„The moon keeps secrets the sun cannot bear.
That‘s why they blame me for all their despair.
Deep into the night, the shadows arise,
where darkness and coldness
rule over the light.“
„But under your eyes I discovered new shades of blue,
you always look paler when the moon shines on you.
And somehow the cruelty finds an easy way in,
when the last golden glimpses fade from your skin.
Yet I know it‘s the curse that the wind always whispers,
when memories linger in forgotten corners.“
„But behind my closed eyes-
they are revived.
I tried to hide in the sunlight,
but it‘s too pure for my kind.
It‘s woven within me
with seams through my veins,
so that whenever I bleed, the lunar eclipse begins to reign.“

I don‘t know what to say
I‘ve already thanked you for loving me so much
Although I wished you‘d love me less
I never asked for all of your heart
I‘m very grateful that you worry about me
but I‘m afraid you‘re wasting all your time
I‘m tired and I‘m worn out
and it‘s scary because I used to be so bright
I can see that this is worsening
You tell me everyday
I‘m sorry that I‘m hurting you
But you‘re hurting anyway

The goodbyes never came with big marching bands or fireworks
they were quiet and lonely
they felt permanent, endless
and the most painful thing about it was that no one around me felt it
the birds were still chirping, the cities as crowded as always
my apartment looked just the same
when after all, everything had changed

In the quiet spaces between breaths, I wonder if time remembers the things I’ve forgotten.
Maybe it can picture all the wildflowers I walked past
the sand castles I built at the beach
all the sunsets I begged to behold for forever
and then couldn’t envision a week later anymore
maybe it listens to the words of my mother,
humming her lullabies when I was too scared to sleep
maybe it knows that it holds something of mine
but keeps it from me
But it might dream of forgetting
cursed to hold all the memories, hopeless to break free

Jeder Blick in die Ferne gab mir ein Stück von dir zurück
die Luft so hoch oben fühlte sich anders an
und die Unendlichkeit im Horizont schien das Nächste zu sein, wie ich jeweils wieder zu dir sein könnte
doch ich konnte die Vögel nicht mehr ertragen,
den Wind in meinen Haaren und alles, was die Natur mir zur Schau stellte
nicht wenn sie mir das Einzige, was ich jemals mehr liebte als sie, nahm
nicht wenn sie mich dazu verdammte, jeden moment nach dem zu suchen, was nie wieder gefunden werden konnte
und trotzdem konnte ich nicht wegschauen
sie entriss mir jede Hoffnung wieder und wieder,
doch war sie auch die Einzige, die sie mir zurückgeben konnte,
wenn auch nur für einen Wimpernschlag
es war, als vergiftete ich mich selber Stück für Stück
aber es war wunderschön

I‘m sorry my light painted you in colors you didn‘t know you had in yourself
I‘m sorry I opened you up for new scents you never knew you could smell
I‘m sorry life was easier before you held my hand
But why did you have to curse me?
it wasn’t me who sent you to hell

you might go a few miles
but you won’t go far
it creeps up and haunts you
even though you came so far
when you‘re flying out of space
and overcome time
it will still come and find you
to destroy the light
you don’t know why it happens
so you just try to hide
but it will catch up
and **** you this time.