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when we embraced
all i wanted to do was to look at your face
to see what not wanting to let go
looked like

that deep breath in and out  
at the nape of my neck
seemed to go on
for forever

goodbye, too
felt like a lifetime
and i fear that a lifetime will never
be enough

sugar on her lips
a smile

sugar, sugar

she's the kind that
burns your throat if you eat
too much

i apologise for not being
                                 becoming enough of a person

personifying a human being
                                        besieged by the lack thereof emotions.

emotionlessness consumes me
                                                metaphorically speaking, or it maybe

magnanimously just spares my heart -
                                                        hesitat­ingly, yet all-encompassingly.  

altercations between the conscious and sub
                                                                ­      supersedes any revelations whatsoever

whereby a somewhat sound mind like mine
                                                                ­     mimics that of a child

choking on the fear of the monstrosity lurking;
                                                                ­    lurching from under the bed.

bewildered by the bogeyman,
                                 bogus feelings, confused mind

mischaracterising i
                                i am sorry

somewhat, somehow
                                        sorry.