du var ikke den slags
mand der passede ind
i statestikkerne om utroskab
i metroxpress
og du var ikke den slags
mand
med en advarsel
skrevet på ryggen, af en mavesur eks

du var den slags mand
der duftede af kanel
og nyvasket sengetøj og
du var den slags mand
der bar min taske
og lyttede til alle mine ord
og du var den slags mand der holdt mig
i dine arme og tørrede mine salte tårer
af knækket tillid bort fra mine kinder
og du var den slags mand der kunne
sige det med så meget overbevisning
når du sagde at du altid ville være der

men du var også den mand
der gik uden at se sig tilbage....

Strange Currents
by Amir Khusrow (1253-1325)
loose translation by Michael R. Burch

O Khusrow, the river of love
creates strange currents:
the one who would surface invariably drowns,
while the one who surrenders, survives.

There are a number of translations of this poem, and they all involve some degree of interpretation. I can't claim that my interpretation is "correct" and sometimes poets are intentionally ambiguous. I based my translation on this explanation by Madhu Singh: “Ubhra-Floats: He who floats actually sinks (is lost) & and he who drowns actually reaches the other side (gets salvation).” In other words, one must stop struggling and surrender to the river of love. And this makes more sense to me than some of the other translations do.

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Becoming One
by Amir Khusrow (1253-1325)
loose translation by Michael R. Burch

I have become you, as you have become me;
I am your body, you my Essence.
Now no one can ever say
that you are someone else,
or that I am anything less than your Presence!

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I Am a Pagan
by Amir Khusrow (1253-1325)
loose translation by Michael R. Burch

I am a pagan disciple of love: I need no creeds.
My every vein has become taut, like a tuned wire.
I do not need the Brahman's girdle.
Leave my bedside, ignorant physician!
The only cure for love is the sight of the patient's beloved:
there is no other medicine he needs!
If our boat lacks a pilot, let there be none:
we have god in our midst: we do not fear the sea!
The people say Khusrow worships idols:
True! True! But he does not need other people's approval;
he does not need the world's.

*****-e-ishqam musalmani mara darkaar neest
Har rag-e mun taar gashta hajat-e zunnaar neest;
Az sar-e baaleen-e mun bar khez ay naadaan tabeeb
Dard mand-e ishq ra daroo bajuz deedaar neest;
Nakhuda dar kashti-e maagar nabashad go mubaash
Makhuda daareem mara nakhuda darkaar neest;
Khalq mi goyad ki Khusrau but parasti mi kunad
Aarey aarey mi kunam ba khalq mara kaar neest.

###

Amir Khusrow’s elegy for his mother
loose translation by Michael R. Burch

Wherever you shook the dust from your feet
is my relic of paradise!

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Paradise
by Amir Khusrow (1253-1325)
loose translation by Michael R. Burch

If there is an earthly paradise,
It is here! It is here! It is here!

Amir Khusrow (or Khusro) was born in 1253 A.D. in Patiyala, India, His paternal ancestors belonged to the nomadic tribe of Hazaras. Khusrow called himself an Indian Turk (Turk-e-Hind). He was a Sufi mystic, musician, poet, composer and scholar who wrote in Persian (Farsi) and Hindavi (Hindi-Urdu). Khusrow has been called the “Voice of India” and the “Father of Urdu literature.” He introduced the ghazal to India and made significant contributions to its development. He also wrote in other musical and verse forms, including qawwali, masnavi, qata, rubai, do-baiti and tarkib-band.? Keywords/Tags: Amir Khusrow, Khusro, India, Urdu, Hindi, Farsi, Sufi, ghazal, love

HAJARO NADIA BAHATI
VASHUDHA KI CHHATI PAR
NALE BHI PUJATI
BHAGIRATHI KI MATI PAR

BHAGIRATH KE ANURODH SE, BRAMHA KE VARADAN ME        NIKALI MAA SURYA VANSH KO TARANE.   BAHATI THI KABHI MAND SANGEET ME        RUKI HUI HAI AB KIS PIR ME.

hvordan får jeg dig til at forstå
at noget kærlighed
virkelig varer evigt
når din far forlod familien
dengang du var 9
og din mor
nu skal skilles fra sin tredje mand
og ham din kollega fra brugsen
fandt en anden kollega fra brugsen
selvom det var dig
der altid tog hans vagter
og din venindes venindes veninde
fortæller historier
om undtagelser og regler
og engangsknald
hvad med engangsforelskelser
der bliver til evighedsforhold
og hvis nu jeg tror nok på os
nok for os begge to
så lov mig at du lytter
når jeg fortæller
om dine øjne
og hvorfor jeg ikke vil ses på af andre

.I mørket hvor hundene miaver og kattene gør

der vandrer en mand, og en kvinde i slør

siger intet, som kun generte tør

alting har ændret ingenting, så alt er som før

nattens gule øjne og dødbringende klør

de/den kradser sig gennem realiteten på en søvnig chauffør

Den nat beviser, at det kun er de hellige der dør.

*f.b

jeg så dig danse på en lørdag nat. jeg har aldrig set dig danse før.
det var allerførste gang jeg så dig danse.
du dansede til et nummer komponeret af en mand med et uforglemmeligt og krøllet navn.
og hele rummet summede af lyden af et klaver der blev slået an af en rystende finger og violin strengene der dansede rundt i luften, efterlod rummet i en skygge af pulver drømme og stjerner der faldt ned omkring dine fødder.

du dansede noget der kunne minde om en vals. men du dansede den alene.

vil du ikke danse lidt med mig i stedet for at gøre det helt alene? det ser så ensomt ud. smukt, dog ensomt.

du trak på smilebåndet. men så ej på mig.

så kom herhen.

du tog mig pludselig i dine arme og scenen var din, min, og vores. jeg har aldrig danset. kun i stuen som lille i min mors gamle balletskørt.
og det gik op for mig hvor perfekt min spinkle krop passede i den silhuet der før var udfyldt af noget ingen andre end du kunne se.

og scenen var din, min, og vores.
verden forsvandt omkring os mens vi dansede mellem stjernerne.
jeg forsøgte at få del i dine tanker ved at lade mig suge ind i dit blik....men du havde travlt med at koncentrere dig om dine trin. ikke bare for dansens skyld, men det blik du anstrengte dig for ikke at sende mig handlede ikke blot om dansen men angsten for at træde forkert.
hvad ville der ske hvis du så mig i øjnene?
jeg kunne mærke din kropsvarme helt ind i sjælen mens du snurrede mig rundt. let og elegant og tilbage i dine arme.

se på mig.

stjernene var for længst faldet ned men var ikke længere at finde for mine fødder. for du så på mig. du så mig lige ind i øjnene, længe nok til at det  begyndte at gøre ondt da du trådte et skridt tilbage men ikke længe nok til at jeg kom ind under huden på dig.

tak for dansen.

følelserne... var de ikke lige der?
og før jeg vidste af det var der ikke længere andet end mig og den sørgelige musik der nu fyldte rummet med opløste håb og tusind fejl og mangler.

på en lørdag nat så jeg dig danse for første gang. jeg havde aldrig set dig danse før. og på en lørdag nat så du mig i øjnene for første gang. du havde aldrig set mig i øjnene før....
.... og jeg har ikke danset siden

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for all around dont see the harm
your bright and witty ..do make us laugh
so one day soon all this will pass

you'll take us over and be de-mand
be the one that takes command
time to face the hidden truths
reveal your beauty ...be the you

Strøg ned ad strøget forleden nat.
En fredag aften fyldt med fordrukne gamle som unge tumlende rundt på brostenene.
Engang var de blanke, nu ikke så meget, men jeg nyder lyden af mine træsåler mod de sorte sten.

Alt idyl og selv stjernerne kan man se .
En mand med en sjov hat spiller en sang, han giver et smil som jeg går forbi.
Jeg synes jeg har hørt den før men ved ikke hvor.

Kigger til højre, hvad fanden sker der??
En måned til jul med hvad ser jeg?
Overflod af vulgært julepynt i vinduet.
Vinduet bliver smadret i skærmen for alt er dækket af røde og gyldne kugler, julekugler!
Med glimmer og balloner og en nisse til 495,-

Jeg strøg ned ad strøget.
Gamle fordrukne mennesker som tror de stadig er 20.
Den ene øl efter den anden og så en flaske af det røde.

Unge fordrukne BØRN som ikke har lært en skid.
Stramme hvide bukser og en breezer i hver hånd.
"Undskyld men hvor gammel er du, din refleks er ved at falde af".

Men selvom brostenene protestere i foragt, mens de drukner i absinth og bliver kvælt i bræk, vil de smuldre af overlast og stadig lade som om de er nylagt.

Jeg strøg ned ad strøget og vidste ikke hvor jeg skulle hen.

Vinduet står på klem, så jeg kan høre biler der kører på vejen et par etager nede. De larmer og er ligeglade, så de holder mig vågen. Med øjne som er åbne og pupiller der er udspilede, kigger jeg rundt og føler mig rastløs og som raster af hende der grinte på gaden tidligere. Jeg finder mig selv i vindueskammen et minut senere med bilerne som selskab. Byen griner af mig. Håner mig for at være træt, og dens larmende latter holder mig vågen, ligesom den hjemløse på hjørnet af Nordhavn st., der råber ad dem der venter på togene.

Byen gider ikke holde kæft, så jeg tager min frakke på og lister ned ad trapperne, så jeg ikke vækker mine underboer, som byen forhåbentlig ikke håner her i nat. På gaden smiler folk som om vi kender hinanden, og kigger på mig med bløde blikke. Blomster kysser bænke og kærestepar kysser hinanden. Byen er en god ven af mange og en dyb forelskelse af nogle. Her i nat, med latter og bløde blikke, så er byen og jeg de allerbedste venner, trods dens humørsvingninger og melankolske humor.

En time senere er byen tavs. Den hjemløse mand er fuld og sovende på en bænk, bilerne strækker sig nu på motorveje og folk ligger med bare tæer i deres senge. Jeg kaster frakken i sofaen og ligger mig med dynen over mine skuldrer.

Byen kysser mig stille godnat til stilheden fra de tomme gader,
og jeg sover indtil den kærligt kysser mig godmorgen til følelsen af sollys på mine øjenlåg og lyden af mennesker der taler på fortove.

Constent sound
That's all I hear bickering
They say it's not there
That I'm a white boy ther be nouthing wroung with me
They say all I seek Is atenten
That can't be it since I suffer in silence, cry alone, and to finely stifle the noise, I Speek allowed to them so at less one voice would exit the 9th layer of hell I call my mand
They will never see and I will never Speeking of the voices which drive my imaginations into contplations of zombie ends and thretical debates,  that will shake your minds, hell it cripples mine, the constant debates of there's ******* my mind,  so all I can do is stifle those two words that would not make a lick of a difference, for if I let them slip people will just look at me, and think I'm rebelling "o he's a white boy, he must think our talking is beneath him, he will never know true pain like us minorities"
Ye,ah That's me the majority seeking ******* of minority, causing hell since I never experience it. I am nouthing but an anarkish heaven that sees nouthing but the color of ****, a complete pestmistick
They don't under stand; hell I don't understand my mind ether but to say I'm the majority, is dead wroung, what makes them minority, collor, religion, these I been taught means nouthing and nouthing they are Becuse there thoughts, their harts binds them to all races, not one thought or filling is independent to there race, these groing minority have sunken to the idea that they be the minority but no that is me, the one who can't sit in silence, with out rocking with pain, the words "shut up" forever on my lips dripping with mumbles of zombies and flames as high as buildings with me on top of the talist yelling I'm not insain I'm not insain I'm not insain Until finally I'm lost inside the flames.
And if they knew what hell was in my mind that would be worse, they will try to find the problem with scans and question. Did your dadie **** you? Is your brain ****** up? Why don't you just stop this shirade?  
And when thier questions just lead me screem more at them than at my own head they try to fix me for now I'm a danger so they imprison me for something they coused.
So they put me on psycotic medison , and the voices they continue but easer to with stand. But I'm not me any more I'm different I loss so much but can't grasp what it is. They say I'm a success, and I agree because I want to leave. I don't tell them I still hear voices becuse I don't want them to sedate me agin. I don't tell them I've lost the intelligent young man I was or the insitefull guy that could help people with problems that he him self never had but they would not cair all they want is me to be like them because that all they wish to see.
As soon I'm out of the jail I ditch the mids and I return to my insainity. O how the voices seem to be louder as if they was ****** I locked them up..... But I'm me agin or am I them I just might be them but is that a problem i lie to my famly "yea I'm fine," " yea I took them last night," "I'm happy". They believe me not becuse they do but becuse they want to. They never saw a problem befor yea I was strange but functional but as soon as soon they heard I had a problem they jump on it for it means thay have not failed.
But they have not failed the doctors did they saw a man with a problem that need to be cured when there was only a man who had a problem that he needed to live with a problem that made him better and strange a problem that made him different.
With my problem out in the open I become better at hiding my pain until I get back to my to my apartment where I scream, cry and argue but never in that order. Nabbers never new I was different for I sound proof this place.
And that's how I lived, paying for pills I never used, never confinding in anyone for I feared of going back to jail, and I just knew if I ever got back on thouse meds that that when I get off the voices will drown me and I would not make it a night befor I just decided to end my abnormal life

han er forfatter og rapper og skuespiller og han vil have mig på besøg til pizza og rødvin. det skulle have været i dag, men vi sov begge lur til aften, så det blev for sent, udsat til lørdag. måske har jeg samlet mod til den tid. men jeg ved ikke hvordan man gør, jeg har ikke lært det. altså hvordan spiser man mad uden at spilde ned af sig selv? hvordan drikker man vin uden at blive for stiv? hvordan er man sammen med en mand uden at kneppe ham?

Jeg slukker altid for TV-et når nyhederne kommer.
Er jeg et ondt menneske?

Jeg kører over vejen for rødt.
Er jeg et ondt menneske?

Jeg hjælper ikke den gamle mand op af 123 trin-trappen.
Er jeg et ondt menneske?

Jeg åbner ikke døren for de røde indsamlingsbøtter.
Er jeg et ondt menneske?

Jeg ignorerer folk på gaden jeg kender, hvis jeg ikke har overskudet til at smile sødt og sige "Hej, Hvordan går det"
Er jeg et ondt menneske?

Jeg tager ikke mine vitamin-piller.
Er jeg et ondt menneske?

Jeg giver mig selv en fridag af og til.
Er jeg et ondt menneske?

Jeg mistænker folk I metroen for at være terrorister.
Er jeg et ondt menneske?

Eller er jeg bare et menneske?

jeg har babyhår men jeg har også store lår
og min første g-streng var rød
rød som menstruationen der piblede ned af lårbasserne
på min 13-års fødselsdag hvor vi fik lov til at drikke red bull
men mor stoppede mig ikke da jeg gik over for rødt på krystalgade
og jeg fik ikke set mig om før jeg blev ramt,
ramt af hjertesorger, tunge lunger og lette smøger
der blev proppet i kæften på mig som 14-årig fordi jeg havde drukket små gule
og senere var det stadig gult, og grumset også, da det hele kom op igen
men han sagde jo bare det var sodavand,
og jeg tror bestemt han bliver en flot mand,
så hvorfor skulle jeg benægte,
for hans hvide tænder får mig til at tænke på farvefest i 1g
hvor vi alle var klædt som hvide konfigizz og bællede gule øller
og endnu engang blev mine grønne stan smiths dækket til
af rød, grøn, blå
fordi jeg ville så gerne smage de små grønne også, for det glimtede grønt som en smagragd
hvilket minder mig om karl kristian ravn, der tyggede blåt tyggegummi og spyttede det ud, ligesom mit hjerte
og smøgerne blev der ikke sparet på
for bådsmandsstræde var beklædt af elever der sagde "lad mig gå klædt som jeg vil" men rullede med øjnene når piger fra ghg gik forbi med deres gucci og givenCHY -
by the way hvor er LOUIS? jeg tror han er gået kold
og hvorfor omtaler vi meget-fulde folk som gået kold når alkoholen tværtimod varmer
men det varmer ikke vores hjerter, for vi ved han ikke skriver tilbage senere
og han har nok trukket blondinen med
med hendes lilla'e gazelle sneaker,
selvom *** udemærket godt ved at han er en heartbreaker
så hvorfor går jeg med den orange læbestift
når jeg ved det ikke er på mode,
men hvad er mode, og hvorfor ka jeg ikke engang læse en node
for mine venner elsker pink, pink, PINK FLOYD
men jeg er så umusikalsk at jeg ikke engang kan finde ud af,
at FLØJT'
men jeg bider i det i mig, og bæller den sorte kaffe i mig,
skriver på instagram at min sjæl er lige så mørk som mit tøj
velvidende om at jeg hader at gå hjem i mørket
medmindre det er hjem til bertram mørk
men når jeg gør
sikrer jeg mig at der er grønt lys før jeg krydser vejen
grønt lys, grøn kost og grøn livsstil
for nu nægter jeg at bære rødt, rødt som blodet fra koen der nu er din hakkebøf
vent nu bare for satan på at det bliver grønt,
før du krydser vejen

et stille øjeblik
mens musikken dunkede og folk dansede
drevet af lyster
begær
eller rutine?

ødelagde et naivt hjerte
som nu græder over den mand, *** aldrig kunne kalde sin

sitrende og boblende vredestårer
over en veninde, *** nu ikke længere kalder
sin eller nogens

de bedste aftner er dem hvor stjernestøvet falder fra himmelen
hvor jeg lader mig forhekse af smukke drenge stemmer der
charmerer mig og lader deres hænder føle mine kvindelige former
under diskokugler og kulørte lamper danser unge piger rundt på
høje stylter iført stramme kjoler i 50 nuancer af sort
og har hængt sig selv op i det lækreste frækkeste sorte blonde lingiere
i håbet om at de i aften finder en mand
der vil elske dem for en nat og give dem en smule af den kærlighed
de fortjener
jeg er en af de piger
og mine aftner er altid bedst når stjernestøvet falder fra himlen og jeg
lader mig forhekse af dine smukke ord når du læser knækket poesi
op for en knækket pige og maler mine kinder lyserøde
de aftner hvor vi glimtre og glitre
det er de bedste aftner

din historie rodfæster en sandhed i mig
om cigarrøg og fremmede mennesker
deres magt over kønnet og min krop

i forestillingen;
jeg mister arme
jeg ser mit kød hvordan det forsvinder
               (det nemme er at falde fra)

indersiden af låret  
mavens rundhed    brysternes buen     ansigtets rene træk

mine læber; deres måde at skille på

nu vender jeg dem altid på vrangen før jeg går ud

i alle disse berøringer
disse berøringer
i én smeltet masse af hud og hår



I just want you to know (jeg ser ikke længere hendes ansigt)


i minderne;
kun krop
kun krop
kun krop



der vokser et svigt i mig

i mine øjenvipper
når jeg græder tårer   som rammer andres hudlag

diffunderer
fra væske til følelse til en berøring to mennesker imellem

vores relation er ikke andet end tag på hud
og afstumpede nik gennem bevoksede ***  



I metroen;
altid metroen et ikke *** vi kører imod

et transportmiddel der opsluger. du kan se det i øjnene på disse ”mennesker” i ikke-rummet.

og ud på skinnerne, de drømmer, stigende over kanten. En stemme;

attention à la marche en descendant du train

og jeg retter opmærksomhed, for jeg stoler mere og mere  på stemmer uden ansigter
på højtalermagt
end på alle de mennesker, jeg kender.



I metroen;

jeg er så træt af at være træt af hans opførsel

catcalling som fænomen, der stammer fra metroens ikke-***
det må det gøre !

den opslugende kraft, han kan lugte den den hænger i luften,
og alle er usikre

må man gerne efterlade sit liv inden man stiger ind?

attention à ton corps et ta voix

du ved aldrig hvilket ansigt han bærer



det er en forventning om at være utilpas, der bor i mig.
en forventning om
at blive catcallet
at mærke fremmede mænds hænder på min krop
at iklæde mig tøj jeg tør gå alene hjem i
at sove på gulvet hos venner for at undgå natbussen



jeg ved godt
at ikke alt er mit eget valg



og jeg brækker mig i metroen i en uber på gaden i min egen opgang

og jeg skammer mig over skammen

den skam forbundet med fremmedes ord og handlinger



du ventede engang på boulevard Saint-Denis
og en mand spurgte dig om hvor meget du kostede for at være hans

én hel nat

og det tog mig én hel dag at forstå din tavshed overfor ham

han kan ikke gå og forvente at alle kvinder på gaden potentielt kan være hans til den rette pris

VI EJER IKKE HINANDEN

OG JEG ER TRÆT AF MIG SELV

NÅR JEG LØBER VEJEN FRA MIN METRO TIL MIN HOVEDDØR

og ånder lettet op
        bag en låst dør

En mand sidder stilfærdigt i toget
I lyseblå strik
Kigger stift ligeud
Gennem sine tonede solbriller
Som skjuler
Hans tårefyldte øjne

Kom nærmere
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Kramperne sætter ind i mellemgulvet
Du taber håret?
Dine tænder falder ud
?Gud??Gud?
?Fader takker ja?
Han vil ikke undvære "dig"
?Du er jo så syg?
Dit krav på opmærksomhed ?
Bliver genopfyldt?
Her er ingen gud
Hør mig nu bare ud
?Alt du gjorde var jo bare?
At sætte to fingre i halsen
?Og kalde på far??
Far, far, far
Se mig nu?
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Og stemplet så uperfekt
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Og far han græder

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the dream began long before the sleep overcame
me...
   lazy architect of the clouds:
what was it going to be this time:
per usual: castle, swan... a death mask -
ruminations of the future?

                     a violin quarter op. 17
no. 4... or as i imagined it before
sleep dragged me below the waves
into the deepest caves before it plucked
out my eyes and have me tears
or shed in watercolours...

   something so tender as this poem ought
to break into a thousand pieces...
or however many letters there are to match...

standing on Waterloo Bridge... playing that ******
violin... however crudely...
a pocket of fame so tiny that would
spread until... some other violinist heard
of the antics taking stage...
   a dream... that didn't catch me by surprise...
not lingering like a dream: proper...
which might take up at least the whole
morning of a tomorrow upon waking
and bewilder and amaze...
  
            such that i promised myself:
not a sip of that fine Mount Gay Eclipse
***... never: i hope never again will you drink
"thinking" you might write something:
at worst! tender sips only after something
blessedly sober was started during
the business of a day...

               an alternative to the Italian risotto
or a Spanish paella?
none other! the Biryani!
  oh the spices at my disposal...
a black cardamom pod
4 green cardamom pods
a piece of acacia bark (sorry...
  out of cinnamon!)
   3/4 tsp of fennel seeds...
caraway seeds, cumin seeds...
coriander seeds. black peppercorns...
a star anise...
6 cloves
      a bay leaf...

something from Norwegian poetry?
olaf bull?

og jeg, en levende mand, paa jorden hjemme
and i, a living man, with earth my dwelling...
som jeg, en død mand, paa jorden hjemme (begrenset)...

but i'm not going to learn Norwegian
on these isles...
it would make some sense
to learn Danish for a historical
whim or German...

then again... my bet it on either
Romanian or Turkish...
a today... at the Turkish barbers'
i only instructed him:

keep the length (of beard):
   but tidy the rest up...
tut(mak) uzunluk nın-nin sakal:
ancak temiz...

well i sat down in the waiting line while
the other turkish barber was finishing
off a customer... working with the electric
razor around the stubble...
strange sounds...
i've heard of iron stubble...
the sound of shaving never sounded
so... glass on a chalkboard...
a piano shattering...
something felt odd: like someone
was playing me a Turkish film
with Armenian dubbing...

so he shaved and shaved and i looked
on... does an electric razor mowing
stubble make that sort of, "sound"?!
it was only when my usual barber:
the one i modelled for once
when i came in like a homeless man
and 20kg overweight...
he took photos of before & after:
pointed me toward seat no. 2
did i finally come to grips with the sounds...

ha!
a cage with two budgies - budge-rigours...
budgerigars was placed in the corner...
two jittery little fellows...
i sat back closed my eyes and relaxed...
better than a *******:
ah... with ******* you need to staple your
eyes open to your eyebrows...
but getting your beard trimmed?
nothing to it... like kissing metal...
oddly enough either i was relaxed
or my barber was relaxed...
not a ******* pipsqueak from the two
birds...
a vibrating sense of contentment
a bit like...
when was the only time you saw
a bulldog content?
in the company of another bulldog...

now that's what i call a barber shop...
when he finished i was asked by
the other barber whether i wanted
to a cup of coffee...
my barber offered me a hot towel...
i refused both...
i'm pretty sure this was a way
to make new friends...
or rather: have some backup should
a funeral take place tomorrow...

maybe i have been living in England
for so long that... i might look English:
like the Turkish ******* remarked...
but i feel... neither here... nor there...
if i were to go back to my native birthplace:
i'd be alien too: not engrossed in
the politics in the culture in the everyday:
starting from: "born yesterday":
engrossed in the culture & politics of England...
but hardly "born & bred" as one
former fwend of mine: child of Egyptian /
Iranian immigrants remarked...
i can switch off from all the saturation
and read some Knausgaard in ******...

right now... i've just spent a mad hour cycling
and i'm going to sip some proper whiskey-esque
*** without the stealth assassin / an agitator
of a diluter of spirits... caffeine murderer of
a carbonated caramel ****...
i'll drink it straight over some ice...

an hour well spent...
  for all that's currently music: lyrical constipation:
i need to relearn how to breath:
to even think...
revisiting that dream i never had
that began with Haydn's op. 17 no. 4...
just the violins... no need for drum-tactic rhythm...
we're all "im-der-hier"... in the here...
"im-der-jetzt"... in the now...
but never really: must be lagging...
daydreaming or otherwise wishing it was
otherwise...

would taking the offer of a coffee and a hot
towel made so much of a difference...
or would i just have set there like
a ******* pile-on-steam-of-****?!
i love the smell of manure in the morning...
i love the smell of manure in the foggy morning...
i love the smell of manure when i'm
planting a new tree and it grows to be over
8ft tall after planting the original bonsai plum
some 7 years prior...

even in classical music:
there's the music that's there: played to death
& a second death that's boredom
that's only used to diffuse fame...
Haydn's op. 20 no. 4: that's how
a mousetrap ought to work...

niche listening: there will always be
someone reading something by Stephen King...
otherwise... spend a year on the oeuvre
of some composer...
at least the composers never fail:
produce "too much": then listen to it
being filtered down... sharpened to:
a bugging nugget of praise...

all that's pop is not necessary...
unless: utilised for pedagogic tactics...
breathe the air! there are no percussion instruments!
barricade the doors to your mind
with the wind of violins!

seems only fair that since i've had
my beard trimmed by a Turkish specialist...
speck? ***** & span... no...
speZ... if i am to write someone of my own
i'm drowning in the works of others
and there's 7am to mind...
there's defrosting two fridge-freezers too...
the sensibility of waking up
moderately sober...
all that's day and all that's a masquerade!

trivial things: poetry: porcelain...
but they shouldn't be so easily: quashed...
now that everyone can readily
read: write... somehow... long before
poetics was pushed aside...
of all people... if the Vikings are to be
somehow... envied... emulated...
ingenious thieves that they were...
at least they kept words somehow
sacred...
while they exhausted each limb from limb...
a body wed to the earth
a mind wed to the air...
and all congregating in sun, fire & water...
perhaps some mead some
frost... fog and shadow...

how i envy the almost first men
and their chemical eureka upon eureka of
the first intoxication with beer!
not this intellectual: morose flight of body
anchored down by the more heavier extraction
of run: run: ***-***-**-here-we-go!

let it not be another knock-out night for me
on this tired plank of wood i dare to call
ship: but i'm dried up on what's
language: trapped in conventionalities
of passer-by conversations that are hardly
that...

of course this couldn't be a lament:
i would regret a good conversation
since the *** is almost as good or if not better
than any whiskey...
a good conversation would get me off
my rockers all the more...
but then the fear of sobering up
in the middle of it...
for the proper K.O. i'll wait for the chemicals
to take charge... while i'll play both
mouse & fox & sneak downstairs for
a glass of milk...

architects of dreams: best to appease a
boredom of London by stripping it down to:
far away... Athens... here in quasi-Sparta
on the outskirts... the ******* emblems of
itching at the sky...
the ****** emblems of stadiums for
which football was made to be: ahem... "footed"?

bypass the standards of any language...
the nouns...
then work around the verbs...
and the adjectives that work as substitutes of verbs...
eh... prepositional, pronoun and conjunction
shrapnel...

presto scherzando: of Haydn's op. 20 no. 4:
a sort of violin does a pilgrims farewell
to the folk dance: hey hey hey trance
which reminds me of...
some modern song...
   very, very: modern...
                
it complete silence: or rather... memory
by now has become a drunken orchestra!
on the tip of my tongue...
ah! yes! corvus corax! herr wirt!
hey hey hey... there are accents of it...
littering Haydn's
presto scherzando: of op. 20 no. 4!

- and to think... i could have had a wife!
- and to think... i could have had a son!
- and to think... i could have had a daughter!

an uncle was a disappointment...
half of my grand-parentage i don't know...
beyond estranged...
cousins etc. long gone: still alive...
my maternal grandmother recently
estranged herself
from her grandson and her daughter
choosing a conspiracy of three
attitude with some cousin and her son...
while my grandfather...
there's pain: exhilarating...
quickly done away with you:
with a butcher's pardon on the guillotine...
then there's: pain: numbing...
relapsing... erosive...

well... i hardly imagine having enough time
to... somehow conjure up a connection
between corvus corax's herr wirt
& haydn's presto scherzando: of op. 20 no. 4...
beside the fire of the television:
how lacerating the warmth
how tongue numbing how...
if only this insomnia was
somehow translated into a transparency...
like my melancholy is a perpetual
hard-on...

all that's intelligent while only ending up
being mere posturing...
all that's plain daft while only ending up
being mere arrogance...
the insensible Kafkaesque tribalism
of the urban peoples...
the masculine aspect forgotten?
new: automated new: muscle loss?
the new wheat? juxtapositions around
cat's persistent inquiry whether the window
is somehow open...
or whether the bed is not yet slept in?

throw in a glass of milk come 1am
and... beside all that's to come with the chemical
circus... from now...
docile wolf still itching: bite a harvest...
sliding doors... the quintessential British
film from the 1990s...
it has to be...
that's me... dreaming of Swiss cheese...
cut with a guillotine... not a knife...
better still...
                     how familiar a curry has
become...
but you try and find the proper rice
to make a biryani not look like some phlegm
suckling stuck together grains of rice...
of a risotto or a paella...

I came to see your daily life
how good it feels to be the one
to be the one that opens the gate
for a child to see his mom he never met
to be the one to say it will be alright
when she's going through a path of hell
a journey through the peakest of all pain
to hold that little angel in her arms
to pick the sweet fruit she one day decided to plant
I saw how much she payed to do just that
my heart went," oh dear lord what nature gives
feeling pain yet feeling peace"
what a beautiful reminder of love this is
what an amazing creature human is.

I also thought, when you hold the baby in your arms,
what a wonderful dad I'd say my little angel has
my Prince charming in real life
the writer of my fairy tale,
you were the one I had in mand when I kneel down and when I pray
thank you sweet heart for being kind
for a beautiful story I can  tell
because of you my true love, the writer of my fairy tale. :)

hende der hjalp den lille dreng
der faldt og slog sit knæ
pustede på såret for det havde
hendes mor lært hende hjalp
på smerten
hende der gerne tog den upopulære
pige i klassens parti
selvom *** vidste det ville være
en ukorrekt social bedrift
men med et retfærdigheds-gen
som hendes var det en
ligegyldig pointe
hende der gerne delte sin ostemad
eller hjalp med dansk lektierne
tegnede tegninger til alle dem der
ville have en
hende der ikke var bange for at få drengelus
men istedet frygtløst tog deres hånd
og løb med et fnis fra dem på legepladsen
hende der altid satte en dyd i
at være der for sine medmennesker
og forstå dem og deres inderste tanker
hende der cyklede rundt på hendes
turkis farvede cykel i sommerkjoler
med håret opsat i en hestehale
i den nordsjællandske provins
ved slottet mens solen gik ned
og skyerne blev lyserøde
hende hvor livet ikke kunne gå
hurtigt nok
*** har danset på bordene
drukket af den søde røde vin
mærket de euforiske følelser
i alle årer i hendes krop
set solen stå op
og kysset frøer der bare aldrig
blev til en prins
hende der røg tyve cigaretter
på én aften i håbet på at
forkorte sit liv med bare et par år
leve i ung ignorance
hende der blev bange for kærlighed
bildte sig selv ind at *** ikke
forstod den fordi hendes forældre
aldrig lærte hende det
hende der aldrig passede helt ind
i gymnasiets firkantede kasser
og formalia
med en livlig fantasi og en drøm
om frihed og kreativitet
hende der skar åbne sår i sig selv
og lod drenge slikke smerten væk
med deres rug tunger
pålagde dem en værdi
som de ikke besad
men hende naboens datter
med det lange brune hår
er blevet voksen
og *** vil være designer
*** har stjerner i øjnene
og der står flammer ud af munden
på hende
ingen bakke er høj nok
for hende at bestige
ingen by er stor nok
for hende at udforske
*** vil noget mere
noget større
og intet kan holde hende tilbage
ingen mand kan stoppe hende
eller stjæle hendes livsglæde
hendes mod
*** har set sig selv være
svag og lille
men aldrig igen
for verden er hendes

Det gør mig så glad når en mand vælger at stå op kl afføring og tjene små skillinger, ved at spille 'fly me to the moon' og andre klassikere nede i metrogrotten.
En lille bid af lykkekagen fik jeg smagt. Jeg tyggede godt og længe. Og slugte den endelig.
En lille bid lykke fra morgenstunden, i en ellers trist og grå omgivelse

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I got haters left and right almost everyday somebody wanna fight. I'ts funny how people change, cuz one day they with you the next day they someone else's mans. Ya *****'s madd petty if I wanted ya mans i'll have em cuz it's  just that simple i ain't even got to try ****** already gunna ride
or die ya *****'s stupid you think you low but ya mand already know you be ******* on da low you

i går sagde en fremmed mand et sted på strøget
"du har tabt dit smil"
mine forældre vendte sig om og kiggede på jorden, efter noget de havde tabt
og ærligt kan min livssituation ikke beskrives bedre

tre biler på motorvejen
to foran os
fire røde lygter
ti synlige stjerner
how does it feel watching from upside down?
månen, reflekteret i mine øjne, som reflekteres i bilvinduet
køre forbi en gabende mand
eksistentielt overvældet
følelsesmæssigt udmattet
tilbagevendende og blodige, uvelkomne tanker om tænder mod asfalt som splinter
refleksionen: det stirrende øje, skåret ud af lysets forbipasserende søjle

køretid til indre by
-- min.
slukker radioen
et liv i en grøn parkeringshus-trappeopgang
næseblod og vintage-ure og familierelationer
tårer, der næsten ser verden men som aldrig udlever potentialet
som spirer, der aldrig bliver træer
og mod den mørke, tomme himmel snurrer byen
ud i intetheden