never slowing, always flowing
The rate at which speed flows at is painful
It's painful because it constantly puts more and more time and space between me and you

And the more time and space between us
The more I miss you

I know you won't see this
Because you're hurt
You're broken
You're altogether gone
But... I have to try

My intentions were never to hurt you
I just wanted to love you
I had never shown you that
Frankly...
I showed you the exact opposite at every turn

I gave my love to the wrong person
It shouldn't of been given to her
It should've been given to you
All of it should've been given to you

I showed you that I hate you
That I wish you weren't in my life
That I didn't want you in any way

But none of it was truthful

I loved you
I needed you
And I wanted you in every way possible

And I know you loved me
I know you cared about me
I know that you wanted me
And I don't understand why anymore

How could I hurt you, when I loved you so much?
How could I of done anything I did in that situation when I loved you so much?
And why?

The truth is...
I don't know
I don't know why

But I know one thing for sure
I need you back

But that's not going to happen
Because I'm too late
All of this is too late
My apology
My reaching out
My everything
It's all too late

I'm sorry
I'm sorry
I'm sorry
I'm sorry

She left me here to die alone
She left me here alone
She left without me...

Running around in circles in the February rain
She’s been here many times before
But never without the pain

The memories haunt her once pleasant dreams
Night after night having to deal with the unpleasant scenes
Turn off the lights, Lie down, and face the demons living inside your head

Ash to ashes
Dusk to dusk
Her depression is completely void of dust

The depressing sceneries fill her mind
While the shadows begin to drown her
Another soul is taken by the February Rain way too soon

Yet another February Defeat
Yet another soul has gone too soon

Would it be okay
Will it ever be

If we just faded into the sky
Faded, just you and I
Away from all the worries and fears
The depression and anxiety
Away from it all
Simply escaped into another reality

Would it be okay
Will it ever be
If we just faded
Just you and me