Do you feel these words I'm writing?
Do you know they're meant for you?
Have you caught that special feeling in your heart?

Because I have it in my stomach
And it's daily growing stronger
And I don't know how to stop it
Or if I want for it to end.

Perhaps you'll never see this,
And that would be alright.
I can't afford to lose you
To my thoughts.

And never will I jeopardize
This special bond we share
With a little peck here
And a casual flirt there.

I'll leave this bond between us
And I'll let it keep on growing
As you water it with kisses
And you feed it with your smile.

Chaos.
Disarray.
Uncontrolled.
Messy.
Clutter.
Disorder.
Spilling­ thoughts...

You.

mistakes





**** a big one,  oh boy how did i do that
it’s these days i miss mom’s food
bro, and sisters i’m sorry guys i ****** that up
what a long strange trip, just wanted to sleep well did i

oh mom i’m so sorry i’d never meant to hurt you
you were always cool, sometimes i didn’t see why i couldn’t fly
on spring days, anytime, don’t be sad, the trip with you guys too cool
remember hell, know that i’m always with you

that dude your with way cool, he’s out there,and your an artist and writer now too
this is so great, you and don’t tell him, you save his ***. ought to get him to put you
as co-writer.  i’m so happy  dad oh man he should have gotten a corvette
but it my fault  sleep that all yeah i knew better but your an adult i shouldn’t have
taken  any but they looked like magic carpet rides

dance  sing  play the music i loved loud
but remember i’m there i check you guys out just because, oh this was strange but 2 months ago
was eating and this woman about your age sits down guess who it was
that dudes wife, she says were going to be step son and mom. she’s a trip cool
woman but can she talk

calling for bowling lessons, i signed up, the one thing i really love the shoes
don’t be sad your the best i ****** up i’m sorry get the new dude to take you dancing
that will be something to see,  don’t think he’ll be killer and don’t let him trip you up
i can see that  well just let me know when so i can get his ex to watch she knows what
a mess he’ll make

love ya, be happy i am well tell every one hi if they won’t think your nuts
it’s feels like a 300 day is about to happen

Elias and Flora

overwhelming in it's completeness, 
full of that certain light,
the light that causes soft changes in the shape of clouds, 
a chapter ends

the books filled with photographs of their memories
packed in their crates,
sealed with tape the colour of time
boxed, but never to be forgotten,

dawn smiling beyond the curve in the sky  
whispering quietly under her breath,
she stretches, yawns, readies  for this new day,
the birds in their spring finery
soar on the all knowing winds

the wagon wheels freed from the mud 
that’s bound them for so long
creek and shutter, moving again,
rejoining the road, greeted by their
own private screening of futures full of Walt and Roy

He lifts her off her feet
And he pulls her back inside,
She had come out of that closet
Weeks ago.

He grips her sides
And moves in close
With his heartbeat
Matching hers.

She lives within this moment
And she never wants an ending.
She's wrapped up in his need
For all she has.

She tries to pull him with her,
Bring him outside of that small room
So dark and closed and empty
In her heart.

But as she puts her lips on his
And he begins to move them downward
She loses all the thoughts
Within her head.

He accepts her and she knows it
And that makes her love him deeper
But he cannot understand
The way she feels.

When she's outside of that small space
She can feel all that desire
For the strength of his hand
And the small of her back.

But when she's back inside that closet
He is all that is within her
And she knows it would be easier
To just stay hidden up in there.

But it cannot be that simple
Not for her or for another
And she knows that she can't hide it
For this long.

So she'll let out all these feelings
In that small and empty closet
As he lifts her off her feet
And he pulls her back inside.

In a dark room, a little girl hid.
She clung to her doll.
Hungry and alone, she cried.
Why did no one love her?
Her mom left her for a gram,
and some other man.
Her dad abusive, and drunk.
She dug her way through bags of trash and junk.
Little girl wanted something to eat.
Daddy found her sent her to her room for
a beat.
"Don't tell anyone" he then said.
Sent the little girl back to bed.
She knew she had to be strong.
She knew her parents had done wrong.
She finally told her grandma.
She finally told the cops.
She was finally safe and her dad was stopped.
Yes, this is a real story you see.
This five year old girl, was me.