"thays" poems
I feel like giving up
My , once deep, reservoir
Of strength
Has been drained
Drained by the countless people
Saying things to me
About Me
Against me
Always me
Why me
**** me
I hate me
I wish just for once that someone would care
Maybe I'm not being reasonable
Maybe I'm being over sensitive
Maybe I'm being stupid
O how I wish I was stupid
But I am far from that
And maybe the smarter you get
The emptier your reservoir becomes
Thays the only explanation
The other one was just me grasping
Grasping for something to understand
Hoping
Wishing
Praying
That just for once in my
*******
Useless
God forsaken
Piece of ****
Life
That maybe just once
I would be Ok
I would be someone else
I understand not my life
your life is not made to be understood
but then why did you give me this
because you need to understand not to understand
show me
I cannot
**** me**
I cannot
save me
I will not
Dec 5, 2013
Dec 5, 2013 at 3:54 PM UTC
Im angry.
Angry that you cant seem to understand the meaning of get out or stay away.
Angry that you still hang around in the back if my mind.
But you're not the only one im angry at.
Angry at myself for not building a taller, stronger wall.
Im angry at my mind for not trying harder to kick you out.
There's just too much anger and I'm too proud to let it out.
This toxic anger thays combined with sadness is too dangerous for the world.
So I keep it locked up inside, away from you.
Its something that is making me a monster but I'd rather it be that way than risk seeing you get
hurt.
May 10, 2016
May 10, 2016 at 8:06 AM UTC
Well thays fine and don't say I didn't try
My souls rotten the kind of person that's best left in the past forgotten
My demon's real and they will destroy you too
Walking away is the best thing you do
I don't have a heart
So don't think it hurts
It's made me Cold hard and ******* shallow
Don't think I'll take a second to wallow
There are much harder pills I've had to swallow
That happiness is something that will always elude me
Just makes it clear now and doesn't comfuse me
Drugs are my lady and she always saves me
Always faithful and quits
Never messages me and says that's it
I'd rather walk with her into the grave
Than think I can live life's greatest lie
That u could meet someone and die happy
I'll take the mess and ruin she brings
Because with her least I can accept I'll never win
She brings certainly quick and painless
Or slow and painful
Either way I'll remain faithful
If only i wasnt clean
And this wasn't a dream
#mrQuid
Jun 30, 2020
Jun 30, 2020 at 8:39 PM UTC
You dont understand
We do
how can you use words like that
you have no idea what it means
Guess the trick is to find out
Wether you are you or we
you think you do though
meanwhile what passes your lips is a lie
You can also change
From you to we
maybe not a lie to you
but a lie to reality
But why does it have to take a catastrophe
For you to become we
you say things callously
not caring
Just release your arrogance
And destroy your ignorance
if you dont understand you might as well slit your wrists
dude im so depressed
I feel so sad
ag man just go commit suicide or something haha
Haha
haha
Yeah haha thays all
Mar 19, 2014
Mar 19, 2014 at 8:41 AM UTC
Check it, i hope yall understand me,
Like 19 keys, cop a few cuties out in Belize, please believe,
Money comes first, then the power,
To get enemies showered,
Well under and devoured,
I took a pinch of the flowers,
Scented in the garden of edem,
People saying dont believe em,
And i dont care if they don't feel em,
I got ninth dimensions, casting spells,
Putting marks on shells,
Nightmares of the holy grail,
Only time will tell,
Is my soul free or is it for sell?,
Valuable lessons, learned quick,
From gripping the smiff and lessons,
Knuckleheads getting a blessing,
Then have the nerves,
To say they stressin,
Never undermind a blessing, and curse to gift of guessin',
In this game of life, aint no fair shake
With the hand rolls on the dice,
Shorty looking nice, but i see the slit tongue spliced,
Demoness with breast, rising from the east to the west,
I manifest, only the realness when herbs fills within my chest,
Only reggies the best,
Dont **** with the kush, get ya soul pushed,
Back into other **** thays counterfeit, money in my hands giving flips,
To stacks of hundreds, while im a slave to the hundred,
Years of freedom, went from the chattery, to the corporate daily,
Reporting to masters its crazy,
Broke the chains, of misery,
Now im lazy, nothing these days phase me,
Radio airways dont play me,
Realness is a menace to truth, i preach the gospel, with lonely tear drops,
Til i open the eyes of rhe youth,
Moneys the universal language,
Or better yet linguistics,
Hoes wana grab the biscuit,
Like they owning it,
But i stay showing it,
See how the loot, make hoes go round,
Carousel bound, like earth making its rounds,
Joker splitter, see the hitman markers his hitter,
Giving bodies jitters,
Like when im on the mic,
I treat it right,
Flip more rhymes than tongues to ****
Better yet let it hang like Mike,
On a fadeaway, begans the takeway,
Fools putting false reps like MLK,
Say,
They down for the community,
But all i see piercing,
In the community,
Gangs and **** sold out for cheap hits,
No leaders, just a bunch of court cases,
And the biggest killers always remain faceless,
May 8, 2023
May 8, 2023 at 3:01 AM UTC