I feel nothing.

Sometimes I feel a small ache on the side of my chest, sometimes.
Small enough to know I’ll survive,
Painful enough to know you’re still here..

In my heart, where you always have been and where you’re always meant to be.

Mana hum saath nahi,
Toh Kya hua,
Har pal Jo sath rahe vo
Ehsaas ** tum.
Meri Zindagi ki sachayi toh nahi
Har pal Jo Naya sa lage
Vo khwaab ** tum.
Sir jhuka Kar, aankhe moond Kar
Bade shiddad se Jo mangte hai
Vo ardaas ** tum.

The most adorable eyes,
Have shed the most tears,
The most attractive smile,
Hides the deepest pain,
The most pure heart,
Was broken inside,
The most happy man,
Was filled with sorrow,
The one who was kind to everyone,
Was treated in the most cruel way.
             - We miss you sushant.

I don’t have love for my life
even a bit –––
But I’m afraid of suicide.
Oh! DEATH come to me.
Take me to you.
And pull me into the endless dark.
And set me free forever.
From the pain I always suffer.