Being 22 to struggle each day I was down, depressed felt all alone. My boyfriend had strayed away with other things. I had to leave, id had enough of the greif. He wanted me back but I was finding my feet a week after that I was in disbelief. He told me something that he'd hidden away but it come back and caught up with him killed us both in a way. I had my dog driving home after work it was 3 years anniversary that day. Got to the door strangers every where I stand with the news that I did not want to hear. I5 years ago 25th of July I still think of him he hanged himself cause of a secret he kept he was ***** at 11 by a 19 year old man. The people that's left hearts broken angry with everything. I know he's at peace he lived in a place for 15 years broken inside had a face that smiled everyday but that evil come back would not go away embarrassed and broken. The secret he kept took my man away, never hide bad things cause your never alone if he'd maybe told me at the start he'd be here today. MISS U EVERY DAY BUT I KNOW YOU WILL BE THERE, WAITING AT THE GATE WHEN MY TIME IS UP TO MAKE UP THE YEARS, THAT WE LOST. BEN AT YOUR SIDE WAGGING HIS TAIL NEVER TO BE ALONE AGAIN. ***
Never keep bad ordeals to yourself confined in someone. My man would have maybe be here today it wasn't a cowardly way out the only coward is his abuser. It's my heart that has never really healed but i have my little girl that keeps me alive and makes life worth getting up for. Try stay strong there is always hard times but someone to help is never far away.
