I feel like drowning in the sea
I don't feel like being found
But no matter how much I try to drown
I float

andrew
the name that haunts me like a ghost
it is because of you
that i live my life closed
to love and potential happiness

i have dreams about many andrews
and they all seem so much better than you
but i will never know because they're just dream boys
that haunt me like you do

it's all fiction
and it makes me wonder
if you were, too.

pouring my heart out to your email at night –
it just doesn’t feel right
the love, the lust, the tears, the fright
is it really worth my time?
tell me it’s worth being apart
tell me it’s worth being torn apart
by the time and the silence
and all the secrets you keep in your heart.


but even if it’s not worth my time,
nothing you can say will keep me from being by your side.