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Apr 2016 v i c t o r i a

Chris Park

Put a bullet in my skull, maybe two or three.

I'm  tired of all the excuses  and lies, that you made me believe.

I wish you were out of my life already, but I also wish we just met.
but why do you keep giving me hope we'd be together again, then dropping me like a finished cigarette.

I try my best not to look at a text, that comes from your  name.
Cause ever since you've left me, I can't read them the same.

I just want to let you go,
and forget all we had
and whatever could've been.
I mean,  why do you always ask me what could've been
when you were the one who broke us apart to begin.

I just can't take much longer of your fake innocence and lies
I just wish you'd let me be
everyone keeps thinking I'm the wrong one, but you're the one they don't bother to see.

Yet I never cared what others thought, and never will I ever,
cause they don't know what it feels like, to lose what you thought you'd have forever.

Because forever and always, was what we always said after our I love you's.
but now your happy with another guy, while I'm lost singing the blues.
I wish you'd get out of my head so I can finally be free.

Better yet,
just put a bullet in my skull, maybe two or three.

#love #broken #depressed #heartbroken #angry #upset

Apr 2016 v i c t o r i a

Cats

Apr 2016 v i c t o r i a

Silvana Franco

Cats

Their fur is like silk
Their paws soft as moss,
Their pupils dilate and
Chase things that are tossed.

Once worshipped as gods
Now they're merely our pets,
Though they wear a facade
That says "Cats don't forget."

They still think that they're sacred
And mankind is their slave,
So they walk like they're royalty and
Take the act to their grave.

Some people despise them
Say they're cold and ungrateful
They look like rats, they cause mayhem
And they're just not playful!

I see something different
When I look in a cat's eyes,
I feel an ancient wisdom
Behind their jaded guise

I am transported back
To scorching Egyptian nights
And see within their pupils, black
The starless desert skies.

An intelligent being stares back at me
In unblinking contemplation,
My soul laid bare before two orbs
The color of amused satisfaction.

So next time you see one lazily
Sunbathing on its side,
Close your eyes and feel
the ancient spirits that
It carries deep inside.

Apr 2016 v i c t o r i a

A Floating Anchor

Apr 2016 v i c t o r i a

Chris Park

A Floating Anchor

The chains wrapped around my body seem to get tighter every day.
The thriving sensation in my chest never seems to go away.
The stones attached to my feet, aim to drag me down lower.
I can't even scream for help, cause the waters getting colder.
I try to remember what it was like, to be able to breathe on my own
but the weights that are sewn into me, continuously have grown.
The shackles on my wrist feel like wet concrete in the sun
My blood flow has stopped, and the feeling is numb.
I don't know how to explain myself, when people ask me what's wrong
I just look and say nothing, with a smile to go along
but really I'm not sure, and I haven't found the right answer
I'm just tired of living and wish death would come faster
I"m slowly going under the harder I'm thinking
Trying to find a way to keep myself from slowly sinking.
My body wants to break free , but it's my mind that's not allowing
maybe it's best if i just give in, I mean I'm already drowning.

#love #broken #lonely #hate #depressed #breaking