We act like it's our life
Everyday
We become less human everyday

We know what we're taught

We act like it's our life
And empty hands and empty ends
And empty goals
And emptiness

We hear what we're told

We act like it's our love
Everyday
We become less human everyday

We do as we must

We act like it's our life
And empty coffers and empty safes
And empty pockets
And emptiness

We act like it's our truth
Everyday
We become less human everyday

And if you could never die for it
You would never live

Sometimes you have to lose
(And know just what loss feels like)
To learn how to win

Should I fall of the path
Should the darkness gather
And encompass my life
And the demons voice speaks loudest
Should I lose my faith
Should I become something else
With a spirit full of doubt
You will return me to the light

Let an angel guide me
The power of love, a beacon
And a hand to hold when I need someone
Let an angel guide me

Should I forget what's right
A fall into pain
And there's no light in sight
And the demons voice speaks loudest
Should I lose the faith
Lose control
And become something else
You will return me to the light

Let an angel guide me
The power of love, a beacon
And someone to hold when I'm so alone
Let the angel guide me

Should I fall of the path
Should the darkness gather
And encompass my life
And the demons voice
Speaks loudest
Should I lose the faith
Should I become something else
With a spirit full of doubt
You will return me
To the light

Let an angel guide me
The power of love
A beacon
And a hand to hold
When I need someone
Let an angel guide me

Then I let go
Over mountains
And valleys
And rivers
And oceans
I let go
Knowing that the breath I had
Gave birth to roses
Growing from my arms and legs
And the thorns in my soul
Then I let go
Knowing its too much to hold
The weight of gold
In man made poison

So I let go
And I'll feel nothing anymore
Until a new wind blows
And brings me what I need

I guess I have to let it be
Or let it be the end of me

Oh
Right now,
Right now I feel interred,
In the pits of hell,
And the fire
And the tears
And the worry
And the fears

And
Right now,
Right now I feel sorrow,
And I feel such loss,
Of feeling
Of hope
Of love
Of light

But let's remember the sky
I know the sun shines somewhere
And we could watch the clouds float by

But,
Right now,
Right now I'm trapped in a cave,
With no way out.

I still write you
As a part of everything
A thousand characters
With the same heart in my mind
This heart of mine
Beats in time with yours
You'll be my everything
My ceilings and my floors
And my bed
Where I fall asleep to dream
You'll be my love
My understanding of god

Dearest Zelda
I could give my life
And it never could be as much
As you deserve
So I'll give you the next one
I'll give you all the stars I come from

I still dream you
I still am thankful
You found a way to save me
When nothing ever could
The beginning and the end
Of everything
I love you
I am you
And we are the rain
Born from our tears before
We fall together
Holding hands

Sweet Isabella
I keep on throwing parties
That I can't enjoy
Because you're not there
And one day I won't need wine to drink
One day I won't need drugs to get high

I may be great
Gatsby dies for Daisy
My soul can't be complete
If not for you
Its as though our broken pieces
Put together make a perfect whole

I hope you hear the hopes in my words
That they speak to you
I hope you feel the sorrow in my handwriting
That I'm not with you now

I wish music was always playing
Spirits speaking love through mellifluous and dulcet tones
Meaningful tunes
I want for music to play
With the stars and the hearts and the minds of men
A cosmic celebration

Move my obdurate soul
Let the music play forever
Let it be the purest way
The angels can touch me

I wish music was always playing
Soothing, gentle, peaceful, and full of feeling
Making us know we are alive
I want music always playing
If I am headed into battle, if the storm is coming
If I am making love

Reach me unreachable
Let the music play
Let it be the most beautiful way
The angels can touch me

I let go
Without knowing how I can
Without wanting to
Without closure
I let go
Without ever really letting go

Sometimes,
I find,
The only way I can hold on,
Is to let go

If we can acknowledge it for what it is
Sometimes the world is a heavy place
And we can get so serious

You need a little light
A little frivolity, a little fun
You need a way to forget

That in the grand scheme of things
Right now will be forever
And forever does not exist

Only information to Uncode
Binary, secondary, terciary
Matrix theory

The fullness of the emptiness

If we can acknowledge it for what it is
Than what seems way too big for us
Is only just a dream

This **** just shocked me!!!!!
I guess I took too hard a look at life

Life has been cruel to me
A dog who doesn't know
You shove his face into ****

Life has been nothing more
Than a hateful *****
That wants me to feel pain

Life is a test of who I am
The strength within
Test I've failed
And I've been weak

Life has given instability
And I walk on a wire
Keeping my balance

Life has thrown its best at me
And its worst
But I'm still here

Life is just a fantasy
An ephemeral reality
And I will not forget
What I really am

And I will always remember
What I can be
No matter what life does to me
**no matter what

I would take a walk
Through lava flows and rapids raging
Take a look to the sky
And grab the furthest star I see
If the hand offends you
Cut it off
Cut away
I cut out

I am not afraid of death
I'm afraid of life
Like this

And modern battle fields
Next to my head the bullets singing
Concussive blow
My vision weak, my ears ringing
If the belief you hold
You live for it
You die for it
I am reborn

I am not afraid of death
I'm afraid of life
Like this

And I jump off the edge
Into the great unknown
I would close my eyes
And let my spirit lead me on
And I would gladly risk
No thought of a reward
I would close my eyes
And let my spirit guide me home

I want to be a light
That it dissapates
The darkness in my soul
I want nothing more

A sun will rise
A newborns eyes
Seeing the world
In only black and white

I want to be a light
But a light can be too bright
And you go blind
Believing its darkness

A sun will set
We looked to the west
Seeing the world
As only fading colors

I want to be a light
To show rainbows on your soul
You never saw before
And couldn't conceive

The stars at night
They tell every story
That's ever been
That will ever be

I want to be a light
A shimmer in your eyes
A glimmer of hope
A star you can wish on

A star will shine
The brightest in a constellation
A polestar
That you can follow home

I want to be a light
That it dissipates
The darkness in your soul
I want nothing more

If I was a crafty person,
Who is skilled with foreign languages

Then I would be
A cunning linguist

:p

Die
Because the world
Why?
Because the world can't allow it
                           Now

I see color
In the darkest
And I know life and love
I see generations
Heard stories
Felt death

Live
And words
Live
And life
Live
And money
Live
And all conniving interest yell
Live

And fight

Tomorrow
In some forsaken sandlot
In some unforgiving parking lot
In some hell
I'll find heaven
In death

Live

Because tomorrow's brighter sun
Found a cloud
And only one way.around

Live

We would see the only end
As a smiling face
A tidal wave
A new beginning
Seed that holds memory
A melody
A song worth singing
We would revel in it's glory
Embracing chapters
Familiar story
But the stones have grown cold
And a heart beat is just
We would see the only end
As a doorway
A stepping stone
A lesson learned
A childhood haunt
But sad as it seems
We only live once
And night can be much more than dark

Somewhere near the globe
Where the ghost of Elizabethan actors
Still roam the streets

London Bridge Is Falling Down

I think about Buckingham Palace
Where the guards protect the queen
Who cries all the time

London Bridge is falling down

Somewhere close to Big Ben
Where the Westminster Chimes
Still haunt the ears

London Bridge is falling down

The prison cells in the Tower Of London
Where sacred life becomes apparition
And weeps at the thought

London Bridge is falling down

Its not a mirage
Just a memory
Of a face
That I see in the place
It used to be
This is a phantom
A troubled ghost
This house is haunted
The house where we used to live
Where I live alone

It was a long day
In a short life
And I forgot to remember
That I should be glad
At least I remembered to forget
That I should be sad
It was a long day
In a short life

I dig my fingers in the earth
Looking for a gem stone
But it is only soil
And now my hands are *****

And there are holes in the backyard
From all those times
When I was looking
But I didn't know for what

nothing
is
unnecessary

Looks
Like we're going off the edge
And if it matters to you
It matters to me
Doesn't matter at all
Matter at all
Looks like we're hanging on a ledge
And I can't hold on
Even if I'm strong
We're going down
Going down
Looks
Like we're dancing in the fire
No safety nor savior
All eyes appear
To watch it burn
Watch it burn

I've lost my direction
I know my home is somewhere
Something that I made
Is gone
Something that I'll make
If only I had the strength
I'm lost in the wild
And creatures call to the moon
They watch me as I sleep
With glowing eyes

I feel no fear
Because I've lost all hope
And my greatest fear
Was I was hoping
When it was all for nothing

I've lost my direction
Lost all hope
Lost fear of the creatures
Found a star in the sky

Whoever you are
Would you be there?
Where ever it is
Can I find it?

I've lost all direction
I'm just a lonesome trubadour
Wandering aimlessly
Wondering how it could be this way
That somewhere I am not
Is where my happiness stays
I'm lost in the night
And losing faith
That the star I follow
Will shine brighter than that empty moon

I can be your Lotus flower
The most beautiful sight
Despite, or rather in spite of
The murky muck of life
The most beautiful sight
Something which grants you the freedom to believe

Rising from the slime infested pond
The pond that is our world
The world of nightmare time
The time that is our life
The most beautiful sight
Something which is worth the pain of holding onto

I can be your lotus flower
Blooming before you
When the sun starts to rise
A symbol of god and purity
The most beautiful sight
And reaching downwards from the heavens

Sinking down into the mire
When the sun sets on my day
And this night becomes to me
A dark night of a soul
The most beautiful sight
But hidden until I can see your light again

I can be your lotus flower
And whenever the time is right
When your the sun to rise
I'm the flower to bloom for you
The most beautiful sight

Isn't it true
That when love comes from the deepest, truest part of ourselves,
When we embrace it wholeheartedly
We give ourselves to it completely,
It can never be anything other than a blessing?
It is the pearl of great price,
Worth everything we have to give.

Money
Power
Pleasure
Joy
Money, money, money, money
Fame
Success
Beauty
Bliss
Money, money, money, money

Love is the greatest of them all
And I would sacrifice everything
(Money, money, money, money)
For love alone
If that makes me crazy
Then I guess I'm crazy

I afore
So enamor'd of the thought
Did open up my heart
And let misguided light seep in

Mistaken was I
Though as touch'd by dying light
Trying much to hold on
To what was not

Affix'd was I
Hath grown fond of subtle pain
Did steal me of my strenth
And rob me of my hope

I thought I shan't allow such to pass again
No love is worth such sorrow
Alack and erewhile
And sun shines on the 'morrow

I thought I shan't allow such to pass again
Standing in the sun and in the rain
Whither I met you
And knew you as a friend

I wist and I am fain
Twixt the twain
The teen that what hath seen
I lief to love again

I saw your name growing in the trees
Light peaking through the canopy
Roots digging deeply into me
Flowers that were once merely seeds

I feel the grief
Of a falling leaf
A forest floor
and forgotten love

I heard my yearning spoken by ferns
Poetical lines grasping like vines
Enthralling as the pollen
Flowers that were once merely seeds

I see the end
In a broken limb
I feel the grief
Of a falling leaf

Your more beautiful than nature to me
Its only natural
That when this concrete jungle grows around me
I'll miss you

What do I have to say?
That the wind doesn't say as it pushes the waves
I've seen you
As one sees the lights reflect on the water
     And when the waves wash upon the shore
     This is the feeling between us
How can I love?
In any way I can so that you can feel it
I've felt you
Like you wanted me too
     Like the sands on the beach
     That we lay on together

All your love becomes your soul
Your soul becomes your day
Your power in heart
Your power in man
Your power in nature
Your power in peace
The truth must light the way
Your eyes looking for joy
Knowledge is a goddess who won't rest
A beautiful fruit called heaven
A courage to grow
A courage to need
A courage to matter
Your courage to believe
The spirit of a flower lives within
Blooming eternally as it must

Love
Must
When I never want to
But the truth is the reality
So much bigger
A face

Love, must you always be so painful?
Must you always be a test
I'm only going to fail?
A star that was mine
I couldn't hold
So someone else does

Love
Must
Learn to let go
As I've done before
Again and again
A heart

Love must

The more I think about it
The more I realize
I was made in gods image

I gave you all my love
And watch as you forsake me

What a godly thing

The whole world
Loves a lover
A lover loves
When all the love is gone
All I want
Is that my hands
And my words
Can touch you
Like no one else's can

I want to love you
I don't want to be a clone
I'm worried I'm a ghost
That feels alive
A young mans blues
A folk song

The whole world
Loves a lover
A beautiful heart
A martyr
All I want
Is I'm there
In you're dreams
In my dreams
That I see you

And everything I see
Is in love with me

Lying
Is a biological advantage
What else can humans invent
To lead us further from the path

Confuscious would be ashamed
Of the people we became

Give me a beat
Give me a progression
Of chords
Give me a change

And my words can have more meaning

Its all wrong
You've got me all wrong
Words were meant to be sung
So let my sing

And my words can have more meaning

A million rounds a minute
A million thoughts
A million bullets
A million times that I can miss my target

Broken tears
The hope of war
Hard hearts beating
The burning bed
Maybe hands and heads see eyes
And devils magic
mad love can never be happy
Little fallen moon
The deeper ocean
Children and monsters
The red star
Maybe hopes and dreams see faces
And dancing moments
Still
Mad love can never be happy
A hiding hell
The new cold fire
Imagined angels
To bring you death
Maybe love can't bring you joy
Its just illogical longing
Mad love can never be happy

I was told as a child
There are no places left to explore
They've all been discovered before

Well there's outer space
The ocean
And the human mind

Probably enough in those places
We've never seen before

Even the greatest
Should follow me
My thoughts innovate
My words crystal clear

Originality
And tradition
Combined in a way
Not seen before

And whatever you need to hear
I need to say
I'm reaching from a trap
Knowing what its like to be free

I float like a butterfly

I expect you to know the rest

I am the greatest

Can we expect a change
If we aren't willing to do what it takes
To make it be

I'm sure we shouldn't

I can't live
Without some help
In the form of poison
To make me numb
I can't live
Without depressants
In the form of liquid
To make me dumb

I haven't cracked a smile
In a long while

I remember wanting to leave
But she was busy putting on her make-up
Well,
I have left
Wherever she is now
She's probably still putting on her make-up

Those unfaithful
Those desert jackals
The wicked and the sinful

I have loved you
I have loved you

Now we call the arrogant blessed
Certainly evil doers prosper
Even when they put god to the test
They get away with it

Those have defiled
Those who desecrate
The evil and the profane

I have loved you
I have loved you

Now we call the arrogant blessed
Certainly evil doers prosper
Even when they put god to the test
They get away with it
They get away with it

Heed my words Judah
Change your ways Ely
Find your homes you son's of Dan

I have loved you
I have loved you
I have loved you
I have loved you

Malachi show us the way
Sacred words to show us wisdom
That we may abandon our idols
And find the glory

All the times before
The time is now
Lessons passed from ages
Generations become a stepping stone
And man must learn
It's always a war
We win and lose
These bodies are holy trinity
As histories blood seeps through our pages
What do we know
Haven't the oceans been crossed?
Doesn't the rain fall from on high?
Don't the clouds hold hidden faces?
Will the sun sometimes shine?
It is a blue sky
It is the backs of the slaves
It is our history's tomorrow
Today that we can change
It is the death
And the loss
And the pain
It is our glory
Our redemption
A story we hear time again
But give so little attention
Become our fear from our hope
We have our chance
To make a change
And open our eyes for just the first time
To shine a light
To burn
Burn away the darkness
We have a chance
Or we don't
Man must learn

Just because I've decided  
I should wake up in a mansion
With loyal servants
And a successful career
Doesn't mean that tomorrow
I will wake up in a mansion
With twenty rooms
And a swimming pool

It only means that today
I will do everything I can to make it happen

As a writer
You can write about
Whatever it is you are going through
And be understood
By anyone else
Going through the same place you are

Well

As a writer
You can forget yourself
Wear someone else's shoes
And walk a mile

So I become someone else
I see this world from  different place
I become a man who I am not
I understand things I shouldn't
I write things I wouldn't
My world looking different

As a writer
You should forget yourself
Wear someone's else's shoes
And walk a mile

Be anyone in the world
A lonesome romantic
A sad teenage girl
A professional athlete
A billionaire psychopath
A winner
A failure
Anyone

As a writer
It is not just want
It is need
It is the ability to speak meaning to anyone