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Lopez Creationz Jun 2014
There is this little girl who eternally resides deep deep inside,
Behind the face of a woman is where she continuously hides.

Sometimes she will allow herself to remember back to the days
When she was a small child and in the fields where she did play.

Her memories mostly of her buddying around with her only brother
That is all that she has left now since his life was ended by another.

Most of her memories she holds dearest to heart were with him
The memories that haunt her the most are memories of "Them"

Mother would pack up the children and run far from their father
Daddy was abusive and would beat his wife, son and daughters.

One night Mother and Father had spent a night on the town together,
When they got home a fight broke out, Daddy went outside and pulled
the trigger.

His small son & daughter in the window crying and watching with fear
There mother told them to go back to bed and try to get some rest,
Them looking confused, she said "It's just ketchup all over his chest."

After years of watching the beatings and taking some of their own
Mommy finally took all three children and left their Daddy all alone.

Daddy got better and stopped laying abusive hands on all of them
But Mommy could not handle teens and with her it all started again.

                                    Lopez ©reationz 2014
To my brother, Rip in Paradise.  March 1969 -  September 2000
the moon of my life; you'll always have your gravitational pull on my watery heart

my heart is filled with happy tears of joy

buddying tears on the sides of my eyes when I'm so happy to see you

be around you

when we have the bestest of time

when we're laughin' the hardest

when you make me feel like the funniest

those are happy tears that fill my watery heart

the moon of my life; yes, you'll always have your gravitational pull on my watery heart
Mateuš Conrad Sep 2017
it's not that i'm gagging for them, but then again i'm suspicious as to why i don't receive them... where are all the malicious comments, the insidious emails, where are they? i'd love to receive a pigs head thrown at my front door, i'd love becoming an adrenaline junk comment feed filled by load of ******* dressed comments... i mean, my email account is quieter than a graveyard, i keep probing the hornets' nest, and all of them seem stoner lazy... i keep probing and probing and probing... and all i get is an ox's **** back.

maybe i'm just a loveable alcoholic,
that has enough time on his hands
to describe what time is,
given that space has been occupied
by a parabola of einstein,
the the several other impossibilities
of the generalised inquest
as to what is, possible, and as to what is,
impossible.
      i'd be the richest men alive had
i seen the rings of saturn, eye to eye,
but i won't: hence the maggoty stench
of reality overshadowing me...
or that cat's meow loosened inside
my head -
        off the rails -
i tell ye,
    don't buy a *maine ****
cat,
they're just like bloodhounds -
easily depressed, and often too clingy -
you'll end up like me,
   with a feline pavarotti in your head,
i've never hear so many distinctions
of meow in a thousand lifetimes -
quarus, the bane of my life,
if you can call it life with him included;
easier listening to a hundred dogs bark than
his meow distinctions,
     a million mice and one piece of
buttered cheese: can we please, please,
please make this guillotine work?!
    i don't want mice without broken
necks... this cat's ******* annoying!
it's like a baby, cries for nine months
suddenly stops, and starts to suckle at the teet...
it's a bloodhound incarnate as feline...
i don't have the heart to tell the ******
to stop his moaning meows...
but the ginger isn't exactly
a charlie's angel worth of revelation!
ugh... grrr...
       next thing you know i'm pampering
kenyan toddlers on the sly...
had this one night stand though,
with this african bubbly...
what did i end up with,
a child male ******* his thumb,
coming to sleep on my hairy chest...
stroking his afro while trying to
imagine tight-knit spaghetti....
and it really felt like: are you hers,
or are you mine?
                   did i mentioned she preferred
to fake a ****** with her thighs?
oh, sure are ****,
the senegal boys were buddying up busy
with the games console,
i was a surrogate white boy with
a ****** reclining on my chest
falling asleep...
                kissing him goodnight,
and, words aside - i like the racial slur
glue, apologies, i'm not a ****** in
this respect, i just love to avoid
choco, and i much respect
the dr. dre - ******, please,
its either dr. dre or it's
you try **** a kenyan lass,
and she throws a baby boy at you?!
******, just say it:
i'm an usher fan...
you ever had a one-night-stand
when you get to lullaby a black baby
on your hairy white chest?
thought so.
**** as a six pack of **** nuggets...

and i really was up for a steak &
kidney pie...
  i didn't sign up for this sort of love,
but given there was the question
of love on the roulette -
"homie" had a white father for a night...
i guess that was me
measuring ****...
    and the access of promiscuity -
like **** did that work...
sooner me it, and the elephant
in the room,
    than the bling readied easy ride of ****.

i still can't forget that little ******,
his oily twirly curls of sub-sahara -
the buttery feel of his skin against mine -
how easily he fell asleep in my hands -
how he didn't discriminate me not being
his daddy...
   his mama who faked her thighs don't
being ****, who i said to: no...
you just pulled your children from the bed
onto the floor...
and there the poor ****** stood,
at 2.am., ******* at his ******-dummy -
naked, me naked, her queenship naked
next to me, her naked daughter on
the floor by the bed like a respecting dog...
hey! reality!
  so i took the scruff into my arms...
laid him on my chest...
    and he took off into the cloth of night...

no, ******, no no no!
i'll say these words like you rap them,
you don't own a nuance in a thousand miles
of the "proper" usage -
    i have the abiding jest to say them,
what this one-night stand experience,
plus, the pakis in england demanded i be
deemed: vermin...
  i'm pretty sure they're behind that
vocab selection...
      sure thing ****...
i'll be king vermin...
                   wanna see my chew?
grit nibbling, teeth that scold beyond
the bone -
  teeth that chatter and gnash,
treating a piece of bone like a corncob -
until they start suckling on the marrow:
the moment when
rats turn into leeches,
is the moment when rat teeth gnash
past the bone and reach the marrow:
suckle that ****'s worth
                 of freckled blood-clots:
vermin does, what vermin is said to be.

as i always state:
learn how to read, or at least to: reread...
   hard to spot the tuxedo language,
when everyone on the most inglorious stretch
of pavement is wearing hardly a tux,
but a straitjacket.
       oh sure, the sharks were always asking
for the gentle touch,
    the lions were always asking for the gentle
touch...
     for some reason, man was always
asking for a touch of sanity.
If Michael Finnigan had been clean-shaven
he wouldn't have had all that trouble with the wind.

that was random
but most things are.

Earlier
I did some studying
buddying up to clever folks
and they can be hard to find
but
I persevered and moved up the
playing field

next thing you know
I might
have a certificate to show
but don't hold your breath,
death does that for you
quite well.

here I am
thinking of a beer
and what should appear?
a cup of camomile tea
She
hands it to me with a smile on her face
She
obviously doesn't know about the case
hidden under the bed.

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