Her smile faded after the last goodbye.
She thought they would be together,
He had other plans.
He was her everything
He only wanted her for a dare.
They laughed together only to end the night in Betrayal.

Did I go too far this time?
Maybe I loved her, and that was the issue.
They never tell you about loving someone that doesn't even notice that you are right in front of them.
I did everything for her to notice me.
I was the person she always wanted, and that's when I went too far.
I should have never tried to get her attention.
Now I'm back at the starting line.
No one noticed that I left; none ever cared that I disappeared.
Did I go too far this time?
That depends on what side of the story you read.

I think I'm falling,
Today we both got teary for each other.
All the happy memories are getting too real,
I couldn't hold it in anymore.
I think I'm falling for him,
His looks say the same.
I hope I never wake up if I'm dreaming.

The group of twelve trying to fiqure out how to live life again.
Parties ever night but not knowing when to stop.
Laughing and giggling over the boys that will live next store.
Stories are being written that last will forever.
Each night is feeling like a second but days are lasting forever.
The group that will going down together or making emeies at the end.

My weakness is myself,
Afraid to disappoint the voice that begs for more.
The thoughts used to never end,
Only way to shut them up was to listen.
My weakness was myself,
I knew how to cause pain better than anyone.

I held my breath in my own house,
Hoping not to be heard.
I closed my eyes to escape to another land far away.
I held back my voice,
afraid to say the wrong words.
I turn the music up to block the yelling coming through the walls.
Some things never change.

He fell out of love faster then he in fell in love with me/
I thought it was supposed to be the opposite, but I guess not.
My heart was still healing, but he moved on.
I watch this movie waiting for a better ending to find something.
I’m the sad lover waiting for a fairy tale that will ever come true.

Her body was used as charity.
They used her heart up until there was no more love to have.
The arms were used to as an extra hand to do the work no else dared to do.
Her mouth was only there to agree with those who hated hearing no.
They used the feet to walk all the miles everyone dreaded to even think about.
Her body was used as a overwork Machine that no dared to stop after it was finished with the Days work.
No one even thanked her all they did was tell what was next.

Her love didn’t fade, but she was afraid he would leave without a word.
So she took a chance and did it first.
Only to regret it after the fire had already started.
He never thought of leaving, but her inner voice never listened.
Her love didn’t fade, but the thoughts of him doing it first got too loud to handle.
She never learned how to say any of it out loud,
In the end, she falls too fast and leaves too soon.

I never understood how messed up he was,
Looking normal to the outside eye.
The house kept in the fights that lasted hours.
He got his hands on her mind.
She lost all her control,
Believing his twisted words.
Now all the blame is put on the innocent.

I'm bipolar.
I can't sit still when I'm at my highs or focus on the little things.
I want to do it all and spend the money that I don't have.
I can be your best friend or your worst Enemy.
I go from extreme lows to never feel better in months.
From fighting to stay alive to feeling as if I could never die.

Death used to scare me,
When I was younger I would cry about it.
Now I become friends with death almost meeting it three times.
Only caring what my friends and family would say if I went away.
If I picked death over living.
I wish I could do it for me but one day i won't care enough to stay.
I know death is cheering me on waiting for me to visit.
Waiting for me to stay forever.
Death used to scare me,
When I was eight I cried my self to sleep.
Now I play too close to my new friend.

Let me go.
It's time for me to leave.
Please don't look back on us.
It wasn't meant to be after all the "I love you" and " we will be together forever"
Let me go.
Don't waste tears on me, I'm not worth it.
Try to remember the memories that I didn't ruin.
Let me go.
Leave flowers when you pass by.
Don't hold on to the pass for too long.
It's not worth the space in your memories
Let me go,
I promise it's time.

I can't believe I let this happen again.
She wasn't there for me for a while but I picked up the phone the second she called.
I listen to all her issues trying to make her feel better.
I wonder why I am doing this as if she would do the same for me but I'm not sure anymore.
I can't believe I fell for her looks.
The pretty girl who everyone likes came over to me and everything started to spiral.
I did everything for her and I mean everything.
After it was all done then she dropped me as if I was nothing.
But once I was her everything and I wondered how that all changed so fast.
So of course when she called I had to pick up.
I had to be there for her.

How
I can’t be mad at her
She did nothing wrong.
I was stopping her from getting
Better.
My heart was on the line
I thought she could be the one.
Instead I’m not hungry and wishing
To disappear.
I wish she wanted me.
I wish she fought for me.
I wish I was enough because I feel like it’s all my fault.
I’m crying over her,
she doesn’t even miss me.

I wish he stayed longer,
Instead, his mind ran faster than lighting.
He was afraid to show weakness to someone who cared.
Scared I would break him,
He ran away and never looked back.

He used his words as chains to hold her tight,
She believed everything, even when the truth showed itself.
Her love kept her in place after everything else disappeared.

Sweet but mouthy
Loving but destructive.
Every girl dreams bad boy.
The only rules he breaks is with your heart.
He knows how to cook, but how long are you staying?
He says he likes you only to hook up with another girl.
This is what I get for choosing a bad boy

Did someone make him this way?
He used to talk about everything,
Now there is only quite.
He could fill a room with joy,
There is only darkness left.
He had confidence,
Now there is a boy standing away from the crowed.
Can I please help you?
I tell him,
His heart will be whole again.
He starts to shine a little more knowing one person listen to his cries.

What happens to forever?
I always saw you in my future, but that's what I get for dreaming too big.
I thought we would end up together in the end.
Now I'm watching on the sideline as you live out the moments without me next to you.
I know I'm the one that called us off,
Thinking you would fight for us.
If you showed me anything, I would have stayed.
My love didn't run out,
Only the patience I had begging for attention.
I would have stayed in your arms if you had given me something.
I would drop everything to be back with you.
That shows all I wanted was the bare minimum.
You couldn't even give me that.

I wish he knew how much my heartbeat,
Even if my part of me fears the worst.
Deep down, I’m scared that one day I will wake up, and he’ll be far gone, that I will be left as a fading memory.
One day all the love you could turn into nothing more than words.

Writing helps let out the words buried inside.
My voice may disappear, but my poems never run out.

Hello, can you hear me?
Why is the screen always turning on and off?
Why does it disappear without notice,
She is trying to stay above the water but it's getting higher.
Nothing can help her besides playing along.
Hello, can you finally see me?
She is trying hard to remember but everything is black.
Her hours become seconds and seconds feel like minutes.
Will her mind ever stop playing tricks?

I don't want to hide this feeling anymore.
Wishing to pause time to stay in this spot forever, Until I decided I was ready to make a new moment together.
I want to scream this out loud, let the world know I'm badly in love.
Or maybe I love the feeling of being loved.

Hiiiiii💜💜💜💜
(Read one hour ago)
How are you doing I miss you!!
(Read two hours ago)
I love you!!!!! I hope you having fun at work💚
(Read a day ago)
Hi
(Read 40 minutes ago)
Ok im over it
(Sent)
I have been here waiting for you.
I gave you more than I was prepared for but I never complained.
I waited and waited for you to treat me the same.
You never tried to make it work.
When I sent the last text I didn't hear for you for dayssss.
I know you saw my text because it told me you did.
Why don't you care for me?
Why don't you try and save this because I'm done.
I can't put all this effort in and get nothing back.
I'm dying over here trying to make this work.
I don't even now what this is anymore.
I'm not going to give you the easy way out,
But im done trying to make this work.
Text me when you are ready to fight for me.
Im worth a **** good fight.
(Read 10:00pm)

Ever since I was a child, snow has always brought a smile to my face.
Now when he's with me, it all feels the same.
It doesn't matter what is going on; I know he cares about me too.
I would give up winter to spend the rest of my days in his arms.
Snow always gave me the missing piece,
With him near, my heart is complete.

Please be careful.
I'm similar to legos.
Takes days to put together,
Only seconds break.
If I break, odds are you won't stay to help build me up again.
So instead, you will leave my broken body lying on the floor, saying I'm not worth your time.
I'm similar to a lego set; you want me until they see how long it will be until I'm fixed.

My life feels like a game,
Right now, I'm losing.
Wondering how many more tries I have.
Will this be my legacy?
The words all spilling out,
With no eyes to see it.
My life feels like a losing game
No matter how hard I try,
I can't leave this behind.
How do I get out of this alive?

All I want is answers,
Answers to why you left me alone.
Not even a text letting me know why it happen.
I may of sent the text but your the one that ended this a long time ago.

Why can’t happiness last?
The smile is starting to fade,
Days are feelings like years.
I can’t even think of her anymore
Without crying for months.
My heart has been on the line
I think it's time finally to give up.
She doesn’t even notice how much I love her.
I was with her after each breakup,
Hoping one day her pain would go away.
Will she ever let me go or hold on until she is ready?

Trauma is funny like that…
The best jokes come from it,
Hiding the pain that lives underneath the laughs.
Trying hard to remember the lost childhood,
Wondering why it's so blurry.
Trauma is funny like that...
It's a wild card that will come out at any time.
Giving us endless stories to tell,
Hoping not to scare anyone off all the damage.

I didn't think it would be so easy to release you from my memories.
All it took was deleting a photo and everything else disappeared.

We went from love to loved.
Texts to history books,
Everyone will know our story.
Even if it's through tears or yelling.
I wish share the good to those who will listen.
It was young love,
But a life time of stories.
No good book is happy all through way.
I hope your happy.

a girl stayed home waiting for a person that didn't show.
He went out and forgot she even existed.
She was known as the girl who Wasted another night, while he had unforgettable moments.

He made me love him from the start.
It was a mistake I thought I would only say hi Instead he took over my life.
No matter how hard I tried to quit I would always be back in his arms.
I stayed away for over a year but I couldn't resist.
I gave him my heart and he uses it as a weapon.

The day he almost died.
The pill bottles look too pleasing to be alone.
He decide to hold them one more time.
Wondering if it’s worth lasting until tomorrow.
He put them down as the pills screamed to be picked up again.
Next year it happened again.
This time the voices came from a dangerous blade.
He was so close but too afraid of leaving everyone alone.
So he stayed another night.

Sit still,
Listen closely.
Try hard not to be heard or seen.
Instead, wait for the appropriate time to explain how your body isn't your body.
Left your right arm and watch it drop.
Move it fast in front of your eyes to double-check that you are, in fact, not ok.
Sit back down and hope it passes faster this time.
When it's over,
Know it's never really ever going to be over.

She only wished to be cared for by one person,
He saw her only for her body.
She hoped for a loving relationship,
His goal was to play her until he got sick of the game.
She learned not to trust again,
While he moved on without a scratch.

The words replay in my head.
Making me sick every time I hear your voice.
I wasted my time on her while she just pushed me down.
She laughed when I cried, thinking I wouldn’t find anyone better.
When I got stronger, she blamed it all on me.
I thought she was right for too long.

I used to be afraid of the unknown,
Never knowing who will leave at the first sign of darkness.
Scared, the man I set my heart on would slowly have enough.
I used to be afraid of hurting those close to me,
Now I let them in at the times when it's the most important.
I'm not afraid of the future,
only shutting those who I love.

I loved him I really did,
I thought what he showed me was everything I ever needed.
Until I opened my eyes and was back in reality,
Begging for a text back, but it never came.
I made excuses for him thinking it would change when summer hit.
I loved him I really did,
Hoping one day, he would turn into my perfect man.
I wished I never went back to reality because now I’m heartbroken.
Now I want to start all over with someone new.
I loved him until I saw how much I really meant to him.
How could he love me when he acted this way?

Stop it!!
I hear him.
Hear who?
The voice in my head telling me to go.
He said, trust me, follow me to the bath.
I go and only see my reflection
It's staring back at me with a grin.
I scream it's not time yet
He doesn’t care.
I scream louder to get away,
I see everyone staring at me but why?
Did no one else see this?
I found out it was in my mind.

I remember the first time she smiled my way.
It was the last time I felt Star stuck.
My mind was racing as fast as my heart,
Didn't know if I was going to be ok.
Thought It was all dream until it happen again.
She came up to me and asked if was ok.
I said I can't talk when she is near,
Too afraid to embarrass my self.
All she did was laugh,
Told me she was scared I didn't feel the same about her.

The night was cold,
Everything was different.
Her heart turned black
Nothing could help her.
She kept a smile, masking the sadness from the world.

Nothing.
Thats what I thought I had before.
Sadly I had pain and sadness instead. I used to wish for the feeling of nothing to get a break from the screaming in my head.
The screaming of seeing pictures of horror and finally the sense of freedom when it would stop.
The screaming only got stronger when it knew it could control me.
I would fight hard, but nothing could have saved me from the darkness.
Finally, a fairy came to me said, close your eyes and count to three.
I opened it and finally, I was back in bed where this all became.
I learned not to go into battle alone.
I still get the nightmares of that day.

I have a love-hate relationship with him.
It's getting really controlling fast.
If I start to smile,
He must steal the happiness away.
When I'm feeling set, he reminds me of my past.
Knowing all my confidence will disappear,
Then I would give him my attention again.
I tried to leave him a few times, but I always found my way back.

I was afraid to be myself Until I met her.
I never feel judged.
My face blushes,
When I see her name on my screen.
Staying up late just to send one more text.
In the end, its worth losing sleep

Two star cross lovers meet at the wrong time.
The world split them up but their love last for ages.
They meet new people but dream of the memories that stayed.
Until one day they meet again and realize that too much time has past.
It took them half there lives but finally found their happy endings even if it wasn't with each other.

I miss him, I miss him with every part of my body.
The days won’t stop, but my heart does.
I never knew what a broken heart was until one summer day.
The colors stop shining and the sun went away.
All that was left was screaming all around me.
I realized It was all in my head.
I wish I never let him in.
I wish he didn't get a chance to love me.
Now I'm left alone.

I need your smile that makes people brighter.
I need to hear your voice at least ten more times.
I need you at my wedding to tell the most random jokes.
I want you to be there for me when I get my next hear break. Or when I meet my forever person.
I need you to look at me one more time and tell me how you are feeling.
I need you not to go.
It’d too soon, and there is doing much more for you.
I need you to tell me that your life matters because it does.
So please don’t go.