Writing helps let out the words buried inside.
My voice may disappear, but my poems never run out.

Her smile faded after the last goodbye.
She thought they would be together,
He had other plans.
He was her everything
He only wanted her for a dare.
They laughed together only to end the night in Betrayal.

He fell out of love faster then he in fell in love with me/
I thought it was supposed to be the opposite, but I guess not.
My heart was still healing, but he moved on.
I watch this movie waiting for a better ending to find something.
I’m the sad lover waiting for a fairy tale that will ever come true.

I loved him I really did,
I thought what he showed me was everything I ever needed.
Until I opened my eyes and was back in reality,
Begging for a text back, but it never came.
I made excuses for him thinking it would change when summer hit.
I loved him I really did,
Hoping one day, he would turn into my perfect man.
I wished I never went back to reality because now I’m heartbroken.
Now I want to start all over with someone new.
I loved him until I saw how much I really meant to him.
How could he love me when he acted this way?

Hiiiiii💜💜💜💜
(Read one hour ago)
How are you doing I miss you!!
(Read two hours ago)
I love you!!!!! I hope you having fun at work💚
(Read a day ago)
Hi
(Read 40 minutes ago)
Ok im over it
(Sent)
I have been here waiting for you.
I gave you more than I was prepared for but I never complained.
I waited and waited for you to treat me the same.
You never tried to make it work.
When I sent the last text I didn't hear for you for dayssss.
I know you saw my text because it told me you did.
Why don't you care for me?
Why don't you try and save this because I'm done.
I can't put all this effort in and get nothing back.
I'm dying over here trying to make this work.
I don't even now what this is anymore.
I'm not going to give you the easy way out,
But im done trying to make this work.
Text me when you are ready to fight for me.
Im worth a **** good fight.
(Read 10:00pm)

Give me a chance,
I swear it will be worth it.
My love is as strong as the truth I have in him.
My love will last longer than anything he ever wants.
Give me a chance,
I promise it won't go to waste.
I'll be there whenever I hear your pain over the phone.
No matter the time, I will be over before the call ends.
Give me a chance,
I swear it will be worth it.

Ever since I was a child, snow has always brought a smile to my face.
Now when he's with me, it all feels the same.
It doesn't matter what is going on; I know he cares about me too.
I would give up winter to spend the rest of my days in his arms.
Snow always gave me the missing piece,
With him near, my heart is complete.

I held my breath in my own house,
Hoping not to be heard.
I closed my eyes to escape to another land far away.
I held back my voice,
afraid to say the wrong words.
I turn the music up to block the yelling coming through the walls.
Some things never change.

All I want is answers,
Answers to why you left me alone.
Not even a text letting me know why it happen.
I may of sent the text but your the one that ended this a long time ago.

He made me love him from the start.
It was a mistake I thought I would only say hi Instead he took over my life.
No matter how hard I tried to quit I would always be back in his arms.
I stayed away for over a year but I couldn't resist.
I gave him my heart and he uses it as a weapon.

I didn't think it would be so easy to release you from my memories.
All it took was deleting a photo and everything else disappeared.

I wish he stayed longer,
Instead, his mind ran faster than lighting.
He was afraid to show weakness to someone who cared.
Scared I would break him,
He ran away and never looked back.

Trauma is funny like that…
The best jokes come from it,
Hiding the pain that lives underneath the laughs.
Trying hard to remember the lost childhood,
Wondering why it's so blurry.
Trauma is funny like that...
It's a wild card that will come out at any time.
Giving us endless stories to tell,
Hoping not to scare anyone off all the damage.

The words replay in my head.
Making me sick every time I hear your voice.
I wasted my time on her while she just pushed me down.
She laughed when I cried, thinking I wouldn’t find anyone better.
When I got stronger, she blamed it all on me.
I thought she was right for too long.

When I compare my parents to a cloud this is what I mean.
They can go from beautiful to deadly within minutes.
A warning spreads as soon as there is a chance of it coming.
No one says a word each trying to protect them selfs.
Everyone hopes for the best but fears the worst.
Only one person ever tries to stop them before it gets too late.
I watch the sky for a warning of what will happen next.
Hoping this will be the last of it.

I don't want to hide this feeling anymore.
Wishing to pause time to stay in this spot forever, Until I decided I was ready to make a new moment together.
I want to scream this out loud, let the world know I'm badly in love.
Or maybe I love the feeling of being loved.

Let me go.
It's time for me to leave.
Please don't look back on us.
It wasn't meant to be after all the "I love you" and " we will be together forever"
Let me go.
Don't waste tears on me, I'm not worth it.
Try to remember the memories that I didn't ruin.
Let me go.
Leave flowers when you pass by.
Don't hold on to the pass for too long.
It's not worth the space in your memories
Let me go,
I promise it's time.

Please be careful.
I'm similar to legos.
Takes days to put together,
Only seconds break.
If I break, odds are you won't stay to help build me up again.
So instead, you will leave my broken body lying on the floor, saying I'm not worth your time.
I'm similar to a lego set; you want me until they see how long it will be until I'm fixed.

My life feels like a game,
Right now, I'm losing.
Wondering how many more tries I have.
Will this be my legacy?
The words all spilling out,
With no eyes to see it.
My life feels like a losing game
No matter how hard I try,
I can't leave this behind.
How do I get out of this alive?

The day my light starts to fade.
I look towards the window waiting for the storm to take over my mind.
From the moment of the rain pouring to the last drop, my body is frozen from the darkness.
Never worried about the next moment instead focused on the movie that is playing right in front of my eyes.
The rain saved me once before it will do it again.

I think I'm falling,
Today we both got teary for each other.
All the happy memories are getting too real,
I couldn't hold it in anymore.
I think I'm falling for him,
His looks say the same.
I hope I never wake up if I'm dreaming.

She only wished to be cared for by one person,
He saw her only for her body.
She hoped for a loving relationship,
His goal was to play her until he got sick of the game.
She learned not to trust again,
While he moved on without a scratch.

Sit still,
Listen closely.
Try hard not to be heard or seen.
Instead, wait for the appropriate time to explain how your body isn't your body.
Left your right arm and watch it drop.
Move it fast in front of your eyes to double-check that you are, in fact, not ok.
Sit back down and hope it passes faster this time.
When it's over,
Know it's never really ever going to be over.

If the world was ending would you be here next to me?
Would everything else just disappear and feel normal for another second?

Nothing.
Thats what I thought I had before.
Sadly I had pain and sadness instead. I used to wish for the feeling of nothing to get a break from the screaming in my head.
The screaming of seeing pictures of horror and finally the sense of freedom when it would stop.
The screaming only got stronger when it knew it could control me.
I would fight hard, but nothing could have saved me from the darkness.
Finally, a fairy came to me said, close your eyes and count to three.
I opened it and finally, I was back in bed where this all became.
I learned not to go into battle alone.
I still get the nightmares of that day.

He used her.
He was the pretty boy with brown eyes
Hair was smoother than a new blanket.
She was the shy girl
Hiding behind words on a blank page.
She loved him
He used that to hurt her in every way.

Sweet but mouthy
Loving but destructive.
Every girl dreams bad boy.
The only rules he breaks is with your heart.
He knows how to cook, but how long are you staying?
He says he likes you only to hook up with another girl.
This is what I get for choosing a bad boy

I never understood how messed up he was,
Looking normal to the outside eye.
The house kept in the fights that lasted hours.
He got his hands on her mind.
She lost all her control,
Believing his twisted words.
Now all the blame is put on the innocent.

I miss it all.
The hellos the goodbyes.
I miss
Him saying I will never leave you that turned into please don’t call me again.
I miss hearing his voice.
I wish this was a nightmare that I could wake up from.
I miss him.

Stop it!!
I hear him.
Hear who?
The voice in my head telling me to go.
He said, trust me, follow me to the bath.
I go and only see my reflection
It's staring back at me with a grin.
I scream it's not time yet
He doesn’t care.
I scream louder to get away,
I see everyone staring at me but why?
Did no one else see this?
I found out it was in my mind.

The group of twelve trying to fiqure out how to live life again.
Parties ever night but not knowing when to stop.
Laughing and giggling over the boys that will live next store.
Stories are being written that last will forever.
Each night is feeling like a second but days are lasting forever.
The group that will going down together or making emeies at the end.

I love you.
I often said the words, but I still got the same nervousness as the first time.
Wondering if one day the word will mean something, Different then, I see your life mixed in with mine.
If this were a book, I would read it every night until all the words were memorized front to back.
I hope this is my last beginning to a forever person.
I love you until I find a word only meant for us.

a girl stayed home waiting for a person that didn't show.
He went out and forgot she even existed.
She was known as the girl who Wasted another night, while he had unforgettable moments.

Her voice sounds like I'm finally home.
The way I feel myself is a gift I don't want to lose.
I'm falling for a girl that doesn't know my whole story.
I wish I could give her all my dreams.
The way I don't want to lose you is hurting my soul.
I wish I didn't want you like this.

I used to be afraid of the unknown,
Never knowing who will leave at the first sign of darkness.
Scared, the man I set my heart on would slowly have enough.
I used to be afraid of hurting those close to me,
Now I let them in at the times when it's the most important.
I'm not afraid of the future,
only shutting those who I love.

Two star cross lovers meet at the wrong time.
The world split them up but their love last for ages.
They meet new people but dream of the memories that stayed.
Until one day they meet again and realize that too much time has past.
It took them half there lives but finally found their happy endings even if it wasn't with each other.

I missed you.
Then all the memories came rushing through my head.
I realized I only missed the thought of you.
When you came back all the hate I forgot about was there again.
I missed you.
Then I remember how much pain you leave behind.
I realized I only wanted what I didn't have.

I loved a boy,
I thought he loved me too.
He was the man of my dreams until I woke up to see it was someone else.
I loved a boy,
He never truly felt the same.
I thought maybe it was all in my head until I opened my eyes.
He was in love with a girl,
That is a thing I will never be.

We went from love to loved.
Texts to history books,
Everyone will know our story.
Even if it's through tears or yelling.
I wish share the good to those who will listen.
It was young love,
But a life time of stories.
No good book is happy all through way.
I hope your happy.

I'm falling more each day, wishing I would stop.
I know love comes with battles,
That leaves scars Instead of kisses.
I grow up dreading love knowing how it can break someone.
I never want to heart fall in love because that turns into hate.
Should I put back up my walls before it's too late?

I know what she said.
I could see it in her eyes, and I know she meant it.
Trust me.
I won't hurt you.
I will never leave.
I've been through it all before.
I lost my love to a dark battle,
I never them the same Again.
I saw the blood in there eyes,
When they looked at me.
The thought of Betrayal hits me every day.
I wonder would it be better if I never came back?

I give up.
I'm done trying to make you happy.
I hope you know.
I don't understand why I want your approval.
For once, I want you to call me your son.
Why do I waste my tears on you?
I thought maybe you would reach out.
If you asked me why I'm doing this, I would tell my story.
I would say I don't like my chest,
that I hated looking in the mirror.
The goal was not to destroy the little relationship I still had with you.

If only he understood how hard it is not to Relapse,
To Ignore the buzzing in my head that screams at night.
If only he could see the fear behind the smiles,
the Numbness after all Images go through my mind.
One day it won't affect me,
But today, I hope for a second chance.

I never thought someone had this in them to tear one's heart this badly.
My body is still healing after years of broken promises and empty emotions.
He treated me like I was special,
Only to be thrown out moments later.
I never thought I would regret loving someone until I met them.
Thoughts run through my head until I get high enough for them to disappear.
The dreams I had turned into dust when his hand touched my lonely heart.

Please stay a little longer,
my heart isn't ready to fall apart.
Deep down you know we're meant to be, this can't be all in my head.
Give me one more chance, is what I want to say.
But you taught me not to fight for someone whose heart is already out the door.
Please stay a little longer, Before leaving my life without looking back.

How
I can’t be mad at her
She did nothing wrong.
I was stopping her from getting
Better.
My heart was on the line
I thought she could be the one.
Instead I’m not hungry and wishing
To disappear.
I wish she wanted me.
I wish she fought for me.
I wish I was enough because I feel like it’s all my fault.
I’m crying over her,
she doesn’t even miss me.

Did someone make him this way?
He used to talk about everything,
Now there is only quite.
He could fill a room with joy,
There is only darkness left.
He had confidence,
Now there is a boy standing away from the crowed.
Can I please help you?
I tell him,
His heart will be whole again.
He starts to shine a little more knowing one person listen to his cries.

He's scared of letting go,
She helped him believe again.
She didn't have a family,
He became her missing piece.

I thought I was finally happy until I opened my eyes and realized I was only In a daydream.

Why can’t happiness last?
The smile is starting to fade,
Days are feelings like years.
I can’t even think of her anymore
Without crying for months.
My heart has been on the line
I think it's time finally to give up.
She doesn’t even notice how much I love her.
I was with her after each breakup,
Hoping one day her pain would go away.
Will she ever let me go or hold on until she is ready?