Pure.  
Beautiful.
No, not you!
You are dark.
As pale as a ghost
But necrotic inside.
You are inconsequential.
Devastatingly so. The truth of
that is hard to handle, but
If you can it is power.
The lack of meaning
Can breed heros
Like you?

Learn to make them!
Communication, authenticity
Both required for happiness
For connection
For intimacy
So risky,
To tell the truth
About me

I want to want again.
To want the accessible
To have the want satisfied
But I want you.

Your words stare back at me
A hand that writes no more.
It was only passing through,
I only wish I knew.

I thought there was more time
To do all the things we planned.
Success and happiness all around.
******* for being drowned.

I would have said goodbye
I've loved you all this time.
You were only passing through,
I only wish I knew.

Death won't negotiate.
I'm obviously too late.
I only wish I'd said,
I can't get you out of my head.

I know that there's no heaven
Above or hell below to fear.
The best I can hope for,
Are days when you feel near.

I should have hugged you goodbye
Said I've loved you all this time.
You were only passing through,
I only wish you knew.