I used to like swimming in the warm seas on a cold day
I never wanted to share my ice cream with you,but anyway
You told me something I almost forgot
And now we're up here, and became little dots

You're moving upper and upper
And I'm moving downer and downer
But if I life seems happier and friendlier
Why waste your time, put on a smile?
Why think twice, put on a smile?

Your world from afar seems bright and happy
And my world up close is far from yours
But if you come closer and see the undergrowth
You'll notice the difference between us

And you're feeling bluer and bluer
But life is painted with rainbow colours
And you keep frowning and crying and shouting
Why deny your face, just put on a smile?
Why live in a hapless place, put on a smile?

And when everybody leaves on planes
Seasons pass and trees will change
And when they leave you alone
I hope you don't feel like you're alone
This world has people on it
Why be lonely, scaredly, frightening and somehow describing
Your way back home, to a stranger you go
And they don't respond anymore
But if you put on a smile, even for a while
Your sad and blue and greyish day
Will turn up for the better and you'll be okay

So if we both go up and down and cry all around
If we somehow laugh at the silliest things, playing childish games
If we learnt to love our reflection in the mirror
Why would you live her and not, put on a smile?
Put on a smile before it gets too late, when your body doesn't move again,
And you're feeling kinda sorry then...

Put on a smile, don't ask why
Put on a smile, don't try to close your eyes
Open then wide, show your brightness
Your happiness ends when you feel worthless
So chin up, chest high
Open your eyes, and PUT ON A SMILE...

I'm left with
Violent stares
Awkward smiles
Perpetuated care
I'm left with
Everything is temporary
It'll go away someday
There's no need for matrimony
But
What if I liked looking into his eyes
What if his eyes were lit with laughter
Word to Dorothy Parker
What if I wanted some love
Some real deal, your heart will heal
It's mine to steal
Love
But
No,
Things happen
Lies are mapped and
The person you once knew, grows up
They don't perpetually love you
They put anything in the world above you
Cause' they're tired
Of everything is temporary
And broken promises
Prominent dominance
Your love is incompetent
And it's so sad to see
That the tables turn
But
What they really don't know
Is
The tables turned on me
I'm the one trapped In a country that was set free
I'm the one temporarily
Scaredly
Maintaining the
Thought of crazily
Living
Without you, love
Something that taught me
Brought me
Took my soul and locked me
Told me everyone is sorry
People can be cocky
Moms are always lofty
So
That's it
Things change
Friends reaggrange
It won't matter yesterday
Today is just a replay
That's what they told me
Everything is temporary
It'll go away someday
There's no need for matrimony
But tables turn
Bridges burn
And I'm always the one left to judge
Sun and Mars
Life behind bars
It's up to you
It all goes on
With a song
Will you be the hook
They said
Deja Vu
It's up to you
To change your ******* end
Perpetuate that smile
Violently walk
Triumphantly step while
Making conversation worth while
But
They forgot to mention
Some veterans don't get a pension
Sometimes it's hard to listen to lectures
When your whole life is hard as dentures
And your only love is within pictures
Burned
Loved and mourned
Between the stars and moon
You shine brighter
The bridges burned
The tables turned
On you
It's your life
There's a knife
There's some strife
There's Christ
What're you gonna do
..
Dorothy Parker

from other perspectives,
it may not have been a nightmare,
no clowns nor ******
no frowns nor blood,
a different fear may have been present
but not one that any understood.

the room was brightly lit,
a stairwell encasing so high
you could feel the tension thick enough
to cut with blades.
I couldn't breathe.
my chest closed in tighter,
throat clasped.

as I began to escape
the never-ending
constantly winding,
bending
prison                      
there were other people in my presence
two,
perhaps three.
I couldn't tell if they were allies.

it was broad daylight,
the sun gleaming in the background and
yet
something was different.
the feeling,
the weather was so cold...
in my reality its bracing chill hits me.
mom,
sister,
young and old,
grandmother,
brother...
their stare,
their piercing eyes
looked right through me.
they gave me such judging eyes
but at the same time,
their smile was less comforting,
I was their pique of craziness
the epitome of insanity...
I needed help,
I need help.
a way out,
their smiles were that of concern and fear.

I had so many questions,
where was my father?
what did I do wrong?
why was I such a...
a basket case?
the mental disgrace
of the highest proportions
I awoke very scaredly,
frozen,
angry like a wounded animal
with a feeling in my chest
tighter in my chest than I could know.

It was nothing glorious to be honest,
I scaredly walked halfway to my school
when I was In a field next to the road
a car came over the hill so I ducked down to the grass.
I was sure the person in the car hadn't seen me,
but they slowly passed by me, like scary slow.
I thought they had seen me or something
and to make matters worse the car was a van.
After it turned to a four section and drove off
I ******* ran home scared and paranoid and
I didn't stop running till I jumped my fence.
One of the scariest experiences in my life.