we didn't even date
and here i am crying
say that i'm just great
don't even care if i'm lying
i let this be okay
it's my fault i'm dying
i let you take and take
didn't fight the gaslighting
now we're face to face
but i don't feel like fighting
but you got things to say
must find my fear exciting
i just wanna walk away
but you plant yourself beside me
this doesn't have to graduate
beyond the need to spite me
i'm tired after a long day
already treaded lightly
at this point you're acting vain
there is no need to find me
no need to stay
and find new ways to fright me

you already won this game
i'm begging you untie me

I stab and cut my flesh and there is no pain.

the warmth of blood is all my skin feels.

I cut myself open and expose my heart and yet I feel nothing.

the warmth of my blood is all my skin feels.

I touch my heart with my bare hands..... a throb.

warmth and a throb.

a new feeling brings joy to my face.

I carve my heart out and feel it throb till my body gives out.

no more warmth.

no more throb.

In the densest fogs
Wander morning birds

Between the trees, evergreen
Yet ever unseen

You can hear the croak of frogs
Their own amphibian words

The day crests high
Light fills the leaves

Glowing green among the gold
As seen from below, but not above

Until then comes the night
And the world then goes to sleep

To wonder if the sun will rise
Once more for different eyes

Or if the same will see
The lovely forest green