I didn’t know what I was thinking
Everyone around me was drinking
And I didn’t realize I was sinking

I love her and I don’t know why
She cast a spell and caught my eye
Take my energy bleed me dry
I don’t want to hear her say goodbye
She loves me then flies off in the night
I lose sight of her in the pale moonlight

She moved slowly in observance
Her silent stares made me nervous
When will she pounce?
She wants to be chased
I got lost in the race
When I broke her heart,
I couldn’t look her in the face

She thought she was an angel
‘Til she realized she couldn’t save me
She thought she was poison ivy
When she realized she could break me

I see darkness when I meditate
To hide this deep pain, I medicate
To meet my death, I won’t hesitate
From this scarred body, I separate

I don’t vibe with society
They’ve only ever lied to me
To be alone, I’d die to be
Make me **** my sobriety

My intuition is metallic
My amnesia is epiphanic
My existence is enigmatic
My ideas are problematic

The shadows are my protector
I’m in lust with a bad spectre
My ancestors they select her
Masculine hero on a ******

Visions of her face are torturous
She controls my thoughts like a sorceress
Her heart’s the furthest thing from virtuous
She takes, she takes, she takes control
Find love before you’re ruined by heartbreak
She’s a pro at avoiding heartache
Snatched my heart and ran away
I pray that she’ll return someday
I’m not ok but it’s ok

Lilith cast a spell on me
I can’t control what I think
I still see her in my dreams
Someone take this gun from me

Her love spell made me insane
Amateur witch ruined my brain
I take drugs to numb the pain
My soul is forever changed

All of these girls are shallow like puddles
Her mind stays on material, she’s trouble
Her mind state is fragile, I watch it crumble
I used to be a man, now I’m something more
She used to be an angel, now she’s a ****** *****

I can’t escape them
Parasites drain me
broken people seek me
And I am left with nothing
Negative thoughts control me
They are not my own
This world is diseased

Everybody is the same
They just watch me writhe in pain

It hurts me whenever I lose a lyric
Sometimes life distracts my spirit
These words are much more to me than lyrics
They are answers given to me in sanctity by spirits

I know our feelings are dead but they still visit me at night
I stay up high in my bed your ghost stays with me in my sight
I thought when you went away that I would be alright
But that wasn’t true my feelings are blue and our love ain’t right

My ancestors claw at my ankles from their graves
Who knew I’d want to die at this early age
22 cycles around the sun 22 in my grave
Got a 22 against my skull I think the caliber needs to be raised

Raise me from the dead girl
Our love is unnatural
Give me your wings girl
Keep my horns as collateral

My ancestors chose you
I had no say
Do what your supposed to
don’t run away

I know our feelings are dead but they still visit me at night
I stay up high in my bed your ghost stays with me in my sight
I thought when you went away that I would be alright
But that wasn’t true my feelings are blue and our love ain’t right

She’s looking at me yearning
Yearning to take my time
I can’t stop hurting
Pain pours from my eyes

I’m weak for her, I’m on my knees
I’m Lucifer, she’s an angel, see?
My skin is hazel, green
I’m dead, I can’t be seen
Her love’s a drug to me
I’m a ******, I’m unclean

She pushes me away
And we both weep
Pretend that we’re okay
What I sow, I reap
For her I’ll always wait

Selling the rose she keeps
For a price far too cheap
I need her to know
I would spend my life
The truth’s in my eyes
I don’t need sweet lies
From the past I cut ties
See my heart, no disguise

Does art imitate life?
Or does life imitate art?
Can she see through the strife?
Can she heal my broken heart?

Apathy is death
Eyes ****** red
Liquor on my breath
Sick in my bed
And I cannot forget
The words that she said

Girl, you scared me to death
I look down and see red
I have blood on my hands

These visions they plague me
I know your feelings, you’re faking
I can feel your heartache from a thousand miles away

My visions they hurt me
The spirits they’re lurking
‘Round every dark corner, I’m learning
From all my mistakes, All my heartbreaks

Why did god put me on this journey?
To have loved and have lost
My peace of mind was the cost
Now I’m nailed to the cross

In silence I can hear god screaming in my ear
I’m still waiting here, I made my intentions clear
My feelings she won’t hear, I think it’s born from fear
Or maybe it’s cuz she’s queer, I stay up all night chugging beer
To fly away from here, I get high nothing to fear
I can’t believe that I’m still here, My red eyes well up with tears

She controls my mind MK-ULTRA
Burning in my own flame like Zarathustra

Her love turns to poison when it’s kept inside
She carries her pain, it’s weighing on my eyes
I think I’ve gone insane and I don’t know why
I lose my brain when I’m between her thighs

Wisdom in her body
My spirit’s like a tree
Growing so high
And feeling so deep

She controls my mind MK-ULTRA
Burning in my own flame like Zarathustra