I loved you,
Because I thought you understood me
But your eyes, today, tell me
That we were always strangers
I loved you,
Because I thought that the extras in you,
Would fill up the deficiencies in me,
But it wouldn't come about,
As you and I were never meant to be
Thinking back upon it, I realize now,
All those times, I thought, somehow,
I thought, but, wrong,
For it was always the other way round.
I thought you understood,
I thought that you would
Complete me in ways known to few,
But now I know, that I thought all that
Because I loved you.
I loved you.
I loved you, but you never did
I loved hard, but from me, love hid
So, now, I walk alone,
Hands in pockets and a heart of stone
Walking an untrodden path,
That was, to a very few, known.

Pain is the only friend
That has walked with me till the end
Even when I lose my way,
Pain finds where I lay
They say pain isn't real
'tis only in the head
Then why do I feel it
Crawling in my chest,
Invading my heart,
Throwing out tears,
Corrupting my thoughts,
And driving me nuts.
But I love my friend dearly.
It stayed by my side, when I was alone
It stayed deep within, hidden,
When I had my mask on
One by one, as my 'friends' trickled away,
Pain held on harder without giving away
It has been the only constant, in my dark turbulent life
It's absence scares me most,
For its the foreboding of hell's imminent arrival

Wild, my dreams soar
Into the lap of nature.
The sky is my father,
His storm guides me.
The earth is my mother,
Within her embrace, from sorrows, I'm free
All my siblings,
Though most of them misguided,
Are still for me to love.
They forget who they belong to
In life and also in death
And my mother, in my dreams, asked me
To bring them all back home

Staring at the stars in silent hope
Pushing away the flowing tears
With an unending lonely patience
Holding back sobs with strained rigid breaths
Wearing the mask of hard set face
Smiling, smiling, smiling....
And my heart,weeping, asks,
For what promise of solace,
Must, I, this pain, embrace?
For what haven of purity,
Must I cross these doors of sanity?

Love escapes my life
Life escapes my grasp
My grip gives away under pain
Pain keeps me awake through the darkest hours
Darkness looms over the lonely heart
The heart cries with broken hopes

And yet, even in the darkest of hours,
When there isn't a shoulder for us to cry on,
When there isn't a pair of arms, for us to rest in,
When no one else cares enough to wipe our tears,
When no one goes through the pain of understanding us,
When the pain becomes physical, in our chests,
And when everything around us,
Reminds us of how lonely we are,
What can any of us do?
What can any of us do,
Other than simply hoping
Hoping that someday.....someday...
Everything will be alright