If I were to die today
and I got to watch my life in replay,
Looking back, what would I say?

I wouldn’t be very proud,
I kept too many secrets,
That to someone, I should’ve avowed.

I’d wish I took more time to pray,
And I’d regret letting my life decay,
If I were to die today.

I’d see that I should’ve loved more.
I should’ve loved everyone, even myself.
I’d realize my heart was something I shouldn’t have ignored.

I would be ashamed of every action I did to betray.
If I were to die today
And watched the story of my life, I’d want to look away.

I’d regret letting my fears get the best of me;
I’d be sorry I wasted all that time;
I’d realize there were better ways to use my energy.

If I were to die today,
So would all my words that I’ve always wanted to say.
I’d be sad that I held back, and let my words be delayed.

I’d say I was a fool
To ever let a lie leave my lips.
I should have never been that cruel.

I pushed the person I was away
I’d see that I was the predator and the prey,
If I were to die today.

I’d finally see all dimensions of my beauty;
I’d hate that I ever hated myself
And I’d realize I never fulfilled my duty.

If I were to die today,
And watched my life in replay,
There is so much I would say.

Behold!
On biers sleep
the ****** winter
And in ashes burn the ubiquitous chill
And the snow that had blocked life
Hark! All hark!
Thier sports play the bees
And rhymes the buzz everywhere
The balmy breeze sings
Caressing the leaves
in full bloom and flowers
On their wings are the pittas
To welcome the new weather
In the yard hang the hazy days
And at the door summer knocks

i see through the gap in my teeth
and smile out of the side of my eyes
because when we were supposed to be right
we weren't
and when we were right
we still weren't

i've got eyes in the back of my head
but don't worry
they're blind

just like my mouth doesn't listen
but my ears say the darnedest things

just like
when our minds
weren't right

young folk

Go to sleep child
Wake up tomorrow with a new day ahead

Eyes sore
Begging me to fall asleep
But not without some tears shed before
For no reason
I'll die a little inside
Goodnight
Goodnight

I’d say I’m cynical.
Bitter.
Expecting a difference.
Anticipating changes that aren’t within us.
Sensing destruction,
A rapid digression.
Shifting between choice and depression.
Hollowed deception.
Habitual lessons.
But I remembered to stop.
Allowing the mind to breathe.
Attempting to be.
No longer accepting an energy that’s empty.
Refusing to exist in a forgotten memory.

The sun drips away
You hold my hand
I want you to stay
But I know you can't

We kiss one last time
And hold each other more
Here you are forever mine
Our love we can explore

Then you go and fade
I cannot bring you back
This was never made
Or ever meant to last