Let go of all the pain of the past and feel how much lighter your journey to the future becomes.

Can’t they all just learn
To leave me alone
Is it so hard to fathom
That I like being on my own?

And no, it’s not lonely
I don’t need you help
I am perfectly capable
Of loving myself...

May you, so passionate, rest in peace
May your humble heart be at ease
And heaven shall surely in you pleasure find
Remember me, I beg, I’m not too far behind

I pray that in your soul I’m cherished
While I’m in my purgatory, perished
Each day is a weight that I cannot bear
The load of your loss is my dispair

And as you, Saint, God’s abode adorn
Below is besmirched as I mourn
Awaiting the time we will reunite
And this darkness will turn to light

So unfathomable is my pain
Like a law that has been profaned
It gnaws alway inside, the unremitting beast
I witness myself ******* more with every feast

As my mind ponders and I gaze forlorn
A trickle of hope and delight is born
I’m certain you have God’s fondness gained
As you in my favor have always remained

Empowered I commence journ with faith/hope
And search for your colors in life’s kaleidoscope...

she paints
with
poetry

molding
her mind
onto paper

creating
worlds with
words

sculpting
alternative
realities

to
lose and find
herself in...

forced to
break her
Avatar-State

abandoning
her sacred
space

she returns
to
Earth

She was deeply disturbed
Yet, poised and peaceful.
Never had I seen
A mess more beautiful...

If only you could understand,
How you held my heart
When you held
My hand

Your touches travelled past my skin
They shook my soul
So deep
Within

You moved more than my body
I shared with you
Every last part
Of me

Yet you cannot comprehend
My pain when my lover
Told me, I’m only
A friend

You could have said it before
You let me believe that
I am so much
More...

I am broken, now beyond repair
As you continue
Without a
Care

Although I’m angered I’ll never wish
For anyone to ever
Hurt you
Like this

It takes a different kind of cruel
To take someone who
Loves you for a
Fool...

Do not discredit your worst moments,
They have brought you here

You didn’t just become the beautiful
Butterfly my dear

Your trying past and triumphant present
deserve equal praise

For the pain lead to your transformation,
So celebrate your caterpillar phase…

If only you possessed
The power
To see

All that you are and
All that you’ll
Be

Tell me, what is sight
Without the sense of
Perception?

What good is imagination
Without any
Invention?

Thus, hold onto your hopes
For glorious days
Lay ahead

One cannot follow
Dreams that are
Dead

And do not think
Your vast visions
To be foolish

For many wondrous things
Did begin with
A wish...

You may move on
And try to forget
But never, ever
Regret
Loving

I gave you an  
Invitation,
Accepted your
Invasion.
So who really
Is to blame,
If we both treated
Me the same?

You said you
Loved me...
And it set
Me free

Only to later
Lock me up
And throw
Away the
Key

Yet it appeared
Quite fine as I
Had been
Locked up
Before

The difference being
That I was the
Warder of my
Own prison
Door

Tell me, who is to
Blame
When we hurt
Me the same?

You saw me suffer
And worsened
My existing
Pain

In the depths of fear
Courage is
Born

Strength is found
In the eye
Of the
Storm

We were soaring,
But the rain
Was pouring

Foolishly flying,
Whilst the sky
Was crying

Deaf to the thunder,
As she cursed
Our every blunder

We refused to heed,
though the
Lightening did plead

And past the shroud,
Of ominous
Black clouds

Impulsively persisted,
Despite how the
universe resisted

Both arrogant and reckless,
Mimicking the
Dear Icarus

A painful lesson,
Was to follow
Our transgression

We were caught in
A tumult and it was
Our own fault

But you left me there, Alone
To fight the storm
On my own...

Plummeting into the sea
My melted wings could
Not carry me

My heart drowned in
The cold, cold ocean
I paid the price of my
Blind love and
Devotion.

Through thick and thin
Loss  and win
We were glued together
As we will be forever

We cured each disaster
With goofing and laughter
Quite the doctors we were
With life’s essential cure

Adopting Peter Pan’s
Most Brilliant Plan
We refused to grow old
to grow bitter and cold

We were so powerful
We were so invincible
Two fragile little girls
Taking on a cruel world

Now we are older
and debatably wiser
Trapped inside adults
despite our revolts

Yet, we bring magic
To a world so tragic
With the ‘faith, trust
And pixie dust ‘

Of our
everlasting friendship...

When I’m there
You don’t care
But when I’m away
You beg me to stay

I may be known
For my enduring loyalty
But you’ll be left alone
If you don’t value me…

Her hope of happiness
Becomes a mirage

As she slips down
The ***** of
Self-sabotage

Her Anatomy is Astrology

With her starry eyes
She’ll lure you in
Her gaze giving you
A glimpse of
The galaxy within

Her miraculous mind is an
incredible constellation
Glistening with dreams,
Painted with imagination

Her soul shines brighter
Than Luna’s light
She’s as honest as the day
And mysterious as the night…

The ones who
Once brought you
To your
Knees

Never expected you
To send out a flood
And rise with
The seas..

Don’t build me up
To break me down
Don’t make me smile
To make me frown
Don’t me make laugh
To make me cry
Don’t make want to live
To make me want die...

She is a force of nature
Both beautiful and bold

Who was never created
To fit man’s mould

You beat me with your words,
You cut me with your lies
Haunt me with your hatred,
This my doom and demise

You suffocate me with your cynicism,
Crucify me on your critical cross
Make confetti of my ashes,
Singing sweet songs at my loss

But hear me now, this infinite evil
May last for eternities to come
But there are more of us claiming our places,
Showing our faces to the Sun

We shall no longer be slaves of the shadows,
Hiding as though we ought to be ashamed
But celebrate this absolute triumph:
A victory for which we are blamed

For we are the rainbows, roaring in the sky
We signify hope, hope steadfast
Reminding the world and ourselves
That no storm is here to last

We pray, one day That  humanity
whose heart is hard to the core
Will scrutinise souls based on their
Sexuality
no more…

They say that I’m
Too much to
Handle

Yet they never seem
To handle me with
Care

They say that I’m
Unable to
Trust

Yet they break it the
Moment I’m not
There

They say that I’m
Far too
Insecure

Yet they won’t
Help me
Heal

They say I’m
Cold and
Uncaring

Yet they ignore
What I
Feel

They say that I‘m
unable to
Listen

Yet they are the
Ones who can’t
Hear

They say I’m
Afraid of
Love

Yet there is
so much to
Fear...

I wonder who wounded you
For you to be this way...
For you to be so callous
And cast love away.

I wonder who wounded you
For you to be this way
I will no longer despise you
But for your healing pray.

Look at you,
Doing so
Well!

Smiling,
Despite going
Through hell.

They sipped on
You, Sweet Sister
Like you were cheap
Chardonnay.

Then realized
You were Champagne
The day you walked
Away...

You sighed and said:
“Make love not war.”

But what is love,
If it’s not worth
Fighting for?

I don’t expect you
To move mountains for me
Just carry my heart
When it gets too heavy...

You have fallen from
A few’s favour
This is not your fall
From grace

When others consider
It a sin, to take up
Your God given
Space

Worship not the words
Of serpent tongues
That spit only
Lies

By bending to their will
you’ll become the
Failure that they
Prophesize

My dear you are of
Of the heavens ,
Created to serve a
Devine Purpose

Never forget, you were
Not born to bow or
Bend, but to
Achieve greatness.

Let know one convince you
That you are worthless…

That the one I love most finally wakes up from his perfect illusion of me and sees me the way that I see myself.

The road back to myself
Was no easy one to walk
I often veered off course
According to their talk

For I was given false directions
By a friend(ly) stranger along the way
Or blindly followed in the darkness
One that I trusted who lead me astray

I stumbled, oh I stumbled hard
But with each significant blow
Something in me awakened,
I was taught a lesson I needed to know

Then came a day when I became
A true traveller: Both bold and wise
I trusted my instincts by
Setting alight their atlas of lies

I followed then a road, determined
By what my soul yearned for
(a kind of love and acceptance)
Not found at another’s door

I came to discover that I needn’t
Cross far lands and sail the seas...
I was far, yet so very close
To the place where I wanted to be

And when I found myself again,
Tears of joy trickled down my face
As I embraced her, I knew their
Was no destination like this place

i wrote You a story,
with meticulous care
praised your great glory
with  flaws,so blatant, there

i drew You a picture
with such precision
magnified Your stature
according to my vision

You wrote me a story
with malicious intent
what i failed to foresee
i could not prevent

You drew me a picture
dedicated to your desire
i didn’t recognize her
the witch  in Your fire

i told myself our story
The one You wouldn’t hear
what a fantastic fantasy
that seemed so sincere

i admired our picture
the one you wouldn’t see
an angel, called Lucifer
stared back at me


I’m writing myself a story
incase it interests you
a kind of an allegory
to get the message through

I’m drawing myself a picture
in case it crossed your mind
always confusing sin with scripture
I wonder what meaning you’ll find

I’ve written myself a story
and drawn myself a picture
where  I’m freed from your purgatory
and have emerged a victor...

My friends are few
And my foes are plenty
I am adored by some
And despised by many

But what does this matter?
Oh, I’ve set my soul free
And I’m at peace when
I can be myself , unapologetically.

Don’t be fooled by his
Ocean blue eyes
Hidden beyond them
Is a seabed of lies

Don’t be fooled by
Those ocean blue eyes
That with a blink will
Blacken your skies

Don’t be fooled by those
Ocean blue eyes:
The monster wears a
Handsome disguise

Sister,
You are like
The magnificent
Moon

When you feel
Your power waning
Know it will be restored
To it’s fullness soon...

Your hands will burn
When you dare
Capture her
Flame

She is not yours to possess,
Her passion is not yours
To claim…

She has been my greatest lover
My truest companion
My safe haven
My everything
Without her
I am no one,
Nothing

I’d rather you tell me
That you hate me to
My face.

Because I know you
Don’t give a ****
In any case.

So what’s with the chit-chat
And wasting of
Breath

Would you come to my
Funeral, pretend-cry
At my death?

Out a ferocious flames
A Phoenix is reborn:

Likewise, she’ll ascend
From the ashes and
Transform...

Sister, there is no need
To push aside your pain.
Embrace it, for flowers
Cannot grow without rain.

Sister do not mistake
A hardened heart
For a strong
And safe
Home

Your soul will crumble
And be enslaved by
one who’s cold heart
Is made of
Stone!

I confess
That I undress
To feel less

Yes,
My head is a mess
But I’ll make up for it
With what’s under this
Dress

Right?
That’s the only way
to get you to say
Goodnight
And the only way
For me to do right by you
Is to do you
Right…

So what’s the point
Of putting up a fight?

I said that I didn’t love you
I am a liar

Every day addressing
Letters to the fire…