Father please,
Stop yelling,
My ears begin to bleed.
Mother please,
Stop slamming things,
I tremble in my chair.
Sister please,
Stop pacing the house,
I become so unsettled.
Amidst the noises,
Of the television on,
The yelling
And the slamming,
And the pacing,
There is no quiet.
My mind is jumbled
And I cannot focus on anything.
My hands shake as
I want to throw and hit things.
There is so much noise,
So much loudness,
I am losing myself and I want to rip myself apart and I want to cry and
I want to scream
STOP!
But I can only sit.
I can only cover my ears,
I can only look away,
I can only retreat inside once again.
I can only try to remember when this wan't happening.
I can only hold tightly onto my own hands and hope this ends soon.
And yet,
I may wish,
And I may wish again.