I lost it all.
My heart was torn from the dark cloud.
My mind, twisted the most until everything was gone again.
Begging to stay,  but each day gets harder.
I lost it all.
The happiness that my body needs to survive.
I lost the smile but kept the pain.
One day this will be a story but right now I'm living in a dream.
Not sure if I will make it to the end.

Was she nothing to him?
Were all the memories are thrown out the second he found someone prettier?
I remember the way he to look at her like she was the only person who mattered.
She was his world,
Now it's almost as if she ever even existed.

I feel her heartbreaking as the tears roll down her cheeks,
Wishing I could carry her pain even for a second.
She looks up and says she will be ok,
With a broken smile.
I felt her heartbreak the second she opened her mouth,
Hoping she knows I'm not going anywhere.
We sit waiting for a moment to bring dryness to her eyes.
It hurts knowing I can't do anything but love her from afar.
I feel her heart slowly, realizing it's going to be whole again.

I miss you when I shouldn't.
I love you when I can't.
Everyone says you are bad for me but I don't believe it.
How can you make me feel this good but be this toxic?
I need to know what's going on because I tried giving you up but it's too hard.
Just maybe you can enter my life one more time.

When the day finally comes and i close my eyes for the last time.
I hope my memories of this night replay in my head.
That the last breath of air was spent on saying the words that you told me.
“I love you until I can’t anymore”
The look you gave me would make anyone cry as I say it for the final time.

Give me a reason for staying.
Give me a reason to love you anymore.
I'm tired of not getting anything in return and waiting by the phone for a single text that never comes.
I wait and wait for someone to care about me but everyone passes by.
No one stops to say hello.
No one even says goodbye after breaking me.
Give me a reason to love anymore.
I can't do this anymore,
Please I'm tired.
I'm tired of missing someone that I can't have.

I didn't know happiness could be so sweet.
I'm afraid to let my wall down,
Knowing all this could be gone.
What if I wake up and this all a dream?
I can't go back,
The scares are still fading.
My heart is broken, slowly getting back together.
I was knocking on death's door,
I'm finally Afraid of leaving.

I still get nervous like the first time when I saw the word read on my messages.
Wondering if this would be first of many times you wouldnt care what I say.
Won't want to know more and wonder when I will move on.
I'm sorry because I want to tell you all about my life.
About little details that probably make you think about something else.
The more you get to know me the easier it will be to understand.
That I get attached too fast and get send too many text to get your attention.
The attention you don't want me to have.

I like you.
My body is hurting from holding this secret.
Every text message feels like a bullet to my heart.
I see the way you look at other boys, not realizing I notice.
Should I move on Or wait my life away?

I know not everyone will want me.
I only want you to stay in my life as long as possible.
I’m not going to ask forever but I’m hoping it will be longer than just tonight.
I know we just met but I can’t stop thinking about you.
I know it most be for a reason.
Please tell me I’m not the only one thinking this right now.
In the end of the day if I hear your voice then everything will be ok.

Around and around we go again.
Feeling too low to even breathe.
Begging for the day that forever will Finley end?
Hoping my pain won't be here tomorrow.
Around and around we go again.
I scream in my mind thinking someone will hear my cries.
No one comes because it's all in my head
Around and around we go again.

I’m drowning in my thoughts,
Hoping one day I can finally be with you

I fly; I fly until I can't anymore.
I fly; I fly until everything makes sense.
I wonder if one day I can finally stay in one place.
I fly again, hoping it will seem like a small memory in the end.

He never understood how a smile could hide,
A world was full of a terrible past.
He tried his hardest to love her, but it was too much in the end.
She didn't understand why it was her fault for loving too hard,
When growing up, that's all she ever knew.
She tried her hardest to move on, but it was too much to carry on her own.

She wrote her love story out when she was only fifteen.
Waiting for the guy she wrote about years ago,
She never found Anyone close until she met you.
You gave her all she ever dreamed about just to take it all back.
She used to smile at your text and she cries in pain reading it back.
She wished for the day you would say I love you.
Those words never came.
She wrote her love story,
Only to meet you the one who made her stop believing in happily ever after.

My hand is shaking,
The wind was yelling out your name.
Is this the sign of bowing down before it's too late?
I'm scared for the battle that may follow.
I found a broken bottle and saw myself holding the white flag.

Did I ask him for too much?
Was loving me just that hard?
I ask myself wondering why he didn't give me a text every day.
Wondering if he ever cared about me because why wouldn't he let me go In the end.
I gave him everything I had because I thought he was worth it.
I still have all the memories but now the stories are changing.
Now I look back and notice all the things he never did for me.
Did I ask for too much or was I not worth it?

The cloudy sky started to crying,
That's when everything around went silent.
I looked for someone, but there was no one near to hear my screams.
The sky started to get darker than it ever had before.
I tried running,
I wasn't fast enough.
The clouds changed to bright red. I knew this meant game over.
Then out of nowhere, everything went back to normal.
My mind was seeing the future all over again.

Stop this, please!
I can't keep falling for you,
You're the poison apple that tastes too good to be bad for me.
please leave me like the rest,
I'm not used to people staying this long

I wish I could hold my breath long enough not to feel anything.
Just enough to be able to breathe at the end of the day.
At the moments when my mind can finally slow down.
I wonder if this is how normal people feel.
The type of people who don't have to fight themselves to stay here.
The type of people who cry when they are sad and laugh at the funny.
The people that make the coldest hearts warm at the end of the night.
I wonder If one day I will be that type of person or if this is the best it will never be.

I watch you love her from the sidelines.
Waiting for my chance to come over and stop it all.
Nothing ever comes out of my mouth in time.
She leans over to kiss him while I'm trying not to cry.
She doesn't know how much I'm dying standing here.
I pick up a piece of paper hoping this will be my last time begging for someone
To notice me.
The visions in my head get stronger and my heart gets smaller.
The fear grows while the strength not to listen becomes more hopeless.

Maybe In another world, she would be in my arms.
Her head would be on my chest while We talk about our future together.
In another world, she'd live in the same city as me.
I may love others but she will Be my first real love.
The one I will tell stories about to my friends.
I watch her get hurt by other guys while I am still across the world watching through a screen.
Maybe in another world, she would be my person.
She is my protonic soulmate in my eyes

I miss you.
I want to turn turn backwards to say hi one more time.
Why did you leave me after months of saying you would stay.
Was everything else lies or do you really mean what you said?
If that's true then do I feel like I part of my heart is gone after all of this.
I wish you said goodbye.

I hold him tight, knowing I'm safe.
He won't let me go,
Instead of hugging me back tighter.
I look up to his smile brighter than the stars at night.
I wondered if I could pause this moment to make it last longer.
If only he knew how much every little moment means to me.
I would give up anything to relive all the memories for the first time again.

Love me,
Hi, it's me again just checking in.
Wondering if you ever think of me or wish it ended differently.
Maybe it was never love but a fantasy that played in my head.
Did you ever think that we would end up together?
I thought the person in my mind was the one for me.
Missing all the red flags to stay with you.
When you made me feel unwanted I told myself you were just busy.
Oh, how wrong I was in the end.

I’m sorry for all the lies
The mean words that hurt.
The long nights of screaming
I didn’t mean any of it.
I love her.
My heart stops when I hear her voice.
How to prove to the world that I’m enough?
I won’t stop loving her.
I will sell my soul for this,
Never stop looking if she moves.
I find my other half
She would be here with me
If it wasn’t for you.

Listen
Please
I promise to be fast.
Your life is in danger, so follow me.
The love of your life is the monster.
He hides behind a wall of sadness
So far, he won’t be seen.
Text, go ahead!
He won’t respond
You think he is busy, haha.
If he loved you, he would respond.
He is locked away in his mind.
But you still want to go back.
Ok
I tried to warn you.

Somedays, I dream of never leaving; until I open my eyes, I see how real the day becomes.
I beg for nighttime to come sooner to take me away from this place.

Hi! Isn't today a great day!
Hi.. please dont see behind my fake smile.
I have these ideas that I can't wait to do.
Don’t give in, try to hold a little longer.
I’m going to take over the world soon, I just know it.
Well I see next week?
No need for sleep,there is so much to do.
I slept 15 hours and I just want to go back to bed.
Will this last forever?
Will this last forever?

I fall in love a little too fast.
My heart gets broken a little too much.
I will not regret those memories.
I fall too hard,
And smile too big about it.

I really can't sit still,
Falling over the simplest hellos.
Wondering if the phone will ever ring.
I need a new start,
A way out of this mess that I started.
Hoping I will wake up and see what's really in front of me.
This isn't who we are meant to be with.
It's a stranger disguising as our lover.
I really can't understand why I fall over the simplest hellos.

Sorry
A word that I use to shield myself from the pain that comes before it.
The thing that shuts down talks before it starts,
Makes tears turn into forgotten messes.
Makes those who love us turn into the deepest monsters.
Thinking when we say the word all is good again.
Not knowing, I hold on to the broken promises that never came.
Faking a smile that wants to fade but knowing they will get mad.
That this will be my fault if I say anything else but what their ears want to hear.
Twenty-one to the eye,
Inside the scared little five-year-old who knew too much for his age.
Sorry for….
Sorry, I didn't mean….
Sorry for it all…

He hated living,
Making everyone suffer in his Presents.
She couldn't have more joy to give,
Barely needing sleep to survive.
He planned to leave this earth every other month.
She only wanted adventures,
Willing to risk anything for fun.
He hardly could leave his house,
Hoping this day, he wouldn't have to fight to stay alive.
He wanted to be her; she feared everything about him.

Did I go too far this time?
Maybe I loved her, and that was the issue.
They never tell you about loving someone that doesn't even notice that you are right in front of them.
I did everything for her to notice me.
I was the person she always wanted, and that's when I went too far.
I should have never tried to get her attention.
Now I'm back at the starting line.
No one noticed that I left; none ever cared that I disappeared.
Did I go too far this time?
That depends on what side of the story you read.

Break me,
I don't care anymore.
I am ready for my faith, after all.
Are you?

I don't want to fall again,
I'm not afraid of falling in love.
I'm scared to lose someone close.
All the memories will slowly disappear,
When I fall, will you promise to let me down easy?
I want to remember the good.

I'm bipolar.
I can't sit still when I'm at my highs or focus on the little things.
I want to do it all and spend the money that I don't have.
I can be your best friend or your worst Enemy.
I go from extreme lows to never feel better in months.
From fighting to stay alive to feeling as if I could never die.

Tell me the truth
Do you find me cute?
I find the way you write beautifully.
Your poems are like magic to my eyes.
This all started with a simple hey.

He makes me believe in fairytales all over,
The sound of his voice reminds me of the calmness of rain falling.
I wish I could see myself the way he sees me.
He makes me believe in never-ending happiness; I used to think that wasn't possible.
I thought I wasn't worthy of all of this and should get prepared to get played until he taught me otherwise.
He makes talking about the future sound like forever.

Why does this always happen at the worst times?
Can I ever get a break or is my mind too damaged from the past?
I’m happy for thought until I heard your name again.
When my mind went blank and all that was left was my memories of him.
Tears dripped down my face as an exit for the sadness that he caused.
I think he will be forever.
One day he will be so small that it won't affect me.
Until then I sit on my floor waiting for it to pass.

Please don't break my heart,
I know fairy tales don't exist for people like me.
The love will fade. It always does,
Not for me, though. I will be stuck on him for as long as my heart lets me.
I love him,
Though Young love rarely makes it to the finish ends.
If the day ever comes when he's not in my life, I know it will be for good reasons.
Please don't leave my side until there is no other choice.

Her love didn’t fade, but she was afraid he would leave without a word.
So she took a chance and did it first.
Only to regret it after the fire had already started.
He never thought of leaving, but her inner voice never listened.
Her love didn’t fade, but the thoughts of him doing it first got too loud to handle.
She never learned how to say any of it out loud,
In the end, she falls too fast and leaves too soon.

Trust me,
The only words he said.
I node not sure how to respond.
All my words slowly disappeared without a trace.

Her body was used as charity.
They used her heart up until there was no more love to have.
The arms were used to as an extra hand to do the work no else dared to do.
Her mouth was only there to agree with those who hated hearing no.
They used the feet to walk all the miles everyone dreaded to even think about.
Her body was used as a overwork Machine that no dared to stop after it was finished with the Days work.
No one even thanked her all they did was tell what was next.

I'm sick of being second
Don’t call me to say that you miss me.
I spent all night crying over him.
I have no more tears to give, And my mind is racing of him.
Please tell me I’m still your number one.
I can’t stand to be your second, knowing he loves another girl.
That used to be, but now I watch him fall in love with his best friend.
When does the pain go away?

What happens to forever?
I always saw you in my future, but that's what I get for dreaming too big.
I thought we would end up together in the end.
Now I'm watching on the sideline as you live out the moments without me next to you.
I know I'm the one that called us off,
Thinking you would fight for us.
If you showed me anything, I would have stayed.
My love didn't run out,
Only the patience I had begging for attention.
I would have stayed in your arms if you had given me something.
I would drop everything to be back with you.
That shows all I wanted was the bare minimum.
You couldn't even give me that.

My weakness is myself,
Afraid to disappoint the voice that begs for more.
The thoughts used to never end,
Only way to shut them up was to listen.
My weakness was myself,
I knew how to cause pain better than anyone.

I wish he knew how much my heartbeat,
Even if my part of me fears the worst.
Deep down, I’m scared that one day I will wake up, and he’ll be far gone, that I will be left as a fading memory.
One day all the love you could turn into nothing more than words.

Hello, can you hear me?
Why is the screen always turning on and off?
Why does it disappear without notice,
She is trying to stay above the water but it's getting higher.
Nothing can help her besides playing along.
Hello, can you finally see me?
She is trying hard to remember but everything is black.
Her hours become seconds and seconds feel like minutes.
Will her mind ever stop playing tricks?

Her smile faded after the last goodbye.
She thought they would be together,
He had other plans.
He was her everything
He only wanted her for a dare.
They laughed together only to end the night in Betrayal.