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Nura Dec 2017
Tasty sense of celebrations
Mixed with little dose of rush;
Laptop plays the Christmas specials,
Frost replaces me my blush.

Noise around the Christmas tree,
Everyone is sharing gifts:
“Wow! A clock I never needed,
Book that isn’t worth reading,
And baggy jeans that I can drown in.”
But at least I don’t feel guilty,
Cause my gifts are just as ******.
Who cares about them anyway?
If we’re getting closer to swallowing grave.

Music’s loud, fun is endless.
Room is filled with hope and joy -
Joy that never fails to leave
With the first lights of New Year.

I made wishes that won’t happen -
Cliched thoughts I entertain,
Like, “I want money!
I want power!
I want guys to be around me!”
So fed up with feeling foreign,
I will die to feel important.

Be aware, it does not matter
If you put out idle chatter
From the surface of your mind.
Take some notes and please remember -
Just tattoo it on your mind:
You don’t need a cold December
To be better than you are.

Tasty sense of celebrations,
Year is coming to an end.
While the others gorge illusions,
Smile and work, my dear friend.
Nura Dec 2017
Heavy days and sleepless nights -
Vicious circle of my life.
I spend all my time in doubts,
Nothing fills my empty mind.

Haven’t chosen the right ladder,
Don’t know which deceit to preach.
What I have will never matter, What I want is out of reach.
Nura Oct 2020
I put the pills back into the glass bottle
and drank the water from the glass I held in my hand.
Wiped the tears off and loved the sense of cleanliness in my eyes.
I looked at your picture and tried to feel you warmth around me.
I lied down gently, imagining my arms were wrapped around you.
With every breath I accepted the inevitability of life,
And my total unwillingness to disappear.
Can you really disappear?

— The End —