He touched me
And it felt
As if
The stars were dancing
Across my skin

My heart feels like
it's about to shut down
from all the truths
that only I know

People view me
as kind
selfless
heartfelt
with empathy

Yet once they witness
my darker side
this inner demon
that is always
a few steps behind me

Once they see
the ashes and smeared blood
tainted within my mind and heart

I am once again alone
alone to pick up the pieces 
of a love that never was

Stupid girl and your stupid heart.  Blinded and willing but still filled with lonely nights and lonely beds.  Eclipsed by what could be, only left to be dreaming of something that will never be. Stupid girl and your foolish heart.