I know that you will break my heart but I'm to naive to leave

I’m a strong person. But do you know what makes me cry over and over again?

It's when I give my best but life always says
'bad luck,try again'!!

Let's just sink into the deep water
With wide arms and fist open
eyes closed and heart with no emotion.

Let's just spill the ink
With no words on it just some tear and drink.

Let's just get stuck in the sand
With no will to live and no need to pretend

I'm kind of stuck
At least... I think I am
Somewhere between telling everyone I know to *******
And "just please come hold me friend"

Some place in between an uneasy heart and hectic mind

"I'm depressed"
Can't I just say it without having to explain why?
Sometimes I don't even know which reason to choose

Short replies

"You seem like you don't want to talk"

You're right, but I also want to reach out
I want out
I want to let go of everything
And capture it all in my arms

like a fire fly in the palm of restless hands,
Just let me hold on to your light
Atleast, just for tonight

Because I'm feeling stuck.

I need to feel
Something
…
Anything

I need
a sign that I am still here
and alive

And that I haven’t entirely
lost
my sense of self

^

That I haven’t been
drained

and left empty
And numb.