Akshay

Akshay Feb 2020

I'm not an egoist, no
That is not the reason why I don't text you often,
I'm just a soul who has been lost for so long,
and who only needs a tap on his shoulder,
because I'm just too afraid to fall in love,
that I think I'm not capable of handling,
Can you hold me for a little while?
I keep dreaming about you all the time.

I see lines are becoming more and more bleak every time I try to rhyme when I think of her. I need saving.

#lost

Akshay Feb 2020

Fall apart

I would fall apart from saving you from falling apart

Things you would do for them..

#love

Akshay Oct 2019

Why I write

These words are for me,
For I'm the one who's hurting,
I'm just healing myself.

I often wonder why we can't understand other's poems sometimes, but deep down it is the one who writes it knows the value of it.

#words #poems #healing

Akshay Oct 2019

Need to hide it

Something's burning,
A deep desire is lurking,
to be in these thoughts
it's daunting.

mind is a sick place. I need to learn to control it.

#mind #feelings

Akshay Aug 2019

overwhelming

Am I needed here, on this planet?
I question myself this every morning, every night.
I then see my mom and dad, their silly jokes and big smiles,
my sister on a call missing out on all of this fun, saying how badly she wants to join us, and I think to myself,
Why am I sad? Is it because I'm mad, or me just being paranoid on things that are bad,
I feel depressed. Am I depressed?
I don't get it, it's too complicated. It's confusing.
It's noisy, then it's all silent.
Its okay. It is going to be alright.

I'm gonna be worth it.

Akshay May 2018

Everywhere.

I wish I could turn back the time,
When she wasn't in my life,
Take me there right now,
I wanna change how you've been found,
Lately I've been feeling this, changing on my hit list,.
I only know how to somber now,
My life I've been ******* around,
Dealing with the same ****, everyday I take some more hit,
It's hard as ****, too much but I can't quit,
Still I wanna tell you this, you're the only one I miss,
Having you beside me to kiss,
I only pray for this.

I wish there things that would make it easier for me to forget her

#gone #time

Akshay May 2018

They never go away

I'm too hung up on you ,
I don't know what it takes, to make, you feel the same way,
All I wish is you would stay,
Could you wait, baby I want you to wait,
A little longer tonight, it's alright,
The night is just right, for you to just stay
I'll never let you go away, if you wake, right beside my head,
I promise you this, I'll never let you miss what happiness is, I'm just asking you to stay, so lay, right beside my head,
We'll look up in the sky, the night is so bright,
Moonlight makes it so shine,
I wanna see that smile that you hide,
Open up its okay,
It won't hurt to just stay, a little bit longer tonight,
So baby just stay, let your love guide you your way,
And if you're scared, take my hand, I'll show you the way,
If only you could stay, if only you could stay.

Writing can heal your soul? If it's true I wanna be saved.

#stay #miss #love