"standed" poems
Escape of dreaming with a broken heart. And dwelling with the feeling of waking up.
Sleeping becomes addicting .
So the 3 hours past noon creeps up on me. I can not bare it no longer. I'm a coward.
I'm sinking. Will you save me?
My sober thoughts eat my soul bit by bit. Feening just that one sip.
Falling for the same **** tricks.
Clueless.
The idiot.
Like being left here to burn in the place's you've standed. Gone. ****** Stranded.
So its time for my daily cleansing with my buddy jack. Everything is beyond blurry.
Skeptical thinking but you start swirving.
I'll always Slur on words you'll never say. Clever little girl I know your games.
So far gone from reailty, how the numb senile feeling reacts so smooth.
I would try again with hope but then again that'd be the *****
So I'll celebrate in your honor on this wretched night.
Lathered in my own shame.
Slowly loosing my composhere step by step. I'm crippled and running out of legs to stand on . im a mess.
But my sweetheart your the closest to hell I'll ever be.
My Eyes glazing blood red. hatred. Torn to the seems.
But my darling wasn't this what you wanted me to be? Or was it how you've always been good at dropping to your knees?
Hell who knows. Forget my name .
You always have your own way ,
blinded by the greed of lust and waist low pleasure.
Seems your the one shipwrecked and lost.
I'm so far gone.
But jack my buddy, one more drink
And I'll move on.
Dec 19, 2014
Dec 19, 2014 at 3:54 AM UTC
I smile
I laugh
I'm happy once again
Then I leave
I go off on my own
My brain starts thinking
Gears turning
Thoughts blurting
Interupting
My peaceful, empty mind state
I'm spiraling down again...
AGAIN?
But I was so happy!
So happy and true!
How can things come and go?
Melting awa just like snow?
It can't be
I don't believe it
I wont!
But here I am again...
AGAIN!
Why does it have to be so?
I'm standed on an island
And island of pain
Misfortune
Dread
But what hurts the most
Is that fact that no one
NO ONE
Sees this "me"
When my smile slips from my lips
And I am alone
In mind and spirit
AGAIN...
Sep 28, 2010
Sep 28, 2010 at 10:18 AM UTC
thats what she was
the exact opposite of anything you could ever want
she standed 4 feets away from everyone
she thinks as deep as she feels
and yet she doesnt remember how it felt before it all happened
she still could wonder
and as she wondered
she created a new reality
suddenly all the lies became truths as she says it
but she is still falling
will she ever hit the ground?
Jan 5, 2015
Jan 5, 2015 at 7:23 PM UTC