I'm depressed.
My feelings are repressed.
My mind is stressed.
But I am blessed.
Because i found that depression,
can find it's solution.
And I haven't found,
but I am looking.
Right now reassurence of the end
is all I am thinking.
Everything I am.
So I won't do it.
I won't  take a gram.

hello?
father?
can you hear me?
ive been calling for you,
for a while now.
I just want an answer.
some reassurence.
that your there.
father?

-l.j.t.

reassurence...
                     wrong...
                             reassurance...
    english as a language
       is still (or at least i am:
                  user)
grapling with æ...
much less with œ...
                          perhaps
it's the alphabetical
proximity of a & e...
               perhaps it's
simply the alphabetical
coherence...
worse still it's
      adam & eve siamese:
fabled the myth
who learnt death -
but didn't learn
how to forget -
   constantly stirring
up the dead...
which became
  the modern shadow
of a man:
or the grey mass
                      interlude.