#keepittoyourself poems

Andres Martinez Aug 2018

Ever wonder what it's like?
Have you ever had a cramp?
Kind of like that
only it's not as easy to just stretch
unless it's the brain
stretch the mind that I might be happy someday
I've kept things in because that's what I was taught
Bottle it up
it's only your thoughts
it's all in your head
out of sight out of mind right?
if only it was that simple
I'd vent but I think to some it's gotten old
maybe once I'm gone people might say everything seemed okay
take it to my grave
all the **** I've been holding
I guess that's why they silence is golden

#struggling #keepittoyourself

Falling Apart Aug 2015

The Vicious Cycle

It is a vicious cycle you see
you keep everything bottled up because you do not want to hurt people
you do not want to bother them with your petty, useless problems
but then it destroys you on the inside,
so by trying to not destroy and hurt people you end up hurting yourself.
You want to open up and tell someone about the storm in your head
but you push them away right before you hit your breaking point
because you are scared they will not understand,
and you let the storm continue to brew in your mind.
It is a paradox you see, by desperately trying to not ruin someone you ruin yourself but you do not realize because to you you are not a person, you are a mistake.

#pain #sadness #scared #hurt #destroy #mistake #storm #keepittoyourself

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