It's six in the morning
I've woken up

You were in my dreams
I should go back to sleep

Try to chase the dream back
inside my head

I don't want to think of you
subconciously

I don't want to think
You'll be with me

I can't hold onto a dream
forever

The sun is slowly rising
let me sleep

// dream of you
one last time

It's 23:11
I know we all feel lonely
And depressed

I've never asked anyone to hold me
I let the stress drown inside me

It's almost midnight
I know we don't feel right

I write for me

I'll show you
the worst of me

Give me the best of you


It's 23:12

No more wishes
no more empty dreams

There's a hole in my heart
I have to fill

We're all lonely

It's never a loving feeling

when you became it all for me
I never took a glance back
what was I missing

keep your thoughts on me
there isn't anyone else

you've forgotten
everything I made you feel

crying out for help
the sun is half

I love you so much
I can't look at anyone the same

I'm sober
dreaming the pain away

half of the sun is up
the other half is yours

I just want you to ask for me
come back and see me

I love you
I'll never forget

trying to let the feelings fall away

I never looked back
never blinked an eye

now I'm regretting
our last goodbye

I love someone
who doesn't love me the same way

On Purpose

I kissed you without permission—
In hopes that you would kiss me back.
I was open with you—
In hopes that you would be open with me.

I waited in the rain on that cold December night---
In hopes that you would pick me up.
I wrote you 365 letters every day for a year.
In hopes that you would write me back.

I loved you on purpose—
In hopes that you would love me back.
I fought with you on purpose—
Hoping you would fight back.

Three years have passed since our last phone call.
You have probably moved on—
Yet I sit in this empty room,
Wondering why I loved you on purpose.

find me a cave that I can crawl into
so that I may not see the light on your face again.
take me into the dark where dew and dank
cover-all and seep between the rest.

won't you let me dream?
won't you let me sleep?
dear, this here, will not suffice.
show me those blues or I will become that hermit.

bearded and away in the mountains,
unaware of my appearance more than hair and stench.
distant, both in mind and body, purposefully so.
please dear, find me a cave or let me to crawl into you.

I am warmer than the fire I can make
I can feed you more than the meal placed on your plate
you know my heart is heavy with the weight of love for you
so make me that cave I may crawl into