"unfaith" poems
Growing up in Poughkeepsie, the
barbells of unfaith always shook her
wrists when she lifted "I
will be gone from here soon enough"
over her shoulders. "I will love
like crazy."
Grown-up in the city, she
swallows hard in the marble mirror
and thinks "Maybe today
will be the day," but
it never is, and she ignores
the petulant inside voice saying
"Unfaith is unfaith but
so is dead-eyed
companionship, so unclench
your fists"--she hasn't yet.
Jan 5, 2014
Jan 5, 2014 at 12:15 AM UTC
Get to know me
i'm good I swear
sometimes I even shine
sometimes I even do pretty things
sometimes I make funny faces
you could record them with a shaky camera
where my voice is awfully fuzzy
get to know me
i swear my hair isn't that bad
sometimes my room is clean
sometimes I will make you food
sometimes I do cute things
I swear i don't rust,
I don't unfaith
unhope
untrust
well
the
trust
maybe.
but i swear i'm good
i can even
say things
sometimes.
Oct 21, 2012
Oct 21, 2012 at 10:50 PM UTC
“I trust you on this,” he says
but he doesn’t know that I’m haunted
by the idea
of stepping into another mans arms.
I watched my father leave a trail of love letters
throughout our two story house addressed to a secret lover.
I read them word for word
and admired his love
but hated that it was for another woman.
They say infidelity runs in the family,
like a deep rooted disease
and I’m afraid I am next.
I was the accomplice to the boy I loved
while he fooled another.
He stole midnight kisses from me
but returned every morning for her.
He stole innocence from me,
and happiness from her.
I was a chess piece to a boy
who was playing a very good game.
I am not my father’s daughter
I am not his past mistakes,
but I hold my own wrong doings
and they lead me to unfaith.
I would slit my throat
and hang myself to dry
before I followed my father’s footsteps,
but before you say you trust me
just know what lies in my veins.
Feb 26, 2014
Feb 26, 2014 at 6:00 PM UTC
Or ever the knightly years were gone
With the old world to the grave,
I was a King in Babylon
And you were a Christian Slave.
I saw, I took, I cast you by,
I bent and broke your pride.
You loved me well, or I heard them lie,
But your longing was denied.
Surely I knew that by and by
You cursed your gods and died.
And a myriad suns have set and shone
Since then upon the grave
Decreed by the King in Babylon
To her that had been his Slave.
The pride I trampled is now my scathe,
For it tramples me again.
The old resentment lasts like death,
For you love, yet you refrain.
I break my heart on your hard unfaith,
And I break my heart in vain.
Yet not for an hour do I wish undone
The deed beyond the grave,
When I was a King in Babylon
And you were a ****** Slave.
789
You say you can't believe in god.
I trust in god, like I trust in physics.
Your world has been shattered.
Mine is safe and sound.
You went through despair and death.
I've seen not more than flowers wither.
Your unfaith is made by experience.
My faith is made by the words of others.
You're confident of your philosophy.
I just trust in faith.
A tunnel separates us.
You went through it and lost god.
I wonder whether I'll lose him too.
May 18, 2017
May 18, 2017 at 10:17 AM UTC
God's firmament: only
a child's planetarium projector—
If only I could project my
vows in a sphere of light
with even a handful of batteries, all the
eyes in the world
could see how ******* thin
my gossamer guilt is.
My conscience is silky smooth
like Venus-razored legs.
Apr 10, 2018
Apr 10, 2018 at 10:12 PM UTC
I cried too much lately
And I still cry now
My heart breaks into so many pieces
But you seem so **** heartless
What would happened if we still be together?
Would you ever treat me as your perfect lover?
You haunted me in my dream every night
Have you ever think of it tonight?
I regrets everyday about my hard complicated life
Why you confessed to me in the wrong time?
I been waiting the words from you in so many ways
Is it not enough love you prefered from me when we are away?
Everything I spoken seem so useless
Now you gone like, today and forever.
Feb 17, 2015
Feb 17, 2015 at 6:54 AM UTC