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Affectionate was
your way
of letting my
worries disappear. . .

How you put your arms
tight around my shoulders. . .

How tender your voice is. . .
whispering words of comfort
into my right ticklish ear abalone.

Believing in me. Lovingly. . .

Your ocean of whispering
sounds. . .Wavered Deep,  
deep love conection. Our
    
Free symbiosis
enhanced by French
parfume, evaporating
from my occiput fragility.
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Love Song

Don't you know
I love you more than I can say
Or put in words forbidden, its more involved each day
Since my feelings are no longer hidden
How do I make the conection, to tell this girl
Her sweet perfection, of the youthful face I see
The exurberance of life I love
Suddenly my prison walls have crumbled
The heavens moan, the mountains rumbled
My universe has never been for such a long time
So stable
And I wonder the next tale of this golden fable
Old memories long forgotten
My emotions so strong to fight
My minds whirling with wrong or right
Suddenly my universe is swirling
Vision is distorted by my human rain
My heart is thumping my heads whirling
Again I'm vulnerable to your pain
Oh bonnie lass with eyes so deep
Whom I run naked with in my sleep
Can your eyes measure the torment
Through which I've been
In this thousand years since you took me in
Twin flame I am, brown eyes and long dark hair
Loving a grey haired Enchantress
With skin so fair
With Warmth and compassion so rarely found
A beauty and gentleness that
Outshines all those around
Eons will pass by, lives flicker and then die
And for every soul that can't find love
Lonely wind will carry their sighs
And tears will fall as rain from high above
Loving you has been and is to me
The peak of the mountain, the top of the tree
And that we loved at all will only be in the knowing
Gone but not forgotten in the going
Raven

What's the conection & suspension;
Between words.
***** you, could desperatly mean something,
Other than what the blinds say,
So close them & I'll show you,
The wrong path all men take,
Towards a girl beautiful & broken,
Wide eyed & open,
Innocence has fled,
Conection & suspension

Life changes fast.
You may think,
Youve reached the end of the story.
But little did you know
A new book comes out,
Adding more to the elaborate plot.
You may think,
Where you stand is forever,
But one minute your on the gound,
And the next your paramount.

Three hours.
Three hours is how fast,
The rollercoaster I'm on goes.
And hes the conductor.
And when i finially thought ,
I have gained control,
I go through a loop,
And my mind is twisted.

I don't understand,
The feelings you have.
And you need to understand,
You don't know mine.
If you could only see,
How desparatley ive been trying,
How much I've been shuned,
What I went throught.
Then maybe,
Just maybe,
You can make a conclusion.
Talk to me.
Just talk.
Why don't we talk.
If your just as confused as i am,
If everything i thought,
My wildest dreams,
Are in fact today true,
Why does your face show a different story?
Can you change at the drop of a hat?
Like i can.
Can you change if you read my book?
Have you tried?

I know there was electricity,
That i thought was dead.
Maybe theres a spark left.
But the one who i trust most
Cut our conection.
Can we fix it?
Thats what i want-
thats what i NEED
to know.
You have loved ,
As i have loved you.
Can we go back?
Why are you,
Broken too?

How do flowers bloom from dirt, beautiful? How does the sun rise every morning just as brilliant as the day before? I cannot remember exactly when I lost myself completely, or if I ever even had a self to lose. Hate crashes over me and I am drowning, choking on words left unsaid,  breathless after a silent scream. And after the waves cease and the waters calm there is nothing left but an empty shell, washed up on the shore and left for the next wave to consume. All pieces together but still broken. Shame wraps around me perfectly, a black cloak. Surrounded. It's fabric is strong, relentless, my body is no match. Suffocating. Soon its grip has severed the conection to my mind and I am its prisoner. Surrendered. Minutes turn into hours turn into days and soon we have become one, shame and me. We move together, a perfect pair, dancing through darkness on two left feet.

All I think about is you
But you can't see me standing here
Could you learn to love me again
Don't pretend we never happened
Every where I go reminds me of you
Forgive me Please
Give me one chance to prove to you I've changed
How could you cut me off with no warning
I could still love you for a life time
Just know she'll never be as good as me
Klingy some might say
Love hurts worse than I can explain
My head is spinning
No one can take your place
Only you its only ever been you
Please Please
Questions have been left unanswered
Remembering all those nights we spent
Still can't forget your smile
Tell me how can you leave me in such pain
Understand where I'm coming from
Various images of you and I
Without you I'm lost
Xoxo
You were the love of my life
Zero conection

I know how much she cares for me and I care for her to
But if I said I wanted to be with her that just would not be true
I can only go so far to make her night with my attention
In the morning there is emptiness
Because between us are different intentions
Yes I know the pain and the feeling of rejection
Which is why I lead her on this way but avoid a real conection

I cant believed you cared about how far I went
I cant believe you made a joke about everything I said
I dont understand the efforts you made
If my pants got ***** you didnt care
I kept over thinking these things in my head
Like a movie, like a story that never ends
But today is sunday and I still care
We never went fowards
We only went backwards
You said you didnt want trouble
Eventually i'll become a memory
This conection that felt so real
Wanting to move up but holding on instead
But you brought confusion
I sent you a video and a song
You never had time for them
Was it all in my head?
What went wrong started again
Its stupid I know, I only think about her