Without you there's no real love,
Pleasures Good but it kills trust

It's like my joy can't come in cause..
Happiness in this world is for a minute when joy is everlasting will I make it God?!

Oh my life slipping fast into my rust
I got time but there's no time to waste
I'm not blind because your glories face
This deception how come it wants me to take?
When there's inception in this lonely place
Repentance is the great escape.
And conviction ...I just  hold tight....
Cause tonight can be our last night
Lord forgive me...guide me I need your light.

The question as humans we frequently ask,
Is where do our thoughts and memories,
Our energy,
That we've labeled as our soul,
Where do they go when our body is still,
Mute and lifeless?

Very few contemplate with much dedication on the religious viewpoint the question of,
Where did we come from?

Sure.
Someone might say that we evolved from single celled microorganisms.
Another might say that we came from the dust and that our soul is Gods breath thriving inside.

They take one of those answers or neither and go with it.

I see our bodies as a mathematical equation.
God being X
All things living being equal to Y.

The equation doesn't line up with X being the only factor to equal Y,
If so humans would be equal to God,
Which we are not.

The question is, what's the other variable?
The part that somehow takes energy jumping between the organic wiring in our brains,
To make a single human being.

You love me.
You just don't understand me.
After all this time.

You should know my ways.
You should know my moods.
I know mostly of yours.

We quick to tell a friend, what bother you?
When I'm the one you need to talk you.

I just know, you need to understand me.

If knowledge is wisdom.
Then you are missing it.
Because many times, I'm mot aware of it.

Tell me again,
how I'm not good enough.
Tell me again,
how I must strive to be better,
in order to be accepted
not only by the best colleges,
but also by my peers.

No one likes a stupid girl, right?

I'll bring home a B as a final grade,
but you'll stick me in tutoring anyway,
Because of what a test grade has to say.
Is this encouragement?
Or is it simply what you're using,
to mask the disappointment?

Don't think I can't see it.
You're saying with a smile,
that this will be good for me,
but in reality, you think I need it,
just to get by.

Tell me again
to try harder.
Just signal me with your eyes!
I don't need you to voice it.

Tell me again
Tell me, over and over,
and over again.
And with every time you voice your opinion,
I'll scream louder,
I know.

I know I am not good enough.

One day I will lose my voice telling you.

you were the oxygen that ran through my veins
i was the toxic seeping into your lungs
i was consuming the air you breathed
i am poison that infected your life

you were the one who brought out the best in me
while i brought out the worse in you
and knowing that, it sickened you to the core
i am the bad habit you tried to break

you tried to change because you hated who you were
i told you to stay just as you are, you're fine like that
for me, you listened and gave into my words
i am the devil's voice inside your head

you clung onto the rope that leads you into the light
but i cut it off, keeping you here with me in the dark
i didn't want to be alone
i am the demon who led you astray

all you ever wanted in life was to be happy
but i fed on your misery, and that made me happy
at least you were by my side,
i am the thorns that killed the delicate rose

then one day you decided you've had it
you packed your bags and took your leave
i guess i deserved that, to be abandoned
because i brought you pain you'd never fathomed

and i hope these days you've been doing well
i hope you've found your happiness now
because i was the reason for your gloomy days
and i am the one who drove you away